I fall asleep sooner or later and now it was time to "wake up" as mom put it. She told me to help her with the rest of the food and then I can get ready. After we are going to get me a bathing suit even though I'm not gonna swim.

"Feel the pot half way with water and put the eye on seven." I do as told. Mom was starting the chicken while I stir the noodles. After awhile the noodles was done and I drain them in the drainer then put the noodles back in the pot. Mom yells me what to do and once I finish, I pop it in the oven.

"Go take your shower and stuff. I should be finish with the chicken and then we can go to the store." I nod and race upstairs.

I get my things and get in the shower. The boys was outside setting everything up. I take a quick shower, avoid the mirror, and go to my room wrap in a towel. In there I dry off, put on my undergarments, and try to find something to wear. I decide to just put on a white t-shirt and some grey sweats. I comb my hair and put it in a ponytail. Put on my converse and go back to the bathroom to brush my teeth. Once finished, I go downstairs to see mom wrapping up the chicken and leaving it on the table.

"You ready?" I nod. She grabs her purse and keys and we leave. She sends a text to dad to tell him we're gone.

At the store, we go to the clothing section and find the bathing suits. We look through the one-pieces and mom pick a black swimsuit that is opened back.

"How about these one?"

"No, not an open back one." She puts it back and grabs a grey one that covers me front and back completely. If your wonder why she isn't picking ones that are pink or blue, it's because I told her I will only wear black, grey, or white. After a little arguing, she agreed. I nod at her choice.

"Yeah, let me try it on." I take it from here and walk into one of the dressing rooms. I take off my clothes and put the bathing suit on. Mom got me a pair of light blue swimming shorts. It was the only thing I let her get bright colors in. I put that on as well. You can't see the scars on my back and stomach, but that's another story for my legs. I have two long scars on each leg, plus that big brand mark on my thigh. Most of it is covered up by the shorts. I still don't want to display those scars on my legs though.

"Can I see?" Mom ask at the door.

"Yeah, but you have to come in." I don't want people outside to see them. She walks in and shuts the door back. "It looks good. Do you want to get it?"

"Yeah but it's not like anyone is going to see it."

"Why?"

"Because I don't want people to see these scars on my legs." Mom looks and sighs.

"No one is going to judge you about them. They are family. It's going to be ok if they see them."

"I know, but I just don't like them out." I look at my heads. She pulls me into hug.

"I know. I know. If you don't want to swim you don't have to. I just think you should try to step out your comfort zone." I pull back.

"Ok, all try." She smiles.

"Ok, know change back so we can get home." I nod and she waits outside the dressing room. I put my clothes back on and carry the bathing suit out the room. We go and pay for it, then head home.

Once we get there, I go to my room and put on my bathing suit. Mom also got me some slides so I don't have to walk around barefooted. I put them on and look at the long mirror on my wall. The scars are noticeable and I almost chicken out of wearing this until there was a knock at the door. I answer it and Jace stood there.

"Mom told me to get you cause she thinks you're gonna chicken out of wearing your swimsuit."

"How did she know?"

"She said something a long the lines like mother knows best. I think she got that from Tangeled."

"What is Tangeled."

"A Disney princess movie."

"You watch princess movies."

"No! Mom made all of us, even my friends and dad, watch it."

"Ok." I smirk knowingly.

"Let's just go downstairs." That's when I stiff up. I shake my head, I can't wear this!

"No, I-I don't want to wear this."

"Why?"

"Cause I don't want anyone to see my scars." I say this quieter then usual. He scans me and his eyes lands on my legs.

"Oh. That's why she thought you would chicken out. Look, I know you don't like them and don't want anyone to see it, but no one is going to judge and if they do, I wouldn't be scared to fight my cousins." A small smile plays on face.

"What if it's a girl?" I tease.

"Then I'll throw her in the pool. Know let's go downstairs." I nod and we go to the kitchen.

In there was mom, dad, and four old people. Two girls, two guys. When I walk in, all eyes was on me. I look down at my toes uncomfortably. I glance up and they have tears beaming in their eyes. I pat Jace arm and he looks at me.

"Who are they?" I don't remember ever seeing there face. A guess they heard me even though I talk super quiet. They cry harder. "Sorry, didn't mean to make you cry." Stupid Jaz, what a bad first impression.

"Awe sweety, we're find. It's just that you're here. I'm sorry, we're your grandparents. I'm your grandma Sue, on your mom's side and these is my husband Greg, your grandpa." I wave not knowing what to do.

"And I'm your grandma Hanny, on your dad's side, and this is my husband Fred, your grandpa also." I wave again.

