I was numb.

Mike was yelling at Jason but I couldn't hear them, then Mike stood up with me in his arms and handed me off to my favorite guard, his name is Jim. He was the one I was messing around with his hat when everyone was talking. He was the only guard I really trust. He told me to shift I did not knowing what else to do and then he shifted. He picked me up by my scruff see how I was in no state to run. We ran all the way to the house and then he shifted but I was too numb to shift back so he picked me up and carried me in the house where he set me down on my bed and I just stared off into space. He kept trying to talk to me but no one could reach me in my sate.

I haven't done anything for I don't know how long,but then I felt tingles going through my body telling me that Sammy was here and to confirm my thought he whispered in my ear.

"I'm right here baby, please shift." I did and once I did i sat there not doing just staring at the ground he dressed me looking at all the scars. this would be the first time he has seen them and I'm surprised he hasn't exploded, "Baby please say something" He asked pulling me into his embrace.

Sammy's POV

I wanted to ask about all the scars but I knew she would tell me in time, I wanted to go kill whoever did that to her but she was in a very unstable state. Then I heard her mumble something.

"Baby please speak up." I asked trying to look into her mind but she always had her walls up.

"He was just like him." She said just a little bit louder than before.

"Who looked like who? Baby please tell me so I can make it better.' She shook her head no.

"You can't fix me, I'm broken. He broke me." She said more to herself than to me but that was it I was going to get into her mind to see what's going on." Then her voice was gone, Kota stopped screaming and was now crying on the floor in a heap. I picked her up and held her and told her everything was going to be ok. we feel asleep that way holding each other thinking about our future together.

Her mind was open, she must have so much on it that she can't block it off. Then I saw what was playing behind her pretty green eyes

Don't talk. just remember that Dekota. He can't hurt us. "Awe, Kota it's time for you talk, then your death will be kinda painless." The man paused to pick her off the ground, then when he faced her eyes she spit in his eyes. "Oh Kota" she cringed at that name, "You just got yourself a big punishment.' The man said walking over to her but she lowered her head so all I could see was her tears then when he spun her around he was naked and he shoved himself into her... I got kicked out of that memory and straight into another one. This one was when she was strapped to a chair in a green room.

Jason was walking to her with Mike the beta of this pack, Dekota was getting her hopes up thinking they were going to save her but instead Jason said something that made me very mad "You would have been a worthless Luna and mate." Then he rejected her. then they started hitting her. Then I was put in someone else's point of view, they were watching my baby screaming and crying in the chair while some men in green screen suits were hitting her. than I got kicked out of her thought completely, she must have put her walls back up. But when I opened my eyes I realized she had falling asleep on the bed next to me. I got up and walk into the training room to work somethings out on the punching bag.

who did that to her? Punch!

why did they do that to her? Punch!

who was mike? Punch!

I'm going to kill whoever brought up those memories! Punch!

Then the punching bag was on the ground torn in a lot of places. Then Jim mindlinked me.

'Alpha she's up and in the same state as when you got here.' I thanked him, went to the sink and washed off my knuckles because I knew she would flip if she saw them. Then I walked back to her room to see Jim trying to get her to eat but she just kept saying the same thing she said last night.

"Baby we should really talk about what happened yesterday." I said quietly to her hoping she would snap out of this and go back to the strong girl I knew she was but she simple shrugged her shoulders and then mindlinked me, which was scary because I had heard rumors that she never use to talk only mindlink and I didn't want that to happen.

'He looked just like him, like he was there beating me like his father did. I was back to being tied down and not having a say in my life. they only thing I could do is cut myself with the piece of glass I found, the only control I had over my life was when I wanted to get hurt. the pain started to feel go so I would act out hoping he would just kill me and I could find my mum and dad. But no every time I heard the Moon Goddess she told me to go back but I didn't want to. she said I had a job to do but still day after day my life just left me I couldn't feel any love but I sure could feel hate, and lots of it. He slept with the slut while I was getting beat to death and wishing I could die! She yelled the last part finally hitting her breaking point she yelled as loud as she could and she had sonic scream so everyone in the house with werewolf ears fell onto the floor crying in pain but for some reason I wasn't hurt by it.