Taehyung takes slow steps towards the bus station. He sits by the bench and made a tired sigh. It's already late at night and he's just about to go home.

Not long after, the bus came to a stop and the waiting passengers, including Taehyung, slowly filed in. He felt lucky when he spotted a seat near the window at the back. He shuffles over and quickly sits comfortably.

It was a tiring day, mentally, physically, and emotionally. He was so drained after teachers congratulated him for being the school's representative for the next competition. They smiled at him like nothing happened and Taehyung felt bad that they never considered his feelings that time. He also saw students staring at him with pity and confusion but he just looked away after.

Jimin and Hoseok were so kind for cheering Taehyung up. They waited for him after the event and walked with him to the diner, not saying anything about the kiss. They congratulated him again and again and even made jokes to make him smile, but all Taehyung did was space out.

Taehyung looks out the window and the bus started to move. He again remembers the handsome face of the raven head, those delicate features that looks like it was made of porcelain.

The doe eyes, tall button nose, pretty plump lips, and jet black hair made a perfect combination. With the addition of the little mole just under his lips, the scar on his left cheek and dimples when he smirks, these are just faint features that you won't discover if you didn't look closely. And of course, his signature bunny smile that made everyone fell for him.

Yes, Taehyung has fallen for Jungkook. Its not quite a revelation because who wouldn't be enchanted by that beauty? He felt like he could draw every detail of this handsome face, and can even remember it in his dreams.

At first, Taehyung felt everything that happened was fate. He believed that there is a reason why he was chosen to be the said male's tutor. That maybe, just maybe, there would be a chance for them to be together.

Well, its too good to be true. So good that there will never be a chance to come true. The moment Jungkook stepped away from him, Taehyung's little fantasy shattered in front of him.

Winning the contest never felt so sad before until now. At this moment, he doesn't care about the honor and recognition. All he cares is that Jungkook is probably mad at him and that he screwed the only thing that's keeping him close to the younger.

One more thing, maybe Jungkook is comforting Yugyeom now, in his bed while cuddling. Even so, he doesn't have the right to get jealous.

The thought made Taehyung close his eyes and lean his forehead to the glass window. You know that feeling? That feeling that gets so big in your chest it could explode? That when you thought of something so beautiful, it aches? Slowly, a tear escaped from his closed eyes, and then another, and another.

He's been waiting for this actually, to be alone and no one to pity him. And to pour out everything he's been trying to hold back. He sobs quietly at the bus and drown in his own feelings.

As Taehyung enters the house, he was greeted by his grandma with a wide smile and a hug.

"Welcome home sweetie."

"Hi Granny." Taehyung responded in  a weak voice.

"How's your contest? Are you okay? Taehyung, I told you not to sulk whatever the results are, right? I won't judge you because I know you still did your best." His grandma softly said while patting his back.

Taehyung smiled. His grandma sure knows nothing about his internal heartbreak. "Granny, I won actually."

His grandma's face lit up, "Really? Congratulations sweetie!" but then her eyebrows furrowed again. "But you don't look so happy."

Taehyung still smiled, his worries fade away when he looks at his grandma. Clearly, she doesn't care that much about the contest result, she still prioritize Taehyung's happiness.

"Son, what's wrong? Aren't you happy? Tell Granny please?"

"I'm happy Granny. I'm happy that you're here for me, always. And I'm happy that I could make you proud of me. This is all for you." Taehyung takes out his medal from earlier and certificate and gives it to his grandma.

They both hug each other again and his grandma starts to speak again. "Taehyung, I know you. I've seen you grow up into a wonderful boy, and I would immediately catch if you're happy or sad. I know you just don't want to worry me and I will not force you to tell me, but remember I'm always here okay?"

Taehyung nods and wants to cry again, but he stops himself. Instead, he pulls out a paper bag from the diner and shows it to his grandma with a grin. "Let's eat Granny!"

"Hyung? You still awake? Hyung!" Taehyung is now standing outside Yoongi's house, specifically looking up at Yoongi's window. He needs someone to talk to right now.

Not long after, Yoongi opens his window and squints his eyes at the dark. "Wha- Taehyung?"

"Yes hyung! I'm here!"

Awhile after, both boys are sitting at their usual pavement floor. And as minutes passed, no one seemed to talk. It was silent at first.

"I swear Taehyung, if you just disturbed my sleep just to listen to crickets, I'll choke you with your medals." Yoongi blurts out suddenly.

