𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑵𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 46
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“Wake up, it’s time to get your life back together.” Ash pulled the sheets off my head making me groan.
“Not yet.” I groaned. “Too early, I think I need a couple hours.”

“Your head will start hurting if you lay down too much, come on.” Ash rolled me out of bed. “Come on, breakfast is here.”

“What’d you get us?” I look up with a bright smile before running into the kitchen.

“Alaska- Gosh dang it.” Ash called after me as they followed me into the kitchen.

“What- What are you guys doing here?” I looked at the two girls standing in front of me with heartwarming smiles.

“We came to tell you to come back when you’re ready, you’re lucky PSY let us have a few days off but we have some information for you.” Nina smiled.

Both Yuna and Nina sat at the island as Ash came and got us Ihop on our plates, they came to surprise me I really can’t believe it.

It was nice seeing them but whenever I see them it’s like I get reminded of the survival show and everything in Korea, I can’t do it anymore. 

“So, I went to the JYP building and see Nancy right.” Yuna started. “Don’t ask why I was there, totally had nothing to do with Seungmin.” 

“And guess what? Mako was arguing with Nancy! She looked at Nancy the same way she looked at you, with vengeance.” Nina interrupted. “Sorry- Yuna continue.”

“Just because I told you everything don’t mean you get to narrate it.” Yuna sarcastically rolled her eyes before stifling out a laugh. “Okay, so I talked with Mako and asked her about what happened with you because she doesn’t know we’re still friends and talk blah blah blah.” 

“Woah, why would she not like Nancy? Nancy is like her senior.” I questioned. 

“I don’t know, actually no you know what I think you need to be more open minded because it’s obvious Mako had feelings for Felix.” Nina argued. “We’ve been trying to tell you this and look where it got you?” 

“What do you mean where it got me?” I asked even more confused. “Mako had nothing to do with this.”

“We’re getting there!” Yuna insisted. “Anyways, so then she started laughing on how you got kicked and it’s what you deserved. I was so upset but I played it cool, she told me too much information on how the photo got out…” 

“How did she-” 

“Alaska, patience! I’m getting there!” Yuna reminded. “So apparently Mako was following you and Felix around just like we told you before and she saw when you guys kissed.” 

“What? What the hell?” I stand up in frustration. “That’s fucking weird, why the hell would she just follow us and then watch?” 

“Well, someone’s got to take the fault for taking that photo and also exposing it to the media.” Nina shrugged.

“You’re not- She couldn’t- She told me she wanted what’s best for the team and we had an alliance.” I try to deflect. 

“That was after she took the photo, she told me this herself and she doesn’t regret it. She said the team is better off without you, if she couldn’t have Rima then she would kick you out.” Yuna explained with a pained expression. 

“She took it too far, you still managed to work with her and she couldn’t give back the same energy. I mean you even gave her Feli- Not the time? Okay.” Nina sat back.

“I can’t believe, she actually- So she told you this? She confessed?” I asked. 

Both girls turned to me with a nod.

That bitch. I can’t fucking believe she would do this not only to me but the team she was supposed to look after, even Chan wasn’t super mad at Felix and I when he found that out and he’s the leader. They didn’t take Felix out of the group but instead publicized his relationship with Nancy which I had no idea about.

I feel even more torn that my own group member would sabotage me.

“Don’t go off on instagram so soon, remember that JYPE has a team that can sue you.” Yuna reminded.

“Well JYPE isn’t good at protecting their artists, even Got7 left.” I rolled my eyes. “I can’t be silent about this, I’ve been called bad names because of it and it’s all because of Mako. I was beginning to trust her as well and we had a whole agreement.” 

“Are you still mad at Felix?” Nina asked.

“Well, what’s there to be mad about? We weren’t in a relationship and I don’t know how Nancy is still with him because she should know it’s not her in the photo but I guess she’s playing dumb.” I shook my head. “I can’t hate him or talk too bad about Felix because we weren’t in an actual relationship. We did couple things but if the public knows we were just friends with benefits then they’ll get upset with me because I don’t own him. We didn’t commit to anything.”

