Chapter 28

Insecurities

Teagan

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Some people congratulated me, the 'popular' girls glared and others didn't realize I put the pictures up. The teachers in each of my classes threatened that if the person who did it, didn't confess, they would give give them detention. Then the next period, they threatened to suspend them, then the period after that, it was expulsion.

 I found it all very amusing  but that didn't last long..

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I was in my 5th period class, when the principle came in. The principle stalked over to my teacher and whispered in her ear. What's going on? Everyone was wondering that. The principle only came to a class, personally, if someone was in big trouble. That got everyone wondering. She nodded and the principle came towards me.

Ohhhh. So that is why he came here. I'm in deep trouble. He gave me a look and I instantly got up from my chair, packing up my stuff and following him out. I heard some snickers and some teasing, so I decided that if I'm in a lot of trouble already, who cares if I get in a little more?

Right before I walked out the door, I turned around and flipped off the class. People gasped and others laughed, but the teacher looked shocked out of all.

"Teagan Landers!" The principle scolded. I turned back to him and just shrugged. He sigh and urged me to follow him. I followed him down the deserted hallway to his office.

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An hour later and I was suspended and my mother was just walking in the principals office, looking..happy? What the...?

"Hello, darling." She smiled at me. The principal looked as confused as I was. The principal cleared his throat and my mom turned to him with a glint in her eye.

"Mrs. Landers, your daughter, posted..uh..pictures that she had posted everywhere in the school of another student and her.." He looked to me, confused, as if asking me what Alex was. I really didn't know..

I just shrugged at him. "...Well..never mind. Also, she broke into the school with a copy of the master keys. That is in extreme violation, not to mention that she embarrassed a perfectly good student." He concluded with a disappointed look to me. I just rolled my eyes and crossed my arms. Pshh. Whatever. Perfectly good, my ass. Carrie is as slutty as they come.

But Mr. Wert(Hahaha) wasn't done. "This usually calls for immediate expulsion, but since I am verylenient, I am willing to only suspend her for a week..." I perked up at this. No expulsion. That's good."But she has to apologize to Carrie." I scoffed at that. Hell to the no. The principal looked satisfied with his little rant.

My mom just nodded her head throughout everything he said, not one inturruption. I don't expect her to anyway. She doesn't know about anything that Carrie has done. My mom thought it over for a second then finally spoke up.

"Ok, first of all, what she did was wrong and I am going to punish her for it, but I really doubt Carrie is as innocent as she seems. My daughter will not apologize for something Carrie probably deserved. So do not blame this all on my daughter. You should pay more attention to your school instead of slacking off. Now, good day Mister." She finished, grabbing my hand and pulling me out of the office, leaving Mr.Werts shocked.

I was shocked. All the way home I kept wondering why my mom just blew up at him. I mean, usually she is a calm, collective, discipline person. Nothing like I saw back at the principals office.

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The whole car ride home was silent. It was more a of thinking silence. Once we got inside the house, my mom told me to sit on the couch and wait for her. Oh boy, here it comes. Punishment time.

Five minutes later, mom came out with a shoebox and a smile. I looked at her weirdly, but she said nothing. Mom sat down on the couch, right next to me. She turned to me. I didn't dare look her in the eye. I was ashamed. Not because of what I did, because it gave my mom more of a hassle. I just struck me now that I have been selfish, only thinking about me and my problems, when my family was having their own problems that I didn't even know of. Like Nate and his human mate. Like Percy and him, I don't think, having a mate, or not a mate. Even my mom and how she was getting by..without her mate..my dad..

Ever since my dad died, I have gave her the cold shoulder. I guess I didn't realize how much of a daddy's girl I was until dad died and I practically shunned my own mother. My mom and I looked most alike out of our family. Dark hair, tan skin, evil genius mind. I was her blood.

"Why didn't you tell me?" She asked me out of the blue. I turned slightly to look at her analyzing eyes. But I was confused. "Wait, you aren't going to punish me?" I asked cautiously, trying to change the subject and stay out of trouble. She laughed at me. 

"No, not until I get the full story. So, I will ask again. Why didn't you tell me about him?" She prodded again.

"What?" I asked her, trying to not let my emotion thicken my voice. She laughed at me and took my hand in her lap. "Why didn't you tell me about Luke?" She clarified. My hands became clammy, my blood ran cold. Did she know? But how..? I was about to deny anything but she put up her hand.

"Don't deny it. I know my daughter. Trust me. Please don't pull away. Please, darling." She said, sadness and hurt lacing her voice. I finally looked all the way at her and saw that her eyes were full of tears...

My walls that I have been trying to keep up, instantly crumbled. "Oh mom." I cried. She pulled me into a hug. I didn't dare cry and I guess neither did my mom because she weep. Finally she let me go and looked me straight in the eye. 

"Tell me everything." And I did.

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Three hours, two ice cream tubs, and a bunch of chocolate later and my mom knew everything. She looked absolutely furious when I was done. But I had no idea why..I mean, my mate just totally kicked me to the curb for a whore girlfriend, but other than that, who knows.

"Wait, so you mean that Luke broke up with her today because of the picture fliers?" She asked. I nodded, taking a bite of some chocolate ice-cream. She scowled.

"Well, I knew Luke was your mate, but I had no idea why you guys weren't together. Even his mom knew...And he didn't get with you because of Carrie, who was cheating on him with Alex, who is her mate, but she didn't want to leave Luke because she wanted to have power? And this is all the reason why you wanted to go to Aunty's for the week?" I nodded again, thinking that it sounded worse than itactually was..or did it?

