im dating this girl at my school and shes sooo amazing and i slept over at her house and we spooned all night and she was the big spoon and shes so warm and cuddly and like i want to kiss her but ive only kissed people like for hookups!1!1! but not for being serious so im so scared but i want too and i know it sounds like im worrying to much but she means a lot to me and I don't ever want to mess things up between us and we were at a friends party and we went behind the ac unit and our friends were looking for us and we made a plan to scare them and we jumped up and banged on stuff and yelled when they went around a corner to the ac unit aND OUR FRIENDS AND HAMMERS AND AXES AND THEY SCREAMED AND RAN AND IT WAS SOOO FUNNY and then later mj pulled me outside away from everyone and was like "ur mascara is smeared what did you guys do" and i was like "nothing im a cheap bitch i only spend one dollar on this mascara!!!" but i wish my mascara was smeared bc things were getting steamy ;-))))  and we are so different but it works for us and omG SHES A DRUMMER DO YOU UNDERSTAND ?????? LIKE SHIT MATE SHES SO HOT and she plays soccer and i go to her games because also my bestie for the restie is on her team like thats so rad right and like the first time i talked to her for real is when i already had a crush on her because shes heart eyes and it was during half time and i was talking to my friend and she came up and was like "hey i know you we have classes together" (we are both in all ap) and even though it was that small my hurt fluttered so much and i just smILED LIKE A WEIRDOOO and i couldn't imagine then i would actually be with her oH AND ALSO spring break me and some of my "squad" lolol went to her house and i had such a huge crush on her then and i was so worried i would embarrass myself and i was petting her dog and i was like "you little big flopper" and she tuRNED TO ME AND STARTED LAUGHING SO MUCH AND STARTED WHEEZING SAYING LITTLE BIG FLOPPER and then after spring break we found out the feeling was mutual between us and i love this girl so much i dont think anybody not even her understands how much  i love her

(sorry this is soooo sappy and messy and weird but i cannot think straight when talking about this girl)