I grieve about things that aren't even over yet, promises I know are going to get broken, friendships that will fall apart even if we tell each other we will stay forever, my mind refuses to believe in forever but my soul takes on the decision before I do it, it's like telling your grandfather that you will never forget him when he dies but you did, you forgot the way it felt when he would caress your hair while you fell asleep, you forgot the hellos and the goodbyes, the be safe and don't cry and you forgot the sound of his voice, slowly but surely erased and later on you will remember, you will remember that you forgot and it will hit you so hard, hope and faith will be sucked out of your body and you will question if this, this was all worth it, when in the end

you can't even seem to remember