I want that knife
Dragging across my forearms
My thighs
My calves
My biceps
My chest
My back
Anywhere I can reach

I want that bottle of pills
Swallowing every last one
Sleeping pills
Pain killers
Anxiety pills
Stress relieving pills

I want that bottle
Sliding down my throat
Bottle of bleach
Bottle of toxic liquids
Bottle of poison
Bottle of killing fluids

I want that rope
To dangle on the higher surface
Wrapped around a tree branch
One end to the branch
One end around my neck
As I jump to the end

I want this
I want that
It may sounds selfish
But in reality
I don't ask much

All I ask is to die right here, right now.

Nobody would care
Nobody truly loves me
They all just pity me

Elle
Logan
Sofia
Caroline
Mitch
Gabi
Fabienne
Jordyn
Mom
Dad
Death
Bunny

They don't care
It's all an act
They only "love me" because they feel bad for me
They feel bad that nobody actually loves me
So they pretend they do to make me happy

I'm tired of faking a smile
I'm tired of putting on a mask
I'm tired of the sympathetic glances and asked "Are you okay?"
I'm tired of the therapy like I'm useless on my own
I'm tired of being scanned down day and night like I'm some bad kid who's always stealing

I. Want. To. Die.

I WANT TO BLEED TO DEATH
OVERDOSE
INTOXICATE MY BLOOD WITH DEADLY CHEMICALS
HANG MYSELF
END THE SUFFERING OF EVERYONE WHO KNOWS ME BY MAKING SURE THEY NEVER HAVE TO HEAR OF SPEAK TO OF THINK OF ME EVER AGAIN

JUST LET ME DIE