"My thoughts are stars, i can't fathom the constellations!"

~Agustus Waters, TFIOS 

Iqraam 

that day i had alot of sneezing and soon i was on medics- i hate medics- they make me feel vulnerable- 

i walked back into my office all fit and fine from two weeks of medics, headaches, soups and whatnot!

yeah.... i was sick for 2 weeks, did work form home, Ruqayyah got closer to ammi and Iqra and i guess thats it?

the emotions were always here so i learnt to be with it instead of fighting over it or worrying over it!

i placed all my blueprints on the desk and walked out of the office to get myself some coffee that i drink once in a while- 

with a cup of coffee, a spring roll and a huge file of financial records, i set to work- with no success at all

why?

coz a certain niqabi's eyes decided to distract me

it was annoying- a beautiful type of annoying 

i sighed and ran my hand through my short cut hair

"why are you in my head?" i said as if talking to her as i rubbed my temples

"Whos in your head?" i looked up to see Shumayll smirking at me 

I smiled at him

"No one" i replied and he chuckled as he set infront of me 

"So whats the deal?" he asked me

i shook my head

"No deal" i said and drank my coffee

"ohhh so that's why you did not notice me standing infront of you for the past 5 minutes?" he asked me and i was startled

5 minutes?

"t-that" i said and heaved a deep breath

Shumayll looked at me and smiled

"Look bhai- i know you- not long enough but still i know you like a close brother- so tell me what happened?" he asked me in all serious mode

i sighed

what do i tell him? stress? over some niqabi?

"Stress over her?!" he asked in disbelief

i stared at him

did i say that out loud?

he nodded

i screwed my eyes shut

"You- you are stressed over her?" he asks me and i sighed again

I put my head into my hands and sighed

"I don't know alright- just- don't know" i muttered and just then a knock came on the door

'Come in" i muffed out without putting my head up

"sir your coffee-" said Ruqayyah's voice and my head snapped up

a piecing pain shot through my neck and i winced 

"Are you okay sir?" she asked me rushing to my side and i nodded my head

"Just give me some painkillers" i said and she hurried out

"Mind if i drink that coffee?" asked Mayll and i nodded

'go ahead" i said and rubbed my neck

"so....... that was awkward" he said sipping his coffee and i glared at him

he smirked and then his face lit up

'Don't go thinking alot' i said to him and he chuckled

"Surreee- so tell me what you were thinking last night?" he asked me

"Why?" i immediately questioned him

'because i want to analyse things" he said and i chuckled

"I am not some work that you can analyse" i muttered and this time he laughed

'okay so work and work" i said simply 

i lied- 

recently her thoughts were constant in my mind 

my mind was in ardent- about her

i looked up to him and he was giving me a 'not-believing-you' look

i let out an audible sigh and set straight

"I am ardent about her and its giving me stress" i muttered 

well thats what i said

"What?" he asked in in a high pitched voice that made me flinch

"You heard me" i replied leaning back on my chair and resting my head on the head rest

"All i heard was 'iarersineress'!" he replied putting his fist on the desk

i smiled slightly as i closed my eyes

Her pictures flashed over in my mind

i remember that night- i was sick and was asleep- well taking a nap- when out of no where her photos began flashing in my head

i had gotten up like it burned me- in a way- i felt heat- 

I was sweating and panting- 

but slowly those images became a fixation- so i stopped tying to avoid it and instead tried to make sense why it was happening- 

of course with no luck!

"Are you even listening!?!" he asked me snapping his fingers across my face and i looked at him

"huh?" i asked him and he smiled slightly

"Okay so i was saying that you are clearly lying to me meaning i know there's something else" he said and i sighed

"Fine" i muttered and he beamed

"so what is it?" he asked as he leaned onto the table and placed his hands on the desk and his head in his hands 

"I am ardent about her and its giving me stress" i said slowly looking at him in the eye

he was silent for a moment before getting up stiffly and pacing the floor

"What?" i asked him after a minute or two

"You need to take a break bro" he said after some time

"Why?" i asked him 'And most importantly why are such things happening?" i added

he stood there staring at me

"Look, it can be two things- one- fondness- you are too fond of her and thats why- or second-" he stood there and smiled slightly "-Love" he said 

i stared at him

I don't do love- 

i can't love- 

my fathers blood runs in me and i may leave her like my father left my ammi- 

"No- i- this- no- i think-" i muttered and Shumayll was beside me in a second

He put his hand on my shoulders

"bro- its fine- you will take time to realize and eventually this fondness will deelop- but by seeing your choice of words- i think you already love her-" he said slowly making sure i understand each and everything 

i inhaled a deep breath

no this can't be it!

I mean i have known her for like- what- 2 weeks? okay 2 weeks and 3 days- but still- love cannot happen so easily- 

but then again i don't know much about love- 

He chuckled

I looked up to him and growled in pain

"You really are something" he said and walked infront of the desk

he took a seat and faced me

"Okay- no one said you need to confess or tell your love- just be sure its there and leave the rest to Allah" he said simply

"Shumayll- my brother- saying that is too easy- putting that into action- that's the challenging part" i said and he smiled

"Oh trust me- i know better" he replied and i raised an eyebrow

"say what?" i asked him and he was taken back

not by my choice of words but my question

"Nothing" he replied and instantly changed the topic

"so you really in love?" he asked me and i glared at him

"I am not in love!" i said slowly and he chuckled slowly

"Sure" he said sarcastically

"I am sure- this is just............. infatuation" i said  uncertainly

he smiled 

"See you are uncertain-" he said 

"and that means?" i asked him 

"See- love brings many emotions- uncertainty, happiness, sadness, peace, patience, kindness, fondness- its like....... pretty yet disastrous if not tames- it manipulates the brain and the heart wins" he said with passion

the look in his eyes told some other story

it was twinkling- like he experienced it himself- 

it was nice to see someone so in love- 

wander who that lucky girl is- 

"Romeo who is she?" i asked him

He snapped out of his trance and smiled sheepishly 

"No one- that's a line from Shakespeare" he replied

"Stop lying- that is no line from Shakespeare" i replied

okay i had no idea whether it was or not- but it seemed his own- 

"How do you know?" he asked me

"let me google it" i replied smirking

his eyes went wide

"Okay fine- that line is mine- but 'My thoughts are stars, I can't fathom into constellations' " he smirked

"Thats from?" i asked him and he grinned

"The Fault in our stars" he replied

"Whats that?' i asked him

his face fell

"Get up" he said 

"What?" i asked him

"Get up!!!" he whined and i stood up

"Come on-" he said and led me out of my office

"Where are we going?" i asked 

"Ms Ruqayyah?" he called and i felt my pulse race

why was he calling her?

"yes?" she walked towards us, her niqab only showing her beautiful brown/ hazel orbs

'Can you please accompany us?" asked Shumayll and i glared at him

"Sure- but where to?" she asked uncertainly

"Somewhere" he smirked and her eyes met mine

i shook my head

i had no idea where we were going

"On second thought- i don't want to go- what if you leave us stranded in the middle of no where?" i asked him and earned a laugh from him

'No nothing of that sort" he smirked

i nodded and we walked out of the office

"Sir- we have a meeting this afternoon at 3 with the Luthar industries- you wanted to-" she said and i nodded

"-Buy their raw materials- yes i know" i replied smiling and she nodded

"My SUV" said Shumayll and we followed suit

soon we drove off and the final destination almost gave me a heart attack

all this trouble just for this place?

wallah whats wrong with this guy!?!

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