For those who know me, and for those who don't.
I am Nathan Sanchez, but you can call me Nate.
I'm a thirty-three year old wolf.
An unmated wolf at that.

I'm about six foot and seven inches tall.
Two-hundred pounds of pure muscle.
I have hazel eyes and a full face of hair.

Four years ago, I moved back home with my little brother Dominick.
My little brother who is now the Alpha of our pack.
He is also married and has four children. Two sets of twins. Well three of them are biologically his.
The other one is his mate's other husband's daughter.
Confusing? Yes I know.

She was a wolf and mated with my brother. Then she got drained by a vampire for her special powers, but it backfired and killed the vampire.
She somehow absorbed his powers and now she is a hybrid. Part wolf and part vampire.
When she turned part vampire, her best friend Josh became her beloved, which is a mate in vampire terms.

My little brother is ten years younger than me, but is already married and has children.
What the hell am I doing with my life?
I am over thirty with no wife and no kids.
Well no kids that I am aware of.
I never been the the type of guy who looked for long term relationships.
Never been in one.
I like to keep things casual.

The first girl I ever felt something for was my brother's wife. Ariana.
I know it sounds crazy to have a crush on your brother's wife, but I was drawn to her.
Of course I would never cross that line though.

She was feisty when I first met her, but that is to be expected from a Luna.
Then after she figured out that I was Dominick's brother, she was the most sweetest person I've ever met.
She is probably the most gorgeous girl I ever laid eyes on. It's not even about her looks or body. I mean don't get me wrong, she's perfect in those categories, It's just I fell for her personality.

Any guy would be crazy not to notice her.
Then after I found out my parents were dead for over two months and Dominick didn't call to tell me, I lost it.
I was overcome with so many emotions.
Anger.
Hurt.
Pain.

I didn't know how to cope with so many feelings so I did what I always do.
I reacted with violence and I punched him.
I went to my parent's room to clear my mind. I remember walking in there and getting hit with their scents, adding salt to the wound.
A wound that will never heal.

I grabbed a picture that was sitting on the shelf of my parents with Nick's twins, Ava and Javian.
Tears begin to fall quickly as I sat on the bed.
Then I heard a knock on the door.

I wiped the tears quickly away as Ariana walked in.
Fuck! She's going to know I've been crying I remember thinking to myself.
I just knew that she was going to kick me out for punching Nick, so I beat her to the punch.
"I know, I punched the Alpha. If you want me gone, I'll leave in the morning." I said, trying to sound unaffected.
If only she knew how affected I really was.

She surprised me though.
She giggled as she walked over to me. "I'm not here to kick you out Nathan. I just came to check on you. I'm really sorry about you having to find out this way."
She is the only person that calls me by my full name.

"I'm sorry for punching Nick. I was just hurt and angry." I apologized. "Hurt for him not telling me and angry at myself for staying gone so long."
Apologizing is not one of my strong suits. My pride is too big.
"I'm sure he understands." She said and touched my shoulder.

As soon as I felt her touch on my shoulder, all my emotions I was holding inside exploded.
I just started blurting out my troubled childhood and what I did after I dropped out of school.
How I left Nick by himself when things got tough.
How sorry I was for being a screw up, a disappointment.
How sorry I still am.

My parents never told me that I was a disappointment, but it didn't take a genius to figure it out.
I could see it across their faces.

"I never got to tell them goodbye or how much I loved them." I told her and grabbed her by the waist and cried against her.
I've never broke down like this before.
I'm not this sensitive guy that cries.
I felt like all these years were crashing down on me, to haunt me for all the things I did wrong in my life.

I remember how embarrassed I felt as I realize what a little bitch I must have looked like in front of her.
She understood me though.
She told me about her dad and how she was the one who found him.
I remember asking her if it ever gets better.
I was expecting her to tell me yes like everybody else does just to make you feel better, but she didn't.
She told me that It never gets better, but you learn to live with it.
She said family is what kept her together.
Family.
Something I thought I never wanted until I seen how happy my brother is.
I want something like that even though I don't deserve it.

That is why I came back, I wanted to be the big brother that I was suppose to be to Nick.
A son that my parents deserved to have.
A son that they would of been proud of.

No more bailing when things get tough.
Running away was always easier for me to do.
Not anymore.
I missed out of so many things while I was gone.
Seeing Nick graduate high school.
Him getting married.
Watching the ceremony when he became Alpha.
A father.

Let me take you back to where it all begins and how I became the Alpha's older brother.

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Author's Note:
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