Um... So here's news,  I'm a few months away from Being 18

Not that it really helps my case. Haha.

Let me explain...

I feel like everyone hates me. I'm kinda in a dark place right now because every step I take the more trouble I cause,  the more pain hurts people,  the more crud I have on my plate,  and the worse my anxiety and streets levels get. 

I piss everyone off. I hurt people.  People who don't deserve to be hurt.

I keep causing more pain to people I thought wouldn't care about me anymore,  but still do.

AND IT ALL. JUST. KEEPS. CRUSHING.  ME.

I know it's lame to let all of this get me down,  and I'm not usually a negative person.  But it's getting really hard for me to see the silver lining. 

Anyway,  I hope you all are doing well,  and there is an individual,  he knows who he is,  that I hope thing are getting better for him.  Even if I am making it difficult and complicated for him to do so. 

Thanks for reading guys.  Next time I promise I'll be more positive next time I post.

Love you all, 

-averycoolyoutuber