All 3 of them nodded sadly, I knew they meant well and felt bad about this whole situation but there was nothing else I could really do. All I could do was clear my name in hopes I don’t get sued.

“Nevermind the drama, let’s go out and have fun!” Nina cheered as she got up and put her shoes on at the doorway.

“Fun? Go out? I’d rather stay in and eat.” I sighed as we all followed her.

“I missed America, I have to go out somewhere, let’s go to a fun museum!” Nina jumped up in excitement.

“Sure, there’s nothing planned for today as well.” Ash agreed as we all got ready and left the room.

• • •

“So, uhm..” Yuna started. “How are you, Alaska?” 

“Good.” I smiled softly. “Better than being in Korea.”

“Ahh, good.” Yuna nodded.

“Let us know if the comments ever get to you, I really hope it doesn’t because we all know how mean people can be.” Nina reminded.

“Yeah, they are..” I trailed off as I looked at the ground and space out.

“We should do an instagram live!” Ash recommended.

“On whose phone?” I questioned as I turned to Nina. 

“We don’t have public instagram accounts but you do,” Nina smirked at me along with Yuna.

“Do you guys hate me?” I chuckled and took out my phone.

Suddenly I get DM notifications. 

I know you’ll read this, you’re a fat disgusting pig and you will NEVER be able to date Felix. You’re such a sasaeng

Weren’t you a fan of stray kids before joining the survival show? Sasaeng behavior that’s so weird of u to become an idol just to catch felix’s attention 

Felix is an angel, he would never do anything bad unless you pressured or forced yourself onto him. Slut.

Felix doesn’t like americans so get your ass out of his way 

I hope Nancy beats you up when she gets the chance, it’s what u deserve u bitch 

“Woah, woah woah.” Nina read the DMs and took my phone out of her hands. “This ain’t right.” 

I turn around in shock, I wasn’t smiling anymore and I felt my body become weak. I couldn’t let this effect me, they’re just words. 

“What the fuck?” Ash cursed as they looked at my phone.

“They’re so… Mean.” Yuna gasped.

Don’t cry, just don’t cry. You can do this, don’t cry it’s a simple task. Even if it hurts you, you can take it. If I survived the survival show then I can take the hate that comes along with it. 

“Alaska..” Yuna trails off as she sees me with a blank expression. 

All of them come and hug me tightly. “Don’t mind them, they’re all probably little kids who have nothing better to do with their lives.”

I nodded in silence before sitting down with them, I felt a lump in my throat which made me even sadder because I know my voice would crack if I talked right now. What was wrong with me? 

“Let’s do a live.” I say quietly before taking my phone and starting a live. 
“Are you sure?” Yuna questioned.

“Yes,” I smiled and turned to my phone. 

I had to pretend or else I would be weak.

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Author's note:

What's up everyone! I really need to make more author's notes but I appreciate yall for still reading.

I'm going to expose myself and I hope y'all who uregently want more chapters don't get upset haha.

So basically I feel more comfortable creating so many pre-written chapters before I publish them meaning that I have around 20+ unpublished chapters from now.

No like literally I only have 46 chapters published but the chapter I'm writing RN is in the 60s 💀

NOW BEFORE Y'ALL COME ATTACK ME FOR MORE PLEASEEE I'M A COLLEGE STUDENT NOW SO IT TAKES SOME TIME TO EDIT THEM AND PUBLISH JEKF

I love yall tho 😩 also the reason why I like to keep drafts is because the way I write, if I write something and finish it the next day sometimes the original plot or discussion I had in my head can fade so to make sure that doesn't happen I keep the drafts to remind me what I'm meant to put.

I LOVE planning things out so if i need to fix a mistake I don't have to keep republishing it 😏

Anyways please don't yell at me <\3 I try to publish two new chapters every week but idk if y'all want me to change it to 4 chapters every week??

Let me know if y'all want that!!

Thank you for reading "The Audition"!!

-Amy