As she entered the square, the busy noise overwhelmed her. The whole way, she had been walking as if in a trance, trailing a merchant in a blue skullcap, stooped under the weight of the basket-full of flowers which he brought to market. Almost immediately, she spotted Hamid. Unassuming in a simple, white surcoat, he leaned against the marble fountain, his searching eyes scanning the crowd. She had dreamt him and here he was.

Behind the fountain, a loud-mouthed man served white pudding and minced meat on sizzling skewers. In the humid heat, the exotic scents dazed her. She looked around, dumfounded. Beneath the frying meat lingered the smell of coffee and tobacco from the cafés where men lounged with their pipes. More men, idling and sweating, squatted in the street corners. By the towering iron gates leading into the Bazaar, a little girl with hopelessly tangled hair wove baskets and shell necklaces. Two black-eyed women in thick layers of patterned skirts begged for money or food, but vanished when patrolling guards approached. A porter in a red fez, carrying bolts of silk and intricate lace, disappeared through some gates, followed by another porter with a long, wooden rod on his right shoulder, laden with what might be dried meat. The merchant in the blue skullcap tried to sell his produce to three women in headscarves with children tugging at their long, flowing robes, but a eunuch guard waved him away.

All the impressions and the tangle of unknown languages made her head spin. It was disorienting and frightening not to understand a single word. She drew a deep breath, feeling the aching tension in her body. What was she doing here? Being a fool, that's what. Being reckless and stupid. If, at that moment, Hamid had not lifted his head and looked straight at her, she might have fled back to Pera. He hesitated, probably confused by the shawl over her hair, and, had she looked away, might have concluded he was mistaken. But she did not, and their eyes met.

They were both timid. A couple of times, they started speaking at the same time.

"Did you..."

"Was it difficult..."

"I hope..."

It broke the ice, and both grinned.

"You go first," they said simultaneously and now they really had to laugh.

"Alright, I'll go first," he said with a gesture towards the entrance to the Bazaar. "The Bazaar is a world of its own, and that's the plan for the day, a discovery adventure."

"Oh," was all she could muster. Her fluttering heart and the thousands of butterflies in her stomach already made her feel weak and now this, a proposition to plunge into the obscurity beyond the iron gate with a man she barely knew. Though Hamid didn't feel strange to her. She could not claim to know him, but they had a connection which felt honest and true, more so than anything she had ever experienced before.

"You are uncomfortable? If you prefer, we can stay here, on the square," he said, sensing her hesitation but sounding disappointed.

"No, no let's go!"

She inspected his face, the twinkle in his brown eyes, the sensually grinning mouth on the verge of laughter; he was happy. She too was happy, in a giggly, lightheaded kind of way.

"I've never been inside the Bazaar before," she said.

He turned to her, embarrassed. "To be honest, I don't know my way around the Bazaar either, and it's crowded and dark. Let's stay close so we don't lose each other."

She put her arm under his.

Of course, they got lost. How could they not, in the sombre criss-crossing myriad of vaulted streets and alleyways. It was impossible to glean an overview of the geography because the Bazaar was jam-packed with people, horses, donkeys, dogs, cats, and natural light was only admitted through sparsely dispersed rectangular windows under the tiled roof. Along both sides of the trampled mud roads, merchants sat on carpets or wooden divans in front of shelves with produce, and their customers were invited to converse and bargain over a cup of coffee before buying. Even though the Bazaar was less ominous when they were actually in it, she didn't dare let go of his arm. It was a contact of fabrics which would have troubled her, had her sensors not been so consumed by the colourful, fragrant maze.

An hour later, when they were still lost, they were childishly jubilant to realise that each road bore the name of the profession of the sellers, or of the goods sold there, such as textiles, spices, luxury goods, shoes, bags, gold, and on and on. There was still no way of knowing north from south, or east from west, so they weren't helped much, but they felt more at ease.

When she looked with admiration at a gold bangle with a lucky charm to ward off the evil eye, he slipped it on her wrist.

"Please, a gift," he insisted. "As a memory."

When his fingers brushed against her skin, her heart fluttered.

They drifted with the crowd, past vendors, restaurants, hammam, a mosque and prayer rooms, deeper into the labyrinth. The cacophony was so loud and the world so mesmerising, her amazement choked off all words. Her whole being was concentrated on taking it all in, and on keeping a grip on Hamid's arm so she wouldn't lose him.

Checking his bearings over and over again, Hamid took them down one alleyway after another. He had heard of a vendor who sold baklavas made of seventy layers of filo dough and went in search of him. When she admitted to never having tasted a baklava, he bought one to share, deliciously sweet and nutty pastry served with steaming hot mint tea. Her scarf slipped off her hair, but she didn't care. In the obscurity and so far from Pera, no one would recognise her. They continued through corridors with textiles, past the hat vendors. Flora picked out a red fez and put it on his head.

"What do you think?" He flashed a broad smile.

"I'm not sure it suits you," she laughed.

"Peresto would agree."

"Who's Peresto?"

He returned the fez to the vendor. "My step-mother."

She realised how little she knew about him, where he came from, who his family was. Then she realised he knew nothing about her either, and it was just as well. It was as if they travelled in a delicate bubble which might burst with the wrong touch.

For a long time, they lingered in the spice market. She asked how to use saffron, cinnamon, and cumin, and he, in turn, asked a vendor, who launched into detailed explanations. At breakneck speed, Hamid translated these for her. Little of what he said made sense to her, because she'd never heard of most of the dishes he referred to or the ingredients he took for granted.

