I wanted to talk about someone again. ItsALolbitShow. I dont want her to see this tho b/c she might get mad.

I dont want to talk about this in detail, but its stuck in the back of my mind and I need to let it go. This is the best way I know how. Lolbit was an amazing friend honestly, but she did something horrible to me and I blocked her out. I'm not saying shes a 'horrible person and u shouldn't like her and what not'. Im saying that she jumped on me like I did to her a few times. I had my reasons that I dont want to talk about, but so did she.

She unfollowed me on Wattpad and decided not to say anything after that, so I did the same. If u care, please dont go to her and be like 'man Lolbit! Ure mean!' Please PLEASE dont. Even if u want to (this is just in case u want to)

I just wanted to say that I was willing to be her friend, but she kept pulling me down, making me feel horrible, heck I'm probably the reason shes depressed and sad now. But the thing is, I dont give in that easily. All I wanted was for her to say 'I'm srry. This is my fault. I pushed u to hard.' Because for a few months, I felt as if Lolbit was a boulder of my self confidence, growing bigger, becoming more horrible each time it grew. All I wanted was for her to come to me and say 'I'm srry for what I did to u, Angel. I didnt mean it, and I want to stay friends. So please, come back. I'll try and be better, because that's what besties do.' And I never got that. Instead I came to her. And she broke me down again. So i pushed her away. She says she has 'no friends' but it's her fault. And I cant say anything b/c I cant let myself. Do u understand my pain? Do u really care? I'm sure some do, but most dont.

I'm srry. I'm going to far. I cant. Please dont tell her about this. I...I dont know if I can handle her anymore. But I needed to say something, push through the barrier that the voice built around me, that I built around myself...to try and protect myself from more pain...so please, dont let her know...let her find out on her own. Please.

Thanks for reading I guess. Only the people who care would read this <3