Taehyung still stayed silent. The black haired hyung is wondering what's inside that smart brain of his.

"Yah! I don't plan on sitting here till morning-"

"Maybe you should." Taehyung suddenly said as he cut his hyung off.

"What?"

"Maybe you should choke me with medals. I don't need them anyway." Taehyung mumbles as he stares straight ahead.

"I would really choke you if you don't tell me what's going on. That reminds me, how's your contest?" Then Yoongi suddenly breaks into his realization. "Don't tell me you lose? Oh shit, don't cry in front of me."

"Hyung don't overreact. I wouldn't cry for that."

"Don't tell me you won because you don't seem like it." Yoongi yawned in annoyance.

"I won actually." Taehyung mumbles again in a weak voice.

Yoongi then turns to face him with a grin and slaps his back with force. "Congrats. Thank you for reminding me that I'm actually friends with a genius, not some guy who's an idiot for his crush."

With that said, Taehyung suddenly feels his heart ache. He takes a deep breath. "Hyung, I've something to tell you."

"Yeah?"

"I kissed Jungkook." Taehyung whispered but Yoongi heard it completely. The older stopped moving and looks at the younger bewildered.

"You're kidding" Yoongi just said.

"I did. And I think I've fallen for him. Not just 'like' but 'love' him." Taehyung feels his tears gathering as he said that out loud.

Yoongi was speechless at first, then he clears his throat. "Okay, that's quite old news, but you kissed him? Was he okay with that?"

"Actually no. He ran to Yugyeom after that-" Taehyung flinches when Yoongi suddenly stood up.

"I'm gonna kill that bastard." Yoongi growls.

Taehyung grabs his hyung's hand and pulls him to sit down again.

"Hyung calm down. It was my fault actually. He said there's no kissing on the lips, but I broke his rule."

Yoongi is quiet and just stared at the brunette with furrowing eyebrows. He can't believe how stupid his friend sometimes.

"But he's that insensitive to run away after you kissed him? You know, I really want to slap you out of insanity right now." Yoongi exasperatedly said.

Taehyung lowers his head and just listens to his hyung's angry whine.

"Maybe your kiss was sloppy."

Taehyung looks at his hyung with wide eyes. "You think so?"

The grumpy guy just scoffs. "But you know Tae, sloppy or not, he shouldn't have ran away like that. He doesn't deserve you."

Taehyung went back to staring at the ground again. "I don't know, hyung. I feel so happy and giddy when I'm with him. He's so beautiful and just so admirable that there is no other guy like him. I can't dictate my heart what to do hyung."

Yoongi also went silent and patted his back.

"What should I do?" Taehyung looks up to his hyung with watery eyes.

Yoongi sighs and looks back with sympathy. "Tell him."

The brunette widens his eyes in fear. "I-i can't do that! He will hate me!"

"Let me finish." Yoongi paused a bit while thinking. "You tell him your feelings then let's see what happens."

"Then what? Its not like he will love me back. And he will never be." The brunette sighs and wipes his tears off.

"You know, there are two things. If he accepts your feelings, then there's nothing to worry about. If he doesn't, then you have to learn to let go."

"Its not that easy, hyung." He was saddened at the latter part.

"But you have to. Just let it hurt, let it bleed, let it heal. Then maybe that's the time you can let him go." Yoongi smiles softly at his dongsaeng as he talks.

Taehyung lowers his head more and let's his tears slide down. He knows Yoongi understands him and he just cries with no shame. He hears his hyung speak again.

"Aish, I warned you in the first place to not go with his plan. Now look where you are right now! I had a bad feeling back then and I should've stopped you." Yoongi then pulls him into an embrace and offers his shoulder to cry on. Taehyung was surprised from his hyung's action but then hugs his hyung back.

"Hyung.. I'm s-sorry."

"What are you sorry for?"

"I c-cried. You said I shouldn't cry i-in front of you."

Yoongi just chuckles at the brunette's cuteness. "Yeah, I will let this pass. But next time this happens, imma rip that coconut head of his."

+++

The next day, Taehyung went to school early in hopes to see Jungkook and talk to him. He waited in his chair for a certain raven head but none came. Apparently, Jungkook is absent.

Of course students gave different reactions the moment they saw him. They glared, whisper things behind him, laugh at how pathetic he was yesterday. Some offered a sympathetic smile though, but never got close to him. Taehyung is still embarrased about the event but he just ignored all that.

