I'm sorry that I said goodbye yesterday

I'm sorry for forgetting your name

I didn't meant to push you away

I thought you would leave like the rain

I apologize for my demeanour

But the sun is dull and grass isn't greener

And my mind sinks its claws deeper

So go ahead, be my miserable reaper

My saviour, my golden herring

Oh thank you, it was all in my head!

Thank you for declaring

How I can't wish I was dead!

I could rip the sky down and bring a hundred storms

To drench this ugly, cracked room and flood mirrors

Until the reflection ripples

––And I'm not really me anymore

Go jump off a cliff.

From the Golden Gate Bridge,

Watch the stars fade and go

Watch me sway and know

That I starve my heart

Because I can't be broken more

If I'm already falling

apart.

I chain bars over my ribs

So I can never truly live

I'm sorry,

So sorry

That I cough blood from my lips

So I can never truly forgive

I'm sorry

Sorry

Sorry.

Pain is sugary sweet

A reprieve, a relief

From the cranium,

Where my insane emporium

Is going into delirium!

And isn't it terrible

When my eyes melt like

caramel

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Art by Isa Obradovich

Instagram: isabella.drawsss