CHAPTER 27:

~~Difficulty~~

INTRO:

Maybe I do need to move back I with Grayson that way I don't feel guilty for having to get everyone else to look after the girls and I can rest, and heal.

But I can't, something is stopping me and I can't tell if its because I don't want to admit that I love Grayson and fall all over again

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"Thank you!" I say to the nurse waving at her before hobbling out of the overnight stay room trying my best with the temporary- temporary- crunches,

We have been at the hospital for ages now, it's now 3 pm, we leave with Grayson and a very very sleepy Billie who arrived short of 15 minutes ago, staring at the food options, not paying attention.

"Good luck Avery," she said waving at me, and I look forward to trying to walk as normal as possible, I am not sure how I am going to be able to look after all of the girls.

"Are you sure you don't want to the wheelchair?" he asks me and I nod. The glass penetrated the bottom and top of my left foot, and the top of my right foot, so I need to crutches so I don't split the stitches.

"I am fine Grayson," I say "Thanks" I then reply as an afterthought

"Alright then," he says and I adjust the shoulder strap on my arm, waiting for Billie to catch up, she got caught up at the vending machine.

We walk to the car in silence, all three of us, I should say in awkward silence. I don't know what to say to Grayson, I mean, he thought that I was sleeping when he told me that he loved me.

We reach Billies car in no time, and I stop to get, Grayson puts my overnight bag in the boot, and Billie stops to pay the impending car park spot, which comes to a total of 3 dollars since she hasn't been here for too long.

I limp to the car whining when I step on a piece of rubble. Grayson looks up, but I put my hand up to shush him, sliding into the open car door, which he shuts so I roll down the window whilst Billie puts on the seat warmers to heat up.

"You are 100% sure that you don't want to come back home!?" he asks me, home, I am determined to look after the girl on my own so I reply shortly

"No" Grayson shakes his head sighing

"Look, Grayson, I don't want to come back home, at all, I don't want to ever come back... I appreciate what you have done for me the last 2 days, if you want to see the girls let me know" I say sighing, watching the window roll up,

"Avery, please" He tries to protest so I turn to Billie who is looking at me intently

"Drive, please Bil, take me home to my babies" I reply and nods, putting the car in reverse, and Grayson frown stepping away from the car.

We sit in silence for a few moments before Billie turns to me, and I look at her a cheeky smile, playing on my list, I knew this was coming.

"Yes Belinda," I say

"You are more than welcome to stay with us for as long as you like and we can help you with the girls, but don't you want some sort of closure, or to go back home," she replies

"My home is where my girls are, which is with you" I reply and she stares at me, so I glare internally "I can't go back to Grayson because he hurt me badly, that house reminds me of all of the hurt that he put you through"

"But you dropped the glass on your foot needed surgery and can barely walk at my house" Billie replies smugly

"That's practical thinking" I reply "besides its too awkward"

"Awkward how?" she asks and I mentally facepalm, Billie is a bright girl, but sometimes I wonder what goes on in her mind

"He told me he loved me when he thought I was sleeping," I say looking at her like she's crazy

"Yeah, and the point is" Billie replies

"What do you mean 'the point is' Billie, what am I supposed to"

"Talk to him, tell him you feel, tell him that you heard him, maybe you will be released some things about yourself" she replies

"And say what 'hey I heard you the other night when I was pretending to sleep' and I probably don't know- love you too," I say and slap my hand over my mouth in fright, with Billie slamming on her brakes

"You what!" she replies

"Nothing, I said nothing," I say holding my blushing cheeks, I can't believe I just said that I loved Grayson.

"Yeah sure, Aves, just think about it" she replies and then turns the music up in the car, so we can bop around and lessens the tense energy.

The moment that I make it through the doors, I am ambushed by my 2 daughters, they run over the toe and hug my legs, which I grimace, so Billie and Jake pull them off me and help me to the couch, the girls then run after me

"Mummy, why you ouchie?" Ava asks me

"You hurt?" Saskia says

"Because baby, I hurt my feet, so you need to be careful okay," I say to her and she smiles, I help the both of them onto the couch so they can sit next to me, snuggling into me, I smile at Ally whose holding a sleepy Lola

"How were they?" I ask Jake and Ally, Billie said they were good

"Good, they found it hard to fall asleep, but as soon as they did, they slept through the whole night" Ally replies

"That's good, I was worried that they didn't sleep well, they are so used sleeping next to me" and Jake nods, I look at Saskia

"Were you good for Uncle Jake and Aunty Ally"

"Yes mummy, they made us chocolate pancakes for breakfast" but it comes out as 'yes mam, they made us choccy pancakes for breakfast'

"Oh wow, that's very nice of them" I reply and look up and they all look at me curiously

"How can you understand her?" Ally asks "I can barely understand Amelia sometimes" she replies

"I don't know, it's a gift" I reply

"They were really good for us" Jake replies

"Angels more than anything" Billie answers from the kitchen, they all stayed together for the night that I was in hospital and Grayson was with me, they all banded together to help me, I don't know if I could get any better friends

"You guys are amazing" I reply to them looking down at Ava when she calls my name, repeatedly

"Mama"

"Yes, my love," I say to her, stroking her hair, then looking up staring at the sleepy baby in Ally's arms, I am so grateful that my kids are placid, and don't have a heap of energy.

"Your nose is too close to your house," she says

"Ugh, what" I reply to her

"What does that mean baby," I say

"Your nose is humongous" she replies and I almost fall out of the chair, from laughing, I start laughing and move my feet, wincing, with tears leaking out of my eyes from pain and laughter

"Your funny Ava" Jamie says lining out her doll one by one, causing Saskia to jump up knocking my feet- maybe this whole feet thing is going to be hard, I have to try and walk and avoid getting hit in the feet by my toddlers

"Your such a savage Ava baby" Jake replies ruffling her hair while everyone continues to laugh.

After struggling for 4 hours getting the girls fed, bathed and into bed was quite a task. First having to walk around the kitchen trying to fix plates for 2 girls was stressful.

Which led up in Ally piling to food on the plate, and cutting it into small pieces because my feet hurt too much and I needed to rest, I don't want to put too much tension on the muscles in my feet, which would break the stitches.

Of course feeding the older 2 means that I need to feed the baby, which means that I needed to make a formula which is standing on my feet for a long time waiting for the water and heating it, luckily I was able to stand on one foot and hop around the kitchen.

Feeding her was a different story, I usually rock her to sleep whilst feeding her, I usually rock her standing up or in her rocking chair but since we are at Billie's house we don't have the rocking chair, the last few weeks I had to rock her on my feet, which I can't stand up, which Billie offers to feed her.

They are little girls that wanted to be held and carried up the stairs, which is something that they are not used to, the girls kept splashing in the bath, and I can't get my feet bandages we, because it would disrupt the stitches, then the girls wanted milk, which is a usual thing for them, so I have to hobble up and down the sirs before getting them to bed.

Maybe I do need to move back I with Grayson that way I don't feel guilty for having to get everyone else to look after the girls and I can rest, and heal.

But I can't, something is stopping me and I can't tell if its because I don't want to admit that I love Grayson and fall all over again

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WARNING:

this story will contain:

---- Swearing (which may cause offense)

---- Sexual content (in dialogue ya nasties)

----Moments that you will either laugh or scream

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