The door bell ring and Jace goes to answer it.

"Let's get the food to the back. Jaz, can you grab the potato salad." I nod. We all grab something and place it on one of the long tables on the back. A lady, guy and two little kids comes to the back and straight to were we are at. The girl gives mom a hug.

"Hey sis, we haven't talked in a while. I thought you forgot about me." The lady says. The guy was talking to dad.

"Sorry little sis, I've been dealing with a lot lately." They pull back and the girl looks at me.

"Jaz!" She pulls me into a huge and I don't know what to do. Who is she? I look at mom for help.

"Serra, let go." She listens.

"Why?" Mom sighs.

"She don't remember you?" Serra looks shock and looks back at me.

"You don't remember me?" I nod. I feel bad now.

"I'm sorry." I look down at my feet.

"No, no, that's ok. I'm Serra, your aunt and your mom's sister." She waves someone over. The guy she was with comes over and the two little kids. "This is my husband Daniel and this is Boye and Lucy. He's five and she's seven.

"Hi." Both of the kids say.

"Hey." Daniel says a little confused.

Another group of people came. Then another. Then another. They all had the same reaction and so did I. I didn't remember any of them. Mom has one little sister and two older brothers. There not twins. They all are married and have kids. Her oldest brother Chris have a wife named Beth. They have a son named Harry, Ace and Jace age, and a daughter my age named Lorena. Her other brother Cirus had a girlfriend named Faith and they have a two year old daughter name Jean. My dad has two younger brothers who are twins and two older sisters. The twins names are Steven and Evan. Steven has a girlfriend named Kat without any kids and Evan has a girlfriend name Witney and have a two year old daughter also, named Dorres. His oldest sister name is Jennifer and she dates a guy name Kevin. They don't have children. His other sister name is Grace. She is single with a son named Alex who is Ace and Jace's age. Dad's father has a brother name William who married a girl named Paula. They had a daughter named Heather who married a guy named Aleke and had a daughter my age named Beatrice. They all was here too. That makes 29 guest here. That's a lot of people. Mom said this isn't all the family, but is the ones they talk to. I'm glad they didn't bring more people in. It's going to the hard to remember all of these people.

The good thing about all of this is no one has asked me about what happened and about my scares.

I walk over to the pool with my brothers and cousins. They was already in. Mom and dad wants me to interact with them. I descend down the steps and into the pool. Trey sees me and swims over to me.

"Here, give me your and hand we can go over there with everyone else. Don't worry, it's not that deep." I nod and give him my hand. He drags me over with everyone else.

"Hey Jaz." Lorean says. I wave a little.

"We should play Marko Pollo." Alex suggest breaking everyone, but me, from there conversations. Everyone agrees, but me. What in the world is Marko Pollo?

"I want to be Marko first!" Beatrice yells waving her hands in the air. Everyone agrees and spreads out, so I do the same.

"MARKO!" Beatrice says.

"POLLO!"Everyone yells moving as far away from her as possible. I do the same.

"MARKO!"

"POLLO!" This time I yell out with them. She was close to me and I try to move away, but it's hard to move in water. I hop to try and move further.

"MARKO!"

"POLLO!" We all yell and she is so close to touching me so I hop faster.

"MARKO!"

"POLLO!" She touches me and opens here eyes.

"You're it." She says cheerfully. I nod and move to the middle. I close my eyes like she did and spread my arms out to feel for people and things.

"Marko!" I say a little bit louder than my usual quiet voice so they can hear at lease a little.

"POLLO!" I start to hop to the closes voice I hear.

"Marko!"

"POLLO!" I turn right as the voice sound closer over there. I try to hop faster.

"Marko!"

"POLLO!" The voice sounds closer and I move as fast as I can in that direction to end up touching someone's shoulder. I open my eyes and see that I found Harry.

"You're it." I say in my usual voice and smile. He sticks his tongue out at me and goes to the middle. I chuckle and we begin the game.

After everyone went twice as being Marko, we get out the pool to eat. I get some deviled eggs, potato salad, baked macaroni and cheese, baked beans, and a piece of chicken. I sat beside Beatrice and Lerean. We became a little bit more closer as cousins. They don't go to my school which sucks, but it's alright.

"Are you having fun?" Lorean ask taking a bite of her macaroni.

"Yeah, at first I thought it was going to be dreadful." I answer stuffing my face with potato salad.

"Why so?" Beatrice ask eating her chicken.

"I was scared that... well... lots of 'what ifs' flew through my brain. Plus, I'm still scared of everyone and everything." I mumble.

