Holding onto anger is like drinking a poison and thinking the other person would die

BUDHA

Iqraam

"What. Do. You. Want?" Was all i heard from her to know it was him

Running downstairs, I stood in front of ammi who held terror in her eyes

"What happened?" I asked her

She held a finger up and asked for a second alone

I did not want to do so but eventually I left the living room

Pacing around the kitchen I waited for ammi to tell me what had happened

She was still on the phone though

"Iqraam calm down!" Said Ruqayyah and I looked up to her in surprise

It was the first time she called me Iqraam

Ignoring the fluttering of my heart, I sighed

"I- I can't- knowing..." I said and heaved a deep sigh

She waited for me to continue

Just than my ammo entered followed by Iqra

"What happened?" I asked her immediately

Her eyes seemed puffed out

He made her cry!

"Ammi....." I said and she smiled weakly

"Iqraam... he just umm... called to ask..." she said and i growled

"Ask about? You? How you held up after his deceit? Or Iqraa? How he left the little her with you? Or me? Whether i am alive or dead?" I asked her in rage, my voice, however was quite calm

Her eyes widened

"Iqraam!" she said and i screwed my eyes shut

How could i have forgotten i had his blood running in my veins?!!

"Ammi why did he call?" Squeaked Iqra from beside me

She held my arm and i put my hand on her shaking fingers

"He called," said ammi looking at us and her eyes watered

"To ask to.... meet you both" she whispered the last part

I felt Iqraa's hand tightened around my arm and I felt my anger level rise

Reciting tau'udh I screwed my eyes shut

Ya Allah after all these hard years when we we're finally over him, he's back! Please guide me through this!

"Ammi.... we need to think" I said and Iqra's eyes widened

I nodded my head and she looked away

Iqra has no idea how he looks

Nor do I but I remember faint details about him like his eyes and smile

I walked out of the kitchen and walked to the terrace with a raging heart and mind

Staring off into the forests, I felt my eyes water.

Why was it all happening now?

After like 20 years! Wallahi which father does that?!!

My ammo had enough troubles bringing us up

We faced such hardships and what not just to be in this position all over again?

"Iqraam...." said Ruqayyah's soft voice
I wiped the tears away with the back of my hand

".. if you don't mind... who's he?" She asked me gently

I sighed deeply

"My father" I spat with hate

I did not dare look at her

She saw my vulnerable side

She saw the side of Iqraam Ibrahim that no one did

And to top it all, she was the girl I loved

We stood there in comfortable silence

She did not make an attempt to speak nor did I

"I think you should meet him" she whispered and my head snapped up

She what?

I turned to her and glared

"You have no idea what you just said..." i said and she shook her head

"I think you should.... i mean he still is your father..." she said

My anger was rising by degrees and i did not even bother to calm it

"You have no idea again, whatyou are saying!" I said

"Iqraam, parents are important, they are your doorway to Jannah- " she said

"He is no way close! He left us, Ruqayyah, left us when Iqra was just effing months old!" I snapped

"Which father with a heart dies that?! Thats no way to raise children! For Allah' s sake, We suffered enough, I don't want them to suffer anymore, damn it!" I snapped and heaved a deep sigh

She was taken back

Thats when I realized what I had done
I just hurt the lady of my life

Ya Allah

"Ruqayyah, I-" I said and she held her hand up

"Its okay Sir, I shall take my leave" she muttered and turned, walking away

"Ruqayyah- RUQAYYAH!" i called after her but she just merely walked away

I ran my hand through my hair

My father just has to ruin everything!

A sudden realization hit me like a cold water

You are like your father, after all his blood runs in your veins

He hurt my mother
I hurt Ruqayyah

He left my mother
What if I also do such a thing with her?

I set on the swing and put my head in my hands

"Iqraam?" Said ammi as she took a seat beside me

I set up and looked straight ahead

She put her hand on my shoulder

"Iqraam.... your father just wants to see you both" she said

I clenched my fists

My father?
MY FATHER?!?!!!

"my father? The sane father who left us years ago? To die alone?" I asked her and she shook her head

"Iqraam... think calmly.... do not think now... don't make decisions now.... calm down my son.. I have taught you better" she whispered calmly

I sighed and stood up

"I will think about it ammi" I said and she nodded smiling weakly

"As salaam, Allah Hafeez!" I said and she nodded before I walked out

Sitting on my bed, I felt myself get restless

Why did I do it?
Why did I snap at her?
she did not know what was going on, right?

I ran a frustrated hand through my hair

Laying on my bed, I shut my eyes

Sleep consumed me and soon I was asleep

Waking up, the first thing that I remembered was that I hurt Ruqayyah

I set up on my bed and realized it was way after magrib

Ya Allah I did not pray Asr!

Getting up, I took a quick shower and prayed delayed Magrib

I remembered about my father and I felt a sudden rush of anxiety

It was weird to feel that

I changed into a T-shirt and jeans carrying a hoodie in hand before heading downstairs

I met Iqra along the way

"I need you to cover for me" I said and she gave me a look of disbelief

"Are you serious?" She laughed and I nodded

"Where are you going?" She stopped and asked

I rubbed my neck

She smirked

"Go, I saw her almost in tears.... want me to come?" She asked me

On second thought, that seemed the best idea

"But ammi?" I asked her and she smirked

"Check Shumayll, she will stay there, we can visit her?" She asked me and i nodded

Calling Shumayll, I asked him and she gladly agreed

"Ammo we going to visit Shumayll place!" I said and ammi grinned

She needed to forget things

Finally dropping her at Shumayll's place, we drove to Ruqayyah's apartment

This was gonna be long

Ringing the bell, we waited

Well I waited, Shumayll who had decided to tag along was bickering with Iqra's at a distant while I was being a nervous wreck

Her smiling face came in the view as the door opened

"As salaam alaikum" I said and her smiling face fell to a frown

*******

So salaam, hey

I am bakkk

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