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~Dahni~

I have a strange feeling about this place. I'm not sure if it's a good feeling or not but it just feels weird. Since me and Lunary got here I don't know it feels like something is coming. Like I'm waiting for something to pop out.

So here I lay in bed with Nary next to me pondering this feeling. Her soft breathing keeps me calm and collected. Ugh maybe I need to feed or go on a run. I'll ask Nary when she wakes up if we can hunt.

I can't help but wonder if finding my mate is really my goal. I really love Lunary with everything in me. Almost as if we maybe were mates in another life. Spending time with her everyday makes me fall deeper in love. I do not want to give her up. Her time as Birthgiver is almost up and I'm getting closer and closer to finding my mate each day. I can fell it.

I find myself stuck in these thoughts frequently and it seems that I've wandered too long. I hadn't even realized that my love had awoken.

She grazed my cheeks with her soft hands as she smiled sleeply at me with a hint of concern.

"Hey baby, is everything alright?" Her gravelly morning voice spoke roughly. She seemed very interested in my wandering minded thoughts that were a mystery to herself.

" yeah I'm fine Nary just lost in thought I guess." I expressed hoping she would stop worrying about me like the mom she is. She's such a mom sometimes but hey she is the Birthgiver..

"What were you thinking about?" She asks softly with a lazy smile on her face to mask her worry.

"Just the future I guess... but hey why don't we go on a run. I'm feeling jumpy and I think I need to hunt. You up for that?" I can tell that she wants to question me more but desides not to. I'm greatful she dropped it for now I know it will come up later though.

She agreed to go hunting with me and we got dressed to go. I wore a black tank too and black leggings with a purple light jacket and running shoes. Lunary wore the same but a blue jacket instead of purple.

Before we head out Lunary stopped by the Sire corter's to let them know we were going out. Then cleared us as long as we weren't gone too long and we stay within the boarders of their clan.

As soon as we stepped outside the feeling became more and more intense but I wasn't sure if it was more good or bad. My vampire was feeling very scared but happy. It is very strange. She is normally calm and silent. This just makes me more eager to start the hunt.

Just as that thought crossed Lunary set out in a sprint and I followed soon after. We ran for miles within the boarders. We killed five bunnies and two elks to feast on and we ran around some more. It was the most fun I've had in a while that is until we heard a sound. It was coming from a cabin near us. We got closer when...

The source of the sound grew louder. It was a woman screaming. We looked at each other then bolted to the door. We broke the door down expecting to see her being hurt but instead found an intense round of fucking.

However when I saw them I couldn't look away. Even as Lunary left out the door I was frozen. My vampire was deadly silent and not the good kind. Something in the air felt off. The couple still had yet to see me as the continued it their throws of passion.

Through the mist of it all I smelt something weird. Somehow familiar or compelling. The man must have sensed it too for his eyes opened. As he looked into my eyes I finally knew why I couldn't move. Why I felt compelled and why I felt so strange the whole day. There he was fucking the hell out of some girl. My beloved, my one, betraying the way of life ment for us.

The part that hurt the most was he continued to fuck her as I stood there. His climax pushed on while having an intense stare down with me and calling out her name. His eyes never left my own as he continued fucking her.

When she came down from her high she noticed me. She covered herself quickly while he just continued to have a stare off with me. Lunary came back in noticing I was still in the cabin. I felt the shift in the air as she realized why I didn't leave.

I was lost for words as he sat there as if he did no wrong. As if I ment nothing to him. It was when he smirked that I finally had the courage to speak up. Lunary stood behind me in a protective stance.

"Have you nothing to say? Nothing at all? How could you do this? When you knew your beloved was out there?" I asked in fury and confusion.

He replied with " I can do whatever I please and I'll have you know she is my chosen beloved. I have married her and she bore my children." That statement alone peirced my heart.

" but.. but what about me? I'm your beloved and you just through me away?" I angrily questioned close to either tears or ripping his head off.

The women spoke for the first time. She shouted at my supposed beloved. " what is she talking about Ricky?! You said your beloved rejected you!! You said she found love with another and tossed you out!!" She shouted with tears falling down her face. Then she looked to me.

"My God I'm sorry I had no idea. I never would have marked him or been marked by him if I had known. My beloved rejected me and it tore me apart. I would never wish that upon anyone. " she grabbed my hands begging me to understand her. I hadn't realized I was crying till I felt the tear land on my hand.

I still had yet to take my eyes off of "Ricky" as the tears fell. He watched them fall with no remorse in his eyes. His left mine when he looked to her and told her he thought he would never meet me. That he feel in love with her and he knew she wouldn't except him if he had a beloved out there.

Then he said that it didnt matter that I was there and that he still loved her. Each word peirced my heart over and over. When he said that he would just reject me is when Lunary attacked.

She jumped on him and started beating him. She screamed while doing it as well.

" What the hell is wrong with you! How could you!! She is the best person that you will ever know. Actually no you wont have the pleasure of knowing her. You don't deserve her. Also you don't even know what you just gave up. She doesn't deserve to have an asshole like you as a beloved!! Neither does your wife. She deserves better than you as well." She ranted as she attacked him.

The clans sires came shortly after sensing distress in the clan. They stood there for a second before they could move however I moved first. I pulled her off him before she could kill him. She was still kicking and screaming how he was a bastard and would never be good enough for me. The tears still feel as I calmed her down.

I whispered in her ear as she calmed about her duty and the baby. The two sires followed shortly after with a pissed off look on their faces directed to the man. Supposedly he was not even a member of the clan before he impregnated his wife. He was a rogue. His wife whose name is Julia found him broken down and injured. He spun a lie to gain her sympathy.

She was in tears as well thinking about the babies she had with him. As much as I didnt want to hate her I did. More than anything though I hated that my beloved didnt want me and he basically rejected me. Everything was so screwed up and it was all too much the sires were yelling at Ricky and my head was spinning.

I need to get out. I cant breathe and I feel like I'm drowning. So I did the only thing I could think of. I ran. I turned on my heal and I ran. Even when Lunary called out to me I still kept running past the border and i didnt look back. I have no idea where I'm going but my purpose in life just died and I don't know what to do.

So for now I run, maybe I'll fine a home. Maybe if I run far enough it wont hurt so much. Maybe my heart wont tear or burn. Maybe just maybe I can say this pain is not real.

With nowhere in sight to go I'll wander. For now I'll run...
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Happy New Year Guys!!

I suck I know, it's been so long since I've updated but I hope you all enjoy it.

Question: Pizza or Tacos?

- Tacos for me but only if they are home made.
P.s picture above or to the side is Danhi.

Love you all and have an amazing year,
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