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~Lunary~
It's been a week since I visited my moms grave sight. I feel acceptance in a way I guess. I mean I still miss them but I don't know I guess it's just easier knowing they can rest as one. That they found peace together and weren't left to decay unloved. They were killed together and they were buried together.

I have this family to thank for that, well part of it. Anyway today is a day of happiness because today is gender day.

It's a day of celebrations in packs, clans, and now pans. The day the alpha/sire pup gender is revealed. Meaning I have a doctor's appointment today. As everyone of my couples have done they are overjoyed and freaking out at the same time. I'm excited too it's fascinating to see the living kids in me and trying to guess the gender before the doc say it.

I've gotten pretty good at it through the years of seeing ultrasounds. Some of my couples don't want to know gender but Allisar and Damien want to know the genders.

That brings me to where I am sitting in the car on the way to the doctors. Currently we are listening to soft, soothing music to set a calm environment. I started doing this around my forth couple, it keeps them calm instead of freaking out.

The drive took about 5 minutes to arrive at them infirmary. After arrival A.D opened my door and helped me out of the car. We all walked into the infirmary holding hand and doctor Sam lead us to the room where the ultrasound would take place.

Sam told me what all the doctors say before performing an ultrasound. (May be cold or slightly uncomfortable) Then he applied the gel rubbing it in alittle and taking the wand stick and showing the triplets.

A.D. acted the same way they did in the first ultrasound. They cried and held each other as they thanked me again. Me being the emotional pregnant me started crying when they did. One thing I hate most about pregnancy is these damn hormones. Ugh.

"Ok everybody, so everything's looking good the triplets look healthy and happy. Now are you ready to know the gender or are you waiting?" Doctor Sam asked with a knowing smile sent towards A.D.

"YES! Gender we want to know the gender!!" They both exclaimed in sinc with huge smiles on their faces. Awe they are just too cute. I absolutely love my couples reactions to the babies. It never gets old to see them so excited. The look of pure adoration and love on their faces is probably the best feeling in the world. Knowing that I helped them feel that is more than i could ever have imagined.

The doctor and I both laughed alittle at their excitement and the Sam moved the stick around some more before speaking again.

"Ok so you see that one on the left?" He pointed to the baby on the left. "That's a baby boy and the baby in the middle is and baby girl" pointing to the middle he explained, "and the baby on the right is a baby boy." Pointing to the right he smiled.

"Congratulations Alpha, Sire, can't wait to meet them. I'll see you in two weeks, the pictures are on the desk  I'll leave ya to it. The exit is that way you can leave when your ready." Sam told us with a smile and pointed to the exit and desk before leaving us in the room alone.

Turning to A.D. all I could do was smile. They were in tears and hugging each other close as they whispered to themselves that they can't believe it's happening. Also that they have two boys and a girl. I looked down at my stomach and smiled.

One of the hardest things for me is during the pregnancy is the attachment. After they are born it's not bad but during it all I can think about is them. Wondering how it will feel to have my own.

It's times like this that I feel so alone but it's ok because I'm helping others. I guess I just get caught up in the feelings sometimes and seeing how happy my couples are. It makes me wonder how I will feel.

"Lunary." I didn't realize I was crying sad tears until I heard the concern in A.D.'s voice. Looking up I see them staring with concern and worry planted on their face. Oh man I ruined their moment.

"Are you ok honey? What's wrong are you hurt?" Damien asked with a mixture of worry on panic tone. Allisar staying silent but still worried.

"Oh yeah I'm sorry guys. I ruined your moment. I'm fine I'm just lost in thought that's all. Don't worry about me. You should be happy not sad or worried." I spoke in a rushed tone with sadness leaking in and panic on my face.

"Honey, were always gonna worry. Your our friend and carrying our children. Also we are happy we just want you to be happy too. We had our moment, now tell us what's got you so down?" Allisar took the lead this time in questioning.

"I'm fine. I was just thinking about the future. How I'm gonna feel when I finally have my own child. I get caught up in the emotions sometimes. I guess I'm just lonely." I announced with a sad smile trying to be happy and stop ruining their happiness.

"Lunary. Why didn't you say so earlier? We love you Nary and were sorry you feel that way. We could never express the gratitude we have for you." Damien said

" You'll get your shot and when you do we'll be right beside you with your mate if you'll have us. Besides your not alone Nary you have us and your family at home. You also have your mate out there somewhere too. When he or she comes they better know how amazing you are." Allisar inputted after Damien spoke.

Tears of gratitude fell after their speech. "You guys. I love you too and thank you. I know my time will come and when it does I want you there. You all gave me a purpose. You and the rest of my couples have me life and a second chance. Friendship and love is not required and yet you have it too me. Most of my life I was alone other than my moms. When they were gone I had no one. After Alex died and I died I didn't know what to do. When the moon goddess gave me the opportunity I took it. I was scared but you all helped me through it. Now I have family and friends and I get to help people. For that it's worth it; worth the wait." Tears were still falling from me and A.D. as I delivered my words.

After all was said and done we all hugged , graded the pictures and headed home. Today was a good day filled with love, tears, and understandings. I'm proud to be a Birthgiver even when the feelings get rough. At the end of the day I'm giving life to those who can't and it feels damn good too see how happy not just the couples but the packs and clan and families are. That's why I do what I do and that's why I'm proud...

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