Paisley's pov

"Just die, no ones going to miss you!"

"Kill yourself! Just like your joke of a brother did." The voices taunted while kicking me as I laid on the floor in pain.

I screamed and bolted upright, harshly whacking my head on my headboard. It was just a nightmare... Sorta.

I took a sip of water from on my nightstand and sighed. I got the nightmare almost every night. It pissed me off so much! It was basically just re occurring memories that I desperately tried to forget.

I got up and slipped on a hoodie, my converses and some jeans before opening my window quietly and lowering myself out of it. I landed on the grass with a small thud and ran to the street. It became a tradition to kinda sneak out and got for walks when I woke up in the middle of the night, usually I went for about an hour until my nerves calmed a little.

I began my walk to the park which I usually went to, it wasn't far, maybe five minutes at most. The cool night air, The light posts and stars reflecting off the streets, and the breeze that blew my hair around in a soothing manner, were my favourite part of going for walks.

I approached the park and hopped over the small metal fence with ease before heading to the swing set. I always went to the swings just to sit and think for a little. But as I approached the seat this time I was stopped.
"Paisley? I-is that you?" The familiar voice called from somewhere on the ground.

I nearly jumped out of my socks when I looked down and saw a boy laying on the ground examining the stars.

"Jesus Christ! Don't do that." I scolded as I slapped his arm lightly and lowered myself to the ground to match his posture. My heart felt as if it was going to hop out of my chest at this point.

"Sorry." He laughed. Mmhmm you better be. Jackass

"Why are you here anyways Ashton?" I asked as I turned to face the curly haired boy. He was my brothers best friend, well ex bestfriend now. "I could ask you the same damn thing princess."

"Fair enough." I breathed. I snuggled closer to him and stared up at the beautiful stars while grabbing Ashton's hand in mine and intertwining our fingers.

We were really close, not in that kind of way though, he was basically like my other big brother.

I grabbed my phone with my free hand and checked the time.
3 o'clock in the damn morning. Guess who's going to be exhausted tomorrow? *raises hand*

"How have you been doing?" Ashton asked me. I knew he wasn't asking about school and stuff, he was referring to the accident.

"I've been alright, I miss Dylan like crazy though... How have you been doing?" I said sadly. I could feel some tears starting to build up in my eyes. I tried to force them back and it seemed like it was working, that's until Ashton looked me in the eye and said "I just miss my bestfriend."

I couldn't contain it, I let out a small sob and buried my head against Ashton's broad shoulder. We were now sitting up and he was rocking me as I cried into him. God I'm such a baby

Dylan was my older brother, he had been suffering from depression. He used to be so happy all the time, but once we moved, he just stopped. I had no idea why, but I knew it was serious.

One night I walked into his room and found him laying on the floor, a bottle of pills in one hand, and a suicide note in the other. He had killed himself.

"I'm sorry I got your shirt all wet." I said to Ashton when I pulled away and wiped my face on the sleeve of my sweater. I had finally calmed down enough to utter those few words.

"I don't mind." He said as he pulled me to sit closer to him, he began to stroke my head, he knew my mom used to do this when I was upset. It always made me feel better.

"Would you like to come for coffee with me sometime? I miss my little sister." He laughed, I liked how he knew exactly when to change the subject as well.

"Of course, I kind of miss my big brother too." I smiled as I kissed him on the cheek and stood up, pulling him with me.

"Only 'kind of' you didn't miss me a whole shït ton?" He giggled as he stood up beside me and began walking with me to the fence. "Maybe just a little bit." I smirked. It's true I did miss him a lot, he was always there to make me happy, and he had an amazing giggle, who wouldn't miss that. He laughed before lifting me out of the playground and then hopped off of the fence himself.

We walked all the way until I got back to my house, him occasionally poking my side and laughing when I squirmed because I'm ticklish.

"Go to sleep. I know you need it." He ordered lightly. I embraced him and muffled a 'thank you' into his chest before pulling away and giving him a weak smile. He nodded and then walked to his house that was conveniently just down the street from mine.

I hesitantly hopped up onto the roof and climbed into the open window. I closed it and then stripped out of my jeans before climbing into bed and falling asleep instantaneously.

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I ended up only falling asleep at around 5 for about two hours before I was rudely awaken by my alarm. So much for beauty sleep.

I hazily got up, walked to the bathroom and turned on the water. I brought my stereo into the bathroom, after putting on my favourite playlist I hopped in and began to shower.

20 minutes later I was out and trying to decide what outfit to wear today. I could either wear a grey skater dress or my black skinny jeans and a nirvana sweatshirt. I looked out the window, maybe the weather could help me decide.

It was raining again.

I put my hair in a side braid and then chose the second outfit since it would probably be warmer for today.

I didn't have time to get breakfast so I just grabbed my keys, my wallet, my bag, and my phone and dashed out the door. I didn't bother to say goodbye to my father, he was probably still sleeping. After starting the car and blasting the music I began my long drive to the school.

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I had just passed the grocery store when it really began to pour.
I noticed a familiar pair of long lanky legs running while holding their hood up, sighing I pulled the car to a halt. I honked the horn a couple times and then watched as he looked around confusingly.

"Do you want a ride?!" I yelled to him as I got out of the car, only to be immediately drenched in rain water. He looked around him as if he thought I was asking someone else and then he nodded. He ran to my car and opened the door before climbing in and shivering lightly.

I blasted the heat and turned down the music that I once had blaring. He surprised me when he turned the radio back up and smiled at me. I smiled back and then started driving. It was a good song so I'm glad he chose to turn it up.

I waited till the song was over before talking, after all I couldn't just sit in silence the whole way to school with a stranger in the passenger seat.
"What's your name?"

"Luke."

"Oh, I'm Paisley."

"I know what your name is." He said but then blushed.
"You do?" I asked confusingly, I'm not really the kind of girl that is memorable. Even if we are in the same Art class I didn't expect him to know my name.
"Yes."

"You are a really good drawer." I complimented.

"Thanks."

Then silence, again.
As if Luke could tell that I was desperately trying to talk to him, he spoke up.
"Why did y-you offer me a ride?" He stuttered nervously. It was kind of adorable. Even for a tall teenage boy.

"I dont know... It's raining and you were walking, I thought you would appreciate it." I assured him as I glanced at him a couple times before permanently averting my gaze to the road.

"Thank you." He said sincerely while clutching his items to his chest.

Two minutes later I pulled into my usual parking spot and turned off the car. "See you later." I smiled.
"Yeah. Thanks again." He said as he grabbed his stuff and headed into the school. I watched until he disappeared into the crowd of teens before I walked to where I saw Alex and the rest of her friends. I would say 'my friends' but I didn't really associate with any of them in any way. I had Alex and Calum and that was pretty much it.