I walked to Sam's room, before hesitantly knocking on the door. For some reason I was worried. I'm not sure why. I guess, I was just confused, that he asked me to be here.

Sam greeted me with a smile, one that made me remember why I fell in love with him in the first place. Sam had his moments, and I knew that better than anyone. He could be sweet, and kind, and all together perfect. But, he could also be hurtful. More so than anyone else I'd ever been with.

Even though Kol may have tried to kill my best friend, he wasn't himself. And, even when Derek tried to kill Kol, he didn't have control over his emotions. Every time that Sam hurt me. He knew he was doing it. He was himself.

He hugged me, breaking my train of thought. Which wasn't a bad thing. I smiled softly at him as I walked inside. He shut the door behind me. And turned to face me. I sat down on the bed.

"Sam, what's this about?" I asked with a sigh. Still not sure why I was here. He sat next to me. "I needed to see you Abi. I was scared that I never would again, and..it's an unbearable feeling. I had to know you were okay. Are you?" He asked.

I sighed and shook my head. "No, honestly I'm not. I have choices to make, things to think about, and I just..I can't do it Sammy. I can't. I don't know what to do, or who's best for me. Honestly..I just wanna leave. And not tell anyone where I'm going." I explained. He nodded. "Then, do it. If you think that's what's best for you, then for once Abi, I'm begging you, choose yourself. Please." He replied, taking me a bit by surprise, I'd expected Sam, of all people, to talk me out of it.

I smiled. "Thank you Sam." I said before standing, to walk out. He stood as well, and rested his hands on my waist. "But..if you're leaving. Please, just once, let me show you just how much you mean to me." He said, before kissing my neck.

I bit my lip. "Sam I-" "If you want me to stop, just say so." He assured me. But, I said nothing, instead I slid his shirt off. And he smiled at me, before crashing his lips into mine. His kiss was more passionate this time, not like the first time we kissed, when it felt forced. He ripped my flannel open, and surprisingly didn't rip it.

He gently, pushed me on the bed, before finding himself on top of me.

The rest of my night with Sam, was very memorable, but it didn't change my mind. I still had to leave, and I had to say goodbye to Derek and Stiles again.

I got dressed, and made my way to Derek's loft. I just walked inside, not bothering to knock, since I knew Derek wouldn't care anyway. He smiled at me, and hugged me.

I smiled at Derek, and then looked past him at Stiles, who was sitting on his couch. "Can you give us some privacy please?" I asked. He sighed and stood up.

"But, how long do I have to wait? Like are you guys just gonna talk? Or are you guys gonna have sex? Because I need to know if I should go home." Stiles replied. I sighed. "Just, wait outside. Okay?" He rolled his eyes and walked out.

Derek kissed me softly. And I cupped his face. "Derek, I..can't stay here. I can't do this. I have to go. I have to learn how to be a werewolf..and I can't do that, and try to make any decisions that are gonna affect the rest of my life. It's not fair to anyone." I sighed. Derek's smiled faded. "Let me help you then Absinthe!" I shook my head. "Derek, I can't let you do that. I have to do something for myself. I'm sorry." I said as I slid my hands into my pockets.

Derek sighed. "You..really frustrate me. I love you Absinthe. And I always will, just know that. But..I can't do this with you anymore. So..if you have to go. Then, I'm not gonna be waiting for you when you decide to come back this time. This has to be it." He stated, as he started to tear up. I began to cry as well, I knew Derek was right.

"Derek..I'm sorry. I really am. You mean so much to me, you mean the world to me but..but.." I started to choke on my words, and Derek pulled me close to him, hugging me tightly. "I know, I know Abi. It's gonna be fine. We'll move on. We'll find some way." He assured me. Finally, we hesitantly pulled away from each other.

"Goodbye Derek.."

I said before leaving, Stiles saw how sad I was and he wrapped his arms around me. I explained everything.

"You're leaving? I'm going with you!" He replied. I shook my head. "No Stiles, you have to stay. Scott needs you. But I promise, as soon as you're done with college, I'm taking your a*s with me wherever I go." I chuckled. He smiled. "We'll keep in touch right?" He asked. I nodded. "I promise." Then we said our goodbyes.

Things were only gonna get harder from here.