If we can be together forever, I can promise that you can kiss me, you can hug me. I want you to take me, take me away and don't take me back.
*

'Stop thinking about the past or it will catch up to you'

I went to sleep for part of the movie and felt kinda bad for it. When I woke up my head pounded with pain. I let out a loud groan holding my head.

"Laurance you're up" Garroth stated. "What's wrong" I whined at his question. He put his hand on my head and rubbed his softly.

That feels so good, ahhh

He does that for a while, while I was laying on the covers. He stopped and took my hand.

"I'm walking you home" I tell him.

Take me then

"Okay" I groaned. "What about my clothes" I asked getting up. He gave me

That smile

I blushed, good thing it was dark. He grabbed my hand.

"Ill drink it to you tomorrow, I think you look cute" he says pulling me to his room. I get my stuff from his room. He leaned against his wall, waiting for me. I could feel him stare at me.

"Do you need something" I asked him.

"Nope but it's getting late, don't want any clowns getting us, do you" he said. I get my trumpet case and it was heavy.... like always

"Need help" he asked grabbing my case. I looked at him picking up my case. We locked eyes, I feel the blush coming out my face.

"Hmm, loss in my eyes again" He taunts me.

Fuck of course I am

"Shut the hell up" I growl under my breath.

"I wanted to but that means I can't talk to you" he responds. I just didn't look at him, then he starts talking again.

"Laurance you know what I like about you, you're dorky but cute. That's something I dig, and don't act like you don't like me. I've know you like me since 3rd grade. That's why you wanted to go to my house. Laurance is you want me to kiss you, ask..." he started to talk

"Shut up I don't like you, I like girls" I say with a voice squeak. He looked at me and laughed.

"Just to tell you I'm gay as fuck. I know you're like- WOW A RO'MEAVE IS GAY, THE HOTTEST GUY IN SCHOOL. Yeah I am gay, but I'm closet gay. I know you're wondering why I am telling you. Well, I trust you and I don't have other friends. Laurance you know what you like same like me. Suprise~" he explained to me.

I looked at him and he looked at me smiling...

That smile

"I'm trusting you to keep my secret" he said. I looked at him he did the same to me.

"Y-you didn't have to t-tell me that" my stupid voice stuttered.

"Look at me Laurance" he said. I looked at him.

I was getting a little angry because I didn't want too. I knew I was Gay and didn't want to be confronted about my sexuality. Being in the closet makes me feel like an outcast and different. I want to tell the world I am gay. I just can't.

Garroth being the lady man at school, I couldn't tell he was gay.

Now I make no sense...

I don't want to hear about other people being a closet gay. When I am trying my hardest not to be gay.

I WANT TO BE STRAIGHT
I WANT TO BE A NORMAL BOY
I WANT TO BE....

I want to be....

I want Garroth.
I really want Garroth.

"Laurance look at me" He said pushing me against the wall. I look at him in his eyes as he pins my arms above me.

"Laurance tell me what you want" he asked me. I stare at the ground.... or something else.

He leans down for a kiss as our lips almost touch.

"WERE HOME" Garroth's family said. Me and Garroth slowly parted and we both let out a loud groans. He grabs my case and bookbag. He took all my things, I had nothing to hold.

"WE'LL finish that kiss later~" he whispers closing the door behind us. I blushed but covered my face walking down the stairs.

I ALMOST FUCKING KISSED
SHITTTT

Once we got down there, Garroth's dad looks at Him. Garroth smiled.

I swear his smile is a disease, that will kill me.

"Did you guys have fun" My mom asked. Me and Garroth looked at each. He smiled and I blushed.

"Mhmm, now me and Laurance have to go" Garroth said yanking me out the door. We were finally out the door he laughed.

"You're always so fucking flustered" he laughed.

"Why are you laughing" I asked. He stopped laughing shortly and put his arm around me.

"It's cute how flustered you get around me Laurance. You know you like me. Besides you're kinda cute yourself" he adds.

I tried staying quiet

BUT NOW I'M TRIGGERED

"I swear Garroth stop. I don't like you, if I did I still wouldn't tell you. Just dr..." he stopped me and grabbed my hands. I realized we were on my porch. Not talking is amazing for walks.

My hands were once again above my head. The same position we were in, in his room. He leans in closer to me.

"You want me to drop it, you want me to drop my feelings for you. I mean i voukd but that will be hard. Hmm, so how about that kiss" he whimpered in my ear. I lips almost meet.

"LAURY YOU'RE HERE" My mom screams. Me and Garroth once again parted from our kiss. We both groan once again as my mom comes outside.

"Hi Garroth thank you for walking Laurance home" my mom chirped

"No problem Mrs. Zvahl. Do you mind if I talked to Laurance for a quick second" Garroth asked my mother.

"Of course" She chirped looking at me and winking. Garroth seen and laughed when she left.

"What do you want" I asked him crossing my arms like the sassy princess I am.

"You are always playing hard to get. Laurance I know this may be soon. Actually no, I've know for years but... you get it. But I've know you for a while now and was wondering if you want to... go on a date with me" He asked me. My face changes into a red ball of happiness.

"D-Date, with you" I squealed. He let's out a chuckle.

"Yeah you Laury" he taunts once again flashing that infectious smile. I smiled at his smile.

"I could but it will charge you" I stunt.

"Anything" he announced. I put my arms around his neck, he puts his around my back. We lean in once again.

"Laurance dad wants to see you!!" My mom screamed on here way toward the front door. This time we squealed in anger.

WHAT THE HELLLL

"Okay mom let's go. Bye Garroth" I pull my mom back in order the house where she belongs.

"BYE LAURANCE" He screamed in laughter. That made me smile, just a little bit.

I skipped my dad went into my room.

My room is the only place I can express my gayness freely. I have a gay flag above my dresser. The walls are pastel green. I have Christmas lights hanging up around a galaxy triangle. Glow in the dark stars on my art wall with my art.

Gay. It's fucking gay I know.

I locked my door, sliding against the door biting my lip. I melt all the way down to the floor sprea....

Opening my legs thinking about him. We almost kissed 3 times.

SHITTTT

I check my case and find a price of paper

Call me ❤☺

I let my body sink into another world.

I think about his smile.

I'm ded. I ded now.

I keep the clothes he gave me and went to sleep flustered as hell.

Fuck yeah I have a date.

I'm so ded
*

Probably crappies dingles