"I understand a little and it's ok to be scared. You only been here for a week right?" I nod. "Then it's ok, everything is still fresh to you." Lorean explains and Beatrice nods in agreement.

"Thanks guys. It feels good to talk to someone my age."

"You're welcome. Having wonderful cousins like us is awesome. We could be the three musketeers!"

I look at her confusely, then decide that I shouldn't ask questions. I learned that the hard way a long time ago, even though I forget sometimes. I wonder why they haven't punished me for that yet. Cause they're most likely plotting something dumby. Oh great, your back. Never lefted girl.

"Do you want to go get some dessert with us?" Lorean ask me.

"Sure."

We get up and head to the dessert table. There was pies and cakes and cookies and more. I get a slice of chocolate cake, one cookie, one brownie, and a piece of sweet potato pie. They basically get the same, but with more of each. We sit back down and stuff our face with the desserts.

"This cake it to die for!" Beatrice says moaning.

"Try this cake, it's to die for." Master says to his guest.

"Thanks man." The guy takes a bite of the cake and once he swallows, he starts to choke. Master and us girls watch as the guy falls out to the floor dead.

I choke back a sob and try to continue to eat, but I wasn't hungry anymore. In my whole life, I've watched four people die in front of me. One being someone I knew. I hate when people talks about death so freely cause to me it means something. It reminds me of those people. I still relive seeing there deaths as if I was the one who caused it.

"Jaz, are you ok?" Lorean ask looking worried. I nod my head, then remember 'speak when spoken to'.

"Yes ma-" I cut my self off. Master isn't here. It's Lorean I'm talking to.

"Are you sure?" Beatrice ask.

"Yes, I'm sure. I umm, I'm gonna go use the bathroom." The nod unsurely.

I get up, throw my plate away and go to the bathroom. I was still in my bathing suit, but I was dry. I walk in and shut the door. I lend against the door and put my hands on my face and sigh. I can't go with one day without having a memory. It seems like every little thing reminds me of that place. I was finally having fun and my brain had to ruin the moment. I step one foot out the box just to have it push me back in.

I look in the mirror and a tear runs down my face. I wipe it off and use the bathroom so I wouldn't be lying. I finish up and wash my hands. I don't want to go back out there. I'm fine wrapping these party up and sending everyone home.

I'm getting too attached to my family and I need to stop. You finally came to your senses. I been telling you these from the begining, but nnnnnooooooo, you didn't want to listen to me. Aww shut your trap. I'm done with your commentary! Last time I checked, I'm the boss of you, not the other way around! I control you! I'm the dominate one, the alpha! You're the ressecive trait, which means you're masked when I'm around! No! It's my body and my mind! Get out of my head! You do as I say! I'm your master, baby girl! I own you! That when it hits me. I never truely got rid of him cause he was always in my head. I begin to cry. I'm still stuck with him. I'm not free. He was right, I can only leave him by dying. Someone knocks on the door.

"Pumpkin, are you alright in there? You've been in there for almost thirty minutes." I try to speak regularly, but failed like always.

"I-I'm f-find dad."

"Are you crying, let me in."

"I'm f-find."

"Jaz, come out."

I sigh and wipe my face before opening the door and walking out. Dad pulls me into a hug and I hug him back.

"What's wrong."

"Nothing." He pulls back and looks at me sternly, but not in a scary way.

"Jaz." I hang my head down.

"Well, they just side something and it reminded me about something."

"What did they say."

"Nothing serious or mean. Just they said the cake was to die for and it reminded me of something that happened."

"What did it remind you of." I play with my fingers as I answer.

"Well, it reminded me when mas-, he gave some guy that was visiting and piece of cake that he made ma'am make. He put something in it before she baked it, we didn't know what it was, but he told us to not eat the cake. And the guy ate it after mas- I mean he said try this cake, it to die for. When the guy at it, he died right in front of everyone." A tear rolls down my face and dad pulls me back into a hug.

"I'm so sorry, was that the only person you seen die?"

"No. I've seen four people die. One was that guy, another is a girl he named red who he shot because of her attitude. Another two was also people who worked for him. They ate the cake too." I cry the rest of my tears out as he rubs my back. I finally finish crying.

"Do you want to go back down stairs or do you want to go to sleep." This statement make me yawn.

"I want to go to sleep."

"Ok then, I'll tell everyone. Good night." Dad starts to walk off.

"Good night." I walk into my room and put on some PJs. I should take a shower, but I'll do that in the morning or when ever I wake up. Once my head hits the pillow, I'm out like a light.