"Hello?" Parker answered to my call. I had found that I needed someone to talk to, someone