They finally exited the covered Bazaar through a large gate, and stepped into the sunlight, where she was immediately struck by the musky smell of sweat and manure, as well as an explosion of colour and sound, screeching, chirping, mewling. Countless animals – camels, horses, donkeys – caged or tethered, patiently waited while their owners showcased their strength and beauty to attract buyers. In narrow stalls, traders called out their prices and engaged in lively negotiations. Children and curious onlookers watched and commented. Here and there were small food stalls and tea houses. Deeper into this market, they passed livestock, cows, goats and sheep, and fowl herded together while farmers examined them and haggled over prices.

Further on still, they encountered exotic animals trapped in cages of all shapes and sizes. She stopped in her tracks and stared: snakes, monkeys, and a variety of birds, spectacular wild peacocks, sparrows and swallows, colourful, chattering parrots, tiny songbirds and powerful fighting cocks. It broke her heart to see so many caged animals, some in constant, restless movement, others weak and lethargic. Seeing her unhappiness, Hamid hurried past the cages. The straw which covered the trampled earthen floor crackled under their feet, and they grimaced at the sharp odour of excrement and fodder. She stopped by a cage with a scrawny, golden furred baby monkey. Through the thin bars of a cage, the monkey looked at her with black, round eyes. Her heart dropped.

"Poor thing."

A merchant appeared out of nowhere, gestured to the monkey and said in stuttering French, "If you love him, bring him home."

She jolted and shook her head vigorously.

Unfazed, the merchant continued, "Perhaps one of my rare birds will be more to your liking? White parrots, an Asian kakapo, and for you, Monsieur, a black condor. You will have seen nothing like it."

His eager eyes wandered from Flora to Hamid, and back to Flora. He clapped his hands together. "Ah, love, such a rare and beautiful thing to behold. I have just the thing for you."

Hamid shot her a bashful look, and she felt herself blush.

They followed the merchant to a group of stacked cages, each with a small bird inside of the same breed, slender with long tapering tales, brown plumage and black eyes. Hamid shot Flora another embarrassed glance. "Turtledoves."

"Oh."

He held her gaze and smiled. Bewildered, she smiled back at him, and they both laughed.

Hamid dropped some coins into the man's hand. "What will this buy me?"

The merchant stared at the coins and broke into a toothless grin. "For that, Effendi, you get the birds, the cages, and bearers as well."

They left the Bazaar with six cages, and three boys to carry them.

"What on earth will we do with them?" she asked.

Hamid beamed. "It's an Ottoman tradition. Caged birds are like the souls of men, trapped inside their physical bodies and longing to be set free so they can reunite with God. We will set them free."

"Over the sea?"

"Yes, over the sea."

Guided by the three young bearers in blue skull caps, Flora and Hamid were out of the Bazaar in no time. The boys arranged a ride for them with a horse-drawn farm cart, which wobbled down one of the main roads leading out of the city. Even though there was no longer any risk of losing each other, Flora's hand rested in Hamid's, like a bird in its nest. They didn't speak, but from time to time, they glanced at each other and smiled.

His skin glistened with sweat. She noticed her own damp skin under the dress, and mutinous curls stuck to her forehead and neck. She suspected his glowing eyes mirrored her own.

Once on foot again, with the sun in their eyes, they descended diagonally down the slope of the fourth city hill, through the many flourishing cypress groves inside the crumbling Byzantine city walls. It was a long walk. They breathed in unison, deep and calm, as if they had melted into one in the afternoon heat. This far from the heart of the city, settlements were more sporadic; for a long stretch already they hadn't seen a living soul, other than a hunched old woman who whipped her heavily loaded donkey up the hill. A fresh spring breeze was blowing. It ruffled Flora's hair and the blue surface of the sea below. Like a ray of sun, an unfamiliar, softly vibrating feeling spread from her heart through her body.

By a fountain, they drank, and washed their hands and faces. On the path ahead, the boys ran barefoot, a swinging cage in each hand, and disappeared behind the next grove. She turned to look back at Galata bridge; it glimmered like gold, and beyond it, Pera. They were alone, out of sight from the world. He drew her close, touched her hair slightly. The tips of his fingers fluttered against her face, long enough to make her shiver, making her feel flushed and breathless. She let her own fingertips trace the palm of his hand, upwards to the inside of his wrist. His flesh was soft and humid, and she trembled from the closeness of him. A wave rushed through her body, filling her with a sense of the life they could have together.

Her eye snagged on a flash of blue behind a thick cypress – she jolted and pulled away. Underneath her happiness, a feeling of discomfort appeared; it was the way the boy silently stared at her, with insolence in his brown almond-shaped eyes. In the heat, she had removed the shawl from her head and stood exposed and helpless, feeling like the scrawny little monkey in its cage. Hamid said something to the boy in Turkish and waved him away. For a moment, they both struggled to speak. He took her hand.

"You want to go back?"

"No," she said, though a part of her did want to flee.

As she followed Hamid, she noticed a new sense of pride in herself. She was here, in this unlikely place, in the company of this strange, alluring and unlikely man, and although she could see the dark clouds building on the horizon, which meant her return to Pera would be hard and difficult, she made no move to leave, no move to abandon the path she had taken.

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Author's note

The Ottoman government played a significant role in regulating the bazaar, setting prices for goods, ensuring fair trade practices, and collecting taxes from merchants. The government also appointed officials known as "kethüda" to oversee the daily operations of the bazaar, resolve disputes between merchants, and enforce regulations.

The Bazaar served not only as a commercial center but also as a social and cultural hub, where people from different backgrounds could interact, exchange ideas, and negotiate deals. It was a place where the Ulema, the learned class of Islamic scholars, could be found discussing religious and legal matters with merchants and customers.