Hi guys.

So, we got another..... interesting... question from slashermaster . It's not that it freaks me out (trust me, I have depression, so let's just say I've been to certain...... facilities). Anyways, here's his question: "what happens if someone kills Iluvskye ?"

Good question, actually. I never really thought of that (so thanks for bringing it to my attention). But, honestly, when I first got the news, I probably would've done anything. Now, that doesn't mean I don't care. But there would be no pint of crying bee something you can't fix. However, when I went to the funeral (yes, I would) then I would cry. But, wether it was an assassination or a natural death cause, I still would've been devastated. Just not crying every day for months or something. Matter of factly I'd probably only cry the first 2-3 days, at night or whenever I thought about it.

But, it would be pointless to stay in denial or upset about something forever. Trust me, my depression has screwed me up so much that I can't even really like or (necessarily) love someone to the point where their death would be the end of my life. Matter of fact, a death isn't what would upset me the most. I don't know anyone that can love - or maybe I should say trust - yea, that's it. There is no one that I know on this entire Earth (yet) that I can love and trust.

Or maybe I should just say trust. Cause for me, I can only love someone or even like someone just about as much as I can trust them. And I've just........

I've just.... really trusted what what feels like so many people, and though it's only just about five people, every time I do, they just........ betray me. They break what trust I thought I had for them. And those are the only that i would ever truly open myself up to, and then for them to just..... turn around and betray me..... with the same trust I thought I had in them....... like they just got a huge knife and stabbed me in the back as hard as they could..... and basically just leave me there to bleed to death...

I just.... I just can't. Especially not with my depression. And I don't truly trust anyone. Not even my parents. Because even they've betrayed my trust. And then they'll say they're sorry. But then they did it again.... and again..... and again..... and.... it really hurt coming from them. They were extremely mad, but for your own parents to betray you, it's just.....

I just can't. And it's not just them. But it just keeps happening to me. That's why I can't truly trust anyone. Not ever again. I haven't done it in 2 years, and never will. I can't deal with that again. And yet, I still have to deal with it. And no one really knows what it's like, to constantly be hurt by people you thought loved you, or thought were your friends or thought cared about so many times.

Now, I probably shouldn't have wrote that, because I really couldn't make through any of those paragraphs without crying. And, you're probably wondering why I told you this, and it's because I really feel like you guys should know. Don't break my trust. For the sake of myself, my life, and my sanity, don't (but it not that I would necessarily would trust you that much anyways. Sorry, it may or may not be you, but that's just who I am.)

So yeah. I hope that answered your question the way you wanted. And it's ok to ask even if it does hurt me to tell. Because if you didn't know, you might have done it not knowing. So yeah. And, don't forget to leave any other questions in the comment section below. (And no, in case you're wondering, I'm not gonna hurt myself. But, I am extremely upset right now so if you do leave a reply, I may or may not see it, and I may or may not answer it.