Am I stupid?

Maybe it's because I'm far too sensitive. I take things too personally. I get sad and upset and angry.

I wish I could help. My pleas go unheard.

I don't understand why I can't be trusted.

Have I done something wrong?

Did I mess something up again?

Did I open my big mouth far to wide again?

How could I have possibly hurt you again?

I feel like a broken record talking to a wall.

Everyone else in the world might be out for you. Might leave you. Might hurt you. Might mess with your head.

But not me. Don't you ever group me in the same category as all of them. I am nothing like them.

Because for once in my life I've finally forgiven myself for what I did, like you said you had. And I've forgiven you for what happened to me.

I'm not looking to hurt you anymore. I'm here to start the healing process, of which you continue to put off and deny yourself.

Why? I'm literally right here. I could let the healing begin if only you would let me.

Don't push me away. Not again.

I clawed my way up those walls that you built up. I jumped through all your hoops. I listened to you.

Do not make me do all of that over again. Especially after I've done nothing wrong to deserve this kind of treatment.

Don't you dare slam your door in my face. After everything I've done for you. And after everything I will continue to do for you. You don't get to just lock me out.

I think you forgot how resilient I am. I think you forgot how much of a fighter I am. I think you forgot how well I know you.

I am not the same as people who hurt you. Maybe a younger me was no different than they were. But I've changed since then. I'm wiser, and smarter, and stronger than I was.

And I know you can see it. I know you've noticed there's been a big change.

So do me a favor. Stop treating me like I'm them. I'm so much different then they are. You know that.

So please I'll ask again. Give me a chance.

Moral of the story:

Is all I want too much to ask? Is there something wrong with me...

All I have is myself at the end of the day. But shouldn't that be enough for me?