It's been three days since Sol died. I haven't left my room since my aunt Amelie finished questioning us. Beckett keeps leaving food outside for me while Zacharias tries to get me to leave the room...Alena hasn't left her room either. Sassy's curled up on Sol's futon, her head resting on one of their shirts, it took her two hours to figure out what happened. I'm lying on my bed, watching her, feeling perfectly numb. I look down at the shirt I'm wearing and wonder why Sol had so many plain white shirts. I have one and I got it from them five days ago. I sigh and sit up, it's time to stop lying around. I miss them and I don't think I can stop if I tried. I go to their bag which hangs on the back of the door and lift it off. I check it for anything I want to keep and find something in an envelope with my name on it. I open it and read it.

Luna,

If you're reading this, then the truth spell was right, I died for you...Or maybe even Beckett since he's basically a part of you at this point. Whatever way it happened, I just decided I should write you a letter in case I don't get to say goodbye. I know we've only known each other for a month, excluding when we were infants obviously, but you're my sister and I love you not just because I have to. If the crystal spell worked, I'm not really gone but I may not be with you physically but I'll be there no matter what. Just know that no matter how I died or who I died for, I have no regrets.

Please remember me, Sol

P.S Don't stop living because of me

I wipe away a tear and fold up the letter to see three more with names on them, Beckett, Alena and Zach. I take them out and glance at myself in the mirror. Apart of the shadows under my eyes, I look exactly the same...Hopefully they won't worry about me. I open my door and someone falls backwards into my room. Beckett quickly gets up, looking as tired as I do.

"Hi." He breathes.

"Hi," I repeat before offering him the letter. "Sol wrote all of us letters...Have you been sleeping out here?" I ask, looking at the heap of blankets on the floor as he takes the letter from me.

"Yeah...I thought it would be a good idea to sleep out here so the first person you saw was me since I knew Sol just as long as you-" I interrupt him with a hug and he hugs me back. "So, you think it's still your fault?" I shake my head.

"Sol was told by the truth spell that they would die for me...It wasn't anyone's fault," I say into his chest and he kisses the top of my head. "Where's Alena and Rias? They have letters too," He pulls out of the hug and leads me to the sofas where Alena sits eating cookie dough ice cream in a shirt John/Ash gave her while Zacharias lies on the ground wearing black. "I don't know which one of you look more depressed." Alena looks over at me.

"Well, I lost the only guy I think I will ever love," She gestures at Zacharias who hasn't acknowledged my existence. "While he lost his familiar and his best friend. I'm leaning towards Rias." He looks up and stares at me with dead green eyes. I walk forward and offer them the letters.

"Sol wrote us letters," I explain and Zacharias stares at Sol's shirt. "And if you guys want, you can take one of Sol's shirts...They're all white." I awkwardly stand there as they read their letters, all of them looking like they're about to cry. Beckett hugs me for a long time before Zacharias chucks his letter at us.

"Can you two stop being lovey dovey for two fucking minutes?" He asks bitterly and I step out of the hug, feeling concerned. "Sol knew they'd die for you and you aren't upset? Or at least guilty? Read my letter. Go on. It's personal but still, if you need guilt, it's right there." I pick up the letter and offer it to him

"Trust me, I have plenty of guilt. It's your letter, I won't read it," I explain, my voice cracking unexpectedly. "I lost Sol just like you...Actually not just like you, I still have a crystal that seems to occasionally let them out and since they died for me, I've got enough guilt, I can't take some of yours too." I try to swallow my tears but can't and start crying. Someone hugs me and I hug him back.

"I'm sorry, Luna," Zacharias whispers and I mumble something that sounds like forgiveness before he pulls out of the hug to look at the others. "Especially since I just realised what day it is," I frown until it hits me, the third of November which means... "Happy birthday." I try to smile at him.

"Thanks, Rias," I mutter and barely catch the presents thrown at my head. "Of course you got me presents...Thanks guys," I see Zacharias share a look with Alena and know what it means as I set down the presents. "You haven't planned a party have you?" They nod and I sigh. "Guys..." Beckett takes my hands gently.

"I know it's really bad timing but we did plan it for you with Sol," He explains, absently playing with my hands. "I think Sol would like you to at least go to it...Although Zacharias decided to learn the jig to a certain song and I think you should tell us to go away to save yourself." I shrug.

"I mean I've seen many people do the jig and Rias doing the jig sounds like an adventure that can be used as blackmail," Everyone smiles and I let go of Beckett's hands. "I better open these presents, huh?" I sit down and open one of the presents. I hold up a necklace with a crescent moon on it. "Who decided to be cute?" Alena raises her hand and I put it on. "Thanks," I open one that feels like clothes to find a neon pink hoodie. "I'm hoping that this is a 'thank you Rias' situation...?" I trail off and Zacharias nods. I slip on the hoodie to pretend it doesn't make my eyes burn. I open the second last one to find a packet of pencils...But I know they aren't from Beckett. "Sol?" I ask and they nod. I set them down and open the last present. I look at a ring with a white flower on it. "Wow...This is..." I put it on and look at it, feeling Beckett's eyes watching me. "Thank you. It's beautiful." He kisses my cheek before I notice one similar to mine on his finger without the flower and he notices me looking.

"It's a kind of promise ring," He explains and I can see him clearly panicking. "As in as long as we both wear one, I'll love you and I'm not saying that's to promise that I'm going to marry y-" I kiss him, shutting him up. The others urgh and walk away. I pull out of the kiss and he touches my cheek. "If I had said it was a promise to marry you...Would that change anything?" I shake my head and kiss him again before putting my hands around his neck.

"I lost my twin...I need something permanent and you seem permanent to me," He kisses me gently and I put my hand over his before whispering. "I'm ready whenever you are...For the physical stuff," Beckett's jaw drops and I smile, my first real smile in days. "I think you dropped something, let me get that for you." I close it and walk off, feeling him watching me.