Taehyung's shoulders slump as the teacher started the class without even minding that his seatmate is absent. And Taehyung was scared of what will be the reason of Jungkook's absence.

Lunch came and Taehyung went to the cafeteria. He spotted Jimin and Hoseok and the two waved at him to sit.

"Is it still okay to sit with you guys?" Taehyung carefully asks.

"What are you talking about, Tae? Of course you'll be eating with us." Jimin answered him and Taehyung smiled. They are such angels.

The two friends were as always bickering about nonsense things, while Taehyung continues to eat his sandwich in silence, his mind wondering where the raven head would be. His thoughts were interrupted by Hoseok speaking.

"You must be wondering where Jungkook's ass is, right?"

Taehyung gulped his sandwich. He wonders if Hoseok is a mind reader now. "Um, honestly..yeah"

"You really wanna know?" Hoseok and Jimin looked at each other.

"Why? Is something wrong?"

Hoseok hesitantly answered. "Well, he texted awhile ago that he just got home."

"And he stayed at Yugyeom's house last night." Jimin finished.

That got Taehyung's heart hurt. He stayed the night at Yugyeom's house? So that means he was with Yugyeom all this time?

Taehyung is just speechless and his appetite suddenly disappears. He puts down his half eaten sandwich, no longer hungry.

"We're sorry to tell you that, Tae." Hoseok said with sad eyes.

Taehyung fake laughs and looks at both of them like they were kidding. "Why are you sorry, hyung? We should- we should be happy for him. He got- he got what he wanted." He said that with his wavering voice and while blinking back tears.

"Tae, don't try to hide it. We know."

Taehyung stared at Hoseok in fear. "What-what are you talking about? I'm ha-happy for them, you know. They're probably toge-together now."

The brunette didn't seem to notice a tear rolled down his cheek and he gasped when Jimin suddenly wipes it off and speaks.

"Taehyung. We're your friends now okay? We know you're feelings about Jungkook. And don't ask how because we just kinda know, your actions didn't hide it though. I just wonder how Jungkook was so dense."

The brunette nodded and smiled at the two. "He actually noticed I like him too. But he thought it wasn't that much. He didn't know I love him though."

"Just don't be shy to us from now on."

"Thank you, hyungs. I'm grateful to have you two." The two responded with a smile. "Hyung, I should talk to him about this."

Hoseok looks at him concerned. "Are you sure, Tae? You know how Jungkook is.."

"I'm sure hyung. I know I don't have a chance but at least, I will try."

+++

Another day came and Taehyung feels nervous while walking to their classroom. He has a feeling that he will have to face the raven head today.

And as soon as the teacher walks in, Jungkook enters the room in a hurry to not be late. Luckily, the teacher barely noticed him since she was busy preparing her things.

Taehyung feels his breath hitch and heart painfully thump in his chest at the sight of the handsome male. He feels himself freeze the moment the said guy takes his seat beside him.

The brunette is waiting for the younger to greet him, but nothing came. The raven head didn't even spare him a glance, like he's never there.

This saddened Taehyung, so he decided to try to listen to the discussion, ignoring his weeping heart.

Lunch came again, and this time Jimin and Hoseok went to their classroom to fetch them. Taehyung stands up as he sees the two, and Jungkook did the same. He just let the younger walk ahead of him.

Taehyung sees the three talking, but then Jimin spots him and calls him.

"Hey Tae!"

Taehyung smiles and walks over to the tiny group. Maybe he can talk to Jungkook at lunch. As they start to walk to the cafeteria, they noticed Jungkook stayed at his spot. The three looks at him confused.

"Come on Jungkook, let's eat!" Hoseok called out.

"Hey Kook! Let's eat?"

The three were surprised at Yugyeom's sudden appearance and the said male holds Jungkook's arm. Taehyung feels like his eyes were about to fall off for staring at the two.

Jungkook didn't even yank his arm away and he let's himself be taken away by Yugyeom.

"Jungkook..." Taehyung didn't even realized he called out.

The said male turns around to face the one who called him, but was greeted with a hurt face from Taehyung. He just answered back,

"We'll talk later."

👉sorry for the late update! I was binge watching bon voyage s1 again since I'm excited for s2. So yeah. 😅 I'll 'MAYBE' publish another chapter later, to make it up to you 💋❤