Chapter 19

Pieces to that Crazy Puzzle of Life

Lucas

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I don't know why I kissed her. I don't know. And I don't think I will ever know what came over me, in that cave. But kissing her just felt so right. Like our lips were made to only touch each others, like our bodies were  only made to be next to each other.

Right now, nothing in the world mattered but kissing Teagan. Even though I knew it was wrong. But I could care less right now. I zoned back in on the real world instead of my own thoughts. We were still kissing..or..making out, whichever one you prefer. It was just a tussle of tongues. We were still going at each other but not so dirty, if that's possible..

And we continued like that until I heard my brother calling out my name, saying it was dinner time. I groaned. She pulled away, looking dazed from our tense makeout session. Her eyes were wide, her lips were swollen, and she was flushed. I probably looked the same way but I couldn't help but grin. She was still shocked but finally got over it because Alex's voice was getting closer.

"Let's go!" She whispered yelled. "Wait! What's our 'story'?" She thought about it for a second then grinned evilly.

"Luke! You are such a dumbass!" She yelled at me, making sure Alex could hear. I looked at her like she was crazy but just winked and mouthed, 'Go along with it'.

"I am so not a dumbass! God, you are insufferable!" I screamed at her. She rolled her eyes.

"Hey, hey! Calm down you two. What are you guys arguing about this time?" Alex smirked at us as he climbed over the mossy rock,  almost slipped over.

I wasn't sure what to say but Teagan had it all covered. "Oh, this asshole," She pointed to me, "thought that starfishes are in freshwater and in this cave." She snorted at the end, rolling her eyes at me. Wow. She is a hell of a good actress. Alex started laughing at the two of us and told us to hurry for dinner, then climbed back over the rock.

"Come on. Lets go get something to eat! I'm starving." And she pulled me towards the rock and climbed over, helped me over since I'm such a klutz.

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After we had all gotten dried off and dressed, it was time to eat. Hot dogs, hamburgers, potato salad, and much more. It was all mouthwatering and I got a lot of it. I saw Teagan get two hot dogs and a soda but no potato salad. Then I saw Carrie get food, or should I say, not get food. She only got two slices of hot dog and a tiny scoop of potato salad.

What did I ever see in her again?

As I was sitting down, I was called by Alex. "Hey Luke, can I speak to you down by the water?" He looked calm but yet, he looked like he was a friggin' genius. "Umm..ok?" It was starting to get dark outside and the sun was already 3/4 of the way down.

"You kids be careful. Watch your step and be back soon, it's getting dark." My dad, the Alpha, told us. I scoffed at the last comment. I mean we both are friggin' werewolves. My dad narrowed his eyes at me and I sighed in defeat. We both reassured him and off we went. But why did he want to talk to me by the water?He never wants to talk to me...Oh god. He was going to drown me! Oh god. Oh god. Oh g--

"Luke, if you are thinking I'm going to kill you or something..think again." My brother said in a humored voice. I knew he was smirking even though I couldn't see him very well. A few minutes late, we were down by the water skipping rocks into the black abyss of the swimming hole. It had been pretty silent with the exception of the splashing of water due to the rocks. It wasn't awkward or anything. It was just a comfortable silence.

"So..." I started, while skipping a small rock. One skip, two skips, three skips, four sk--

"You and Teagan are mates." It wasn't a question. It was a statement. It was the truth. My eyes widened and my mouth was gaping at his dark figure. Alex was still skipping rocks, waiting patiently for my answer.

"I-Um...W-what are y-you talking about...?" I asked, trying to sound calm but it failed. He knew that and I knew that. Alex sigh in frustration and whipped his body towards me, facing me. "God Luke. When are you going to fucking grow up, Stop god damn lying. She is your mate. And you denied her."

All the emotions I had pushed down, the anger, the sadness, the loneliness, the angst, the guilt, it all came back up and I couldn't take it anymore.

"Yes." That one word made everything more bearable. I wasn't completely carrying this secret alone with Teagan anymore. Someone else knew. For some reason, I wasn't scared he would tell anyone. No matter if my brother and I aren't close, he wouldn't screw me over. He is my brother. Close or not.

"Why are you guys hiding it?" Was the next question he asked me. I sucked in a hard breath, then let it go. "Sit. This is going to take a while." I told him, while sitting down. He obeyed and at down too, looking at me expectantly.

I took another shaky breath. Wow. I can't believe how this was totally effecting me...

"Well it started out a normal day.." It took a while to tell him the story and by the end, I could feel some of the weight on my shoulders gone but there was still something there...But I guess, since I denied my mate, I will always feel that pressure..

After about a half hour, I was done. I kept the kiss that happened earlier to myself because I'm still decoding it, wondering if it meant anything to her or even me. I wonder if she was worried about me right now..Was anyone wondering where we were?

It was another round of silence between Alex and I. I started wondering if it was for the best to tell him...

