Hey, Ziggy here.
I'm not gonna beat around the bush here. I feel horrible. I feel like a plastic bag that just strangled a dolphin and is how sinking down to the bottom of the sea with a dead sea corpse embedded inside me.
The worst part is, I don't know how exactly to feel better. I have exams and due to study and stress I'm feeling a little sick but I can understand that. I always get a little sick during exams, and with being the biggest exam I've ever done in my life, it's not surprising that I have some sort of fever.

I just feel emotionally drained as well. Literally the worst part about being a teenager is having your feeling all over the place and getting mood swings. (Well there are periods too but that isn't limited to teenage years and it's a whole different ball game!) For me, these emotions become a manifesto of paranoia and insecurity. Its really debilitating. I've been raised to always be strong no matter what comes my way and I believe that, to the best of my ability I've always fulfilled it. Life is hard though, and when you feel like you have nobody to rely on while you're having a difficult time is really hard to deal with. Acne is a close second but I won't get into it in this blapter ;).

Either way, getting into the main point of this blapter, how do I make myself feel better? I'm tired so I don't know. All I know is that the sooner I do it, the better. I try reading and it does help remove me from my situation a little but it's still there. I keep telling myself that it doesn't matter and it won't matter to me in a years time but right now it does. Especially since I'm feeling all these emotions, this anxiety right now.
Exercise used to help but you see, I'm a gym junkie. I have no limits. I work out till I get injured which puts me M.I.A for a while.
Writing tends to help when I feel super overwhelmed but it doesn't make me feel completely better. It just takes away the sharpness of the pain I guess but the dull hurt still remains. (And dull is still enough to hurt). Talking to people helps but hurts more. I can talk to a person and they'll make me feel better at the moment, but then in some way or another I always get the same if not more pain from them than they took away so then I wonder if it was actually worth it.

Okay question time!
How do I stop feeling like shit?
Simple! All of the above. I realised that everything I did, I did one at a time. Now none of this is gonna help my anxiety in any way, and I'm gonna leave that to a different blapter but when it comes to the muddled feelings, I think all the above combined should help.

At least I hope so.