When Caleena and I sat in the car, we talked. "So... What did you do, while Nicaise and I were away?" "Eh... We went for a walk in the forrest..." "And...?" "Nothing and." "Ayana?" - She looked at me. "Don't lie to me. Please. I know, when someone is lying.Did you have sex?" I was quiet. "Yes...", I meant later quietly. "Ayana... Don't. I know, that we're actually not related, but he's a playboy. He'll just break your heart. Or worse, he will make you smoke.-" "No-" "Please let me finish. I guess he didn't tell you, how often this exact same scenario happened with other girls?" "No..." "Way to often! About a week later, the girls knock crying at our door and Yophiel is never home. Please just don't get involved with him. He'll just break your heart."I sat quiet next to her and she drove to Chamore.When we arrived, I got out and took my bags. I rang the bell and said goodbye to Caleena. She wanted to wait, until someone, my mom, opened. Nobody came, even though I had rang three times already. I went to a little rock, on the edge of the small fountain and took the key. I opened the door and took my bags inside. Then I went to Caleena again and meant: "Thank you for the great four weeks, I was with you! It was great! Thank you!" We hugged and she ment, while holding me: "You're welcome. And when you're finished with the exams and with school, or so, you can come to us and start working!" I smiled and we let go of each other. She got in the car and drove off. I waved and she waved back. Then I went insde, closed the door and called in the house: "Mom? Are you there?" - No answer.So I went upstairs and put the bags in my room. I went through every room. The last one was the bedroom of my mom.I got a huge shock, as I saw her laying there. Her liveless body lay white as snow on the ground. I knelt down to her and had started crying. I looked up to the ceiling and saw the rope hanging there. I saw the pressure marks around mom's neck. A bit next to her, there was a bucket. She bad stood on it and kicked it away.I took out my phone and saw, thet Yophiel has written something to me. I clicked it away and made a call. "911, what's your emergency?" Crying I told the man on the phone: "Hello. My- my name is Ayana Greer. I- I just came home... from a trip and f- I found my mom- d- dea- dead on the g... ground of her b- bedroom!" "Okay, Miss Geer. We'll send someone. Please tell us your adress." I told them, where I lived and asked him, what I should do. "Leave the room and wait outside for the team. Then bring them to the dead person." "Something else too?", I asked and went crying out of the bedroom. "No. You will get further instructions from the police." "Thanks...", I cried. "You're welcome", he meant. I could hear, he was smiling a little.Then I hung up.I was outside. About 5 minutes later the police arrived. I showed the room with my dead mom in it and should stay downstairs. They were three persons. Teo men, who were upstairs and a woman, a psychologist. She was with me and tried to calm me a bit. I was under shock. She helped me and talked to me.It was good to talk to somebody in this moment...Later the men came down with a stretcher. A gold blanket was over it. They put it in the car and came to me. "We need to ask you some questions, if it's okay." I nodded slowly and the woman lay an arm around me. They started to ask questions and I cooperated as good as I could."Do you have someone to go to and talk to in the near?", asked the woman. - I nodded. "Go there and recover a bit from the shock. Try to get other thoughts and calm down." I nodded and thanked them for coming. "If you have something in retrospect to tell us, what you forgot now, feel free to come, or call, okay?" I nodded again. The three went to the car and the driver drove off. I stood there. Helpless. I took my phone out and called Caribia. When she picked up, she heard the sadness and fear in my voice. I told her, that I needed to talk to her and stay over for a few days. She was okay with it and I got in the M.C.I stood the next five days at Caribia's. I couldn't go home. I just couldn't, emotionally.After these days I went to school again. I had missed a exam, but I really didn't care.I had to write all the exams, even though I just had a traumatic experience. My teachers saw, that I couldn't concentrate or listen well.On the last day of writing exams, I had a complete breakdown. I locked myself in the toilet and cried. I hit the wall and hurt my hand, so that it blended. Someone was send after me. I heard how they called my name. I didn't react. "Ayana. Is everything okay? Can I help you in some way? Is there anything I can do?" It was Nalani. A beautiful, Asian-American girl. She was in my age and lived actually near to me.I cried and a drop of blood hit the ground. Nalani stood in front of the door. "Ayana. Please tell me, what happened? You ran out of class while the test. Is everything okay?"I didn't answer to any of her questions. Later she left and I stood in the toilet.When it was time to go home, I ran to the classroom, where I left my bag. The teacher sat there and corrected the tests. "Ayana-" I took it and went out of the room and out of the school. When I sat in mom's M.C. and looked out of the front, I saw the empty school and the empty parking lots. I was one of the last ones to leave.I drove home and wrote Yophiel. He already knew about my mom's passing. Same as my step-uncle and step-aunt. They were the only family now, I had left...I wrote, that I was finished with the exams and that I want to come to them again. He told me, that Caleena and Nicaise were happy about my coming and that they want to know, if they should come and get me, or if I would come with our M.C. or the M.B.I said, I would come on my own.A few weeks I got my graduation papers. I wasn't really good, but that was because I hadn't written one exam and on another I only did the half.