"Lucas." My brother said, turning to me. "Ya?" Then I felt a pain in the back of my head and a felt a headache coming. Alex looked pissed. And so was I.

"Why did you just slap the back of my head?!" I whispered-yelled, fuming that he gave me a headache and he had the nerve to hit me! "Because you are a freaking dumbass." He said in a calm voice, then he started heading towards back to the camp.

"What the fuck, Alex. What did I do?!" I yelled at him, not caring if someone heard me. No one but Teagan can speak to me like that. It sounds dumb but she has been calling me it for so long and has done it a lot, that I only allow her to use it.

"I'm not going to tell you. One, because you are a retard(A/N: Not meant to be offensive!) Two, you are a big ass. And three..where is all the fun of seeing you screw things up if I tell you?" With that he walked back up the dusty trail, leaving me to my thoughts.

Oh god. That's a scary place..

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Teagan

I saw Alex come back up from the water alone and automatically knew something was wrong. The parents went to sleep 20 minutes ago, telling Percy he was in charge. Now that was a bad idea. Percy was telling ghost stories, making Carrie whine like a first grader. Then they found some booze and each had a shot. Wondering why the adults haven't come to stop us? Well, my mom made a deal with my brothers and I and told us that if we want to drink, then we would have to deal with the consequences and she wouldn't intervene, whether we were in jail or something worse. Except for things like getting beat up or raped, then she made exceptions....

I saw the look  of Alex's face right when he spotted me and I knew that he knew. He came up to me and I dragged him a little bit into the forest, so no one could hear us, though I doubt they could if we were two feet away. They were drunk sons-of-bitches.

"You know, don't you?" He nodded. I sighed and tried not to cry. No matter how strong I act, I know I'm not. The night after Luke told me about being his mate and how he wouldn't leave Carrie, I cried. I don't know how long, but I did. I even considered committing suicide but I knew that was the wrong way to go. I would be doing is feeling sorry for myself and trying to get Luke's attention. After...The Night..after the..rape..I could feel myself slowly degrading, losing my persona that I tried to keep on for so long. But when I was told I would be getting a mate, I was secretly happy. I mean, my mate would be someone I could trust with my life and secrets. I would tell him everything. But when I found out that it was Luke, I lost that hope then he told me everything else, I found myself slowly falling to pieces..again.

I did so many things I'm not proud of after..The Night..But what happened happened. I'm not going to say that I just totally forgot about that night because that would be wrong and inhuman. Sometimes dream of it so vividly, I wake up crying. It scares me but it would scare my mother more, so I haven't told her. I still don't know who did it, but I do know there is a big scar down his right eye from me shifting that night. I also know that he wasn't much older than me, but he was in a gang. He was scared shitless but still not as scared as me. I try to remember the details of that night but no such luck. The only people that know how I shifted are my mom, the Alpha and his wife and surprisingly Alex. We became close and we were best friends but him being a year older and being a different gender, well we slowly drifted apart.

Yet, I still trust him more than I do River. Then I lost Carrie. She was my bestest friend, ever. Then she told lies and started rumors about me. So I decided to just leave her alone. But then she started doing things. Little revenge plans that seemed harmless but to me it as another reason to almost let go. Then she just stopped with the pranks after River threatened her and she left me alone, except for the occasional burn. That all happened within four months. But it happened three years ago, but it seems like yesterday sometimes. Except I'm not fourteen anymore. I'm seventeen. I need to get over it.

 I need to leave

"Hello? Teagan?" Alex was calling my name but it seemed like he was far away. I ignored him and started running away from him calling my name. I didn't care. I was on a mission.

To leave. Everyone needs a break. From everyone. But me and Luke especially. He needs to figure out his priorities. And soon. Or I won't be here forever. The kiss we shared in the cave was still a mystery to me but I could there was something behind it.

I texted my mom, telling her I needed time to think of things and I would be back within two weeks and not to worry, I had everything under control and not to come looking for me. I told her I loved her and would text her soon.

Then I shifted. I felt my bones cracking in and out of place. Then my black fur sprouted from my skin. Then my hands and feet turned into paws and soon enough, I was a semi-large midnight black wolf with green eyes, which I found odd since most werewolves have their human eye color. I howled into the dark night and sprinted towards the north. To visit a family member.

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Copyright 2011© Lovesoreel

Awh pooey :( I'm sorry for the disappointment. I have a feeling of where this story is headed and this is a one of the bad parts. Don't worry, she won't be gone for like a year or something. Maybe a week, tops. But when she comes back, there are going to be some things changed. Also, you will find out more about Teagan's past...soon. So I hope you all don't kill me. I'm sorry for this sad little chapter. And I'm scared to say that this isn't even half way through. I'm not sure right now...So this is really long. And please don't say that I should make that chapters longer because I have a life to live and I only have a limited amount of time to write. So please be courteous. :)

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