"Well she deserves much more than what you did..." She mumbled. I nodded, once again, in agreement, taking another bite of ice-cream, but something hit me.

"How did you guys know?" I asked her, putting down the ice-cream. My mom smirked at me. "A mother has her ways.." She hinted at me, winking. I scowled at her secretive attitude. "Fine. Whatever." I sulked, while she just laughed it off.

"So are you going to accept Luke?" I shrugged at her. "I'm not sure..I mean, I want to, I really do, but I don't want to be any ones second choice. Especially my mates." I sighed. She nodded knowingly. I decided it was best to change the subject.

"What's in the shoebox." I asked my mom. Her eyes traveled over to the box and a smile slipped onto her face, like she was remembering something..or someone..

"Just some things I wanted to show you, but I decided to wait a little bit.." She trailed off, thinking about something. I looked at her weirdly but shrugged it off. Ok then..

"So..did Luke ask you to the Ball?" She asked suddenly excited. I shook my head. "Nope, Ty, a friend, asked me..And I said yes." My mom's shoulders sagged and she sighed.

"I guess you can't wait forever, can you?" I nodded, just realizing I can't wait forever. And that saddened me. I really like Luke, no matter what he has done. But does he like me?

"I'm going to go to the bathroom real quick." My mom excused herself. I grabbed out my phone and scrolled through it looking for Luke's name. When I found it, I just stared at it. 

I think I stared at my phone screen for about a minute when I realized I couldn't do it. Call me a wuss, but he rejected me once, and I don't think I want to go through that again. It might be different because Carrie is out of the picture but what if he still loves her and hates me for exposing her?

I couldn't bear it, if he hated me. Only one time has he said the word hate to me and meant it. That was when he first got with Carrie, right after she told everyone I slept with Roy, her boy-toy at the time. That's when everyone turned against me. Even my own brothers. Luke had always had a crush on Carrie, so when she came running to him, telling him lies about me, he was totally convinced. Then he told other people, who told my brothers. They were furious with me. At the time, I didn't know why, until I got on my Myspace(It was popular back then. Don't hate.) and people left me all kind of hurtful messages. Then Luke turned against me. Slowly, everyone started to eat up the lies Carrie told about me.

But she didn't just ruin my life for nothing. There was a reason. A stupid reason, but a reason all the same to her. Three years ago, I was a different person, as I have mentioned. I was bubbly and smart, and totally innocent. Carrie was like me, she didn't have as much confidence. All this was before the rape, so I never told Carrie. Well, it was eighth grade year and I had gone through some major body changes. My baby fat was shredded, my chest size was at least a C, my hair had grown out and my attitude become more confident, so people, mostly guys, were starting to notice. Carrie, though, was always a late bloomer. She was never fat but she was a stick. Barely any muscle or fat, just bone. She was flat chested and she was more reserved. Her hair was straight and boring and she was so pale, you would think she was a vampire.

Carrie had always been the leader, so when I started become more independent, she couldn't take it. She stopped talking to me for at least a week. Luckily though, we talked it out and become friends again. But time and time again, little things that I would be better at, or if I overshadow her some way, she would make it into a big thing. Then something pushed her over the edge. Soon she started stuffing her bras, wearing revealing clothes, and started to act very bitchy. It was all out of character.

Then she started to have sex. That shocked me to no end. I found out one day when she came up to me one day and told me she lost her virginity to some player on the football team, I was disgusted. Then we got into a fight and she kept saying I was jealous that she lost her virginity first and all that. That's when I cut all ties with her. 

I couldn't take the drama. I never told anyone about my Carrie problems because I didn't think anyone would really care about my junior high drama. But now, looking back on it, I should have because maybe someone would have believed me when I told them Carrie was lying..

But the story does not end there. While Carrie was out whoring around, I started to make other friends and started to date some guys. I never did anything past making out, for the record. Then Luke came into the picture. I had noticed he had really changed. He wasn't some little boy with a squeaky voice anymore. His voice had gotten deeper, his muscles were starting to show(Thanks to him shifting early) and he had grown taller. I had known Luke for a while, also his brother Alex, since we were kids. So Carrie thought, since she had a crush on Luke, she could be friends with me to try and get closer with the Lucas.

Of course I rejected to become friends with her again and shunned her from my life. She was furious then let it go to whore around again. 

But the final straw for her, was when a guy, Rich, she had her eyes on for sex, asked me out on a date. I said yes because he was cute and nice, a very hard combo to come by. Carrie, obviously because she has a twisted mind, thought I was doing it to hurt her and decided to ruin my life. Rich had told me the night of our date that he didn't like Carrie and thought she was a slut. I actually defended her, but it's not like that mattered.

And well..you know what happens next. Then after that and after that, and here we are, three years later.

I guess people like Carrie have to find other people to blame for their insecurities. 

Too bad.

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Copyright 2011©Lovesoreel

More background info. (: Hate Carrie even more? I do. He-He. Sorry for the lateness but I was recovering for lack of sleep. Ha. Who knew? So this is pretty long. I'm hoping for the Ball to come sooner, so maybe in like...2 chapters? I don't know..I'm starting to work on some new book ideas, so stay tuned. Also, when I am done with this book, which won't be for a while, I will start uploading "Alpha's Love Song" and maybe "Love On Impact" regularly. Yay. *Cheers*. No cliffhanger for this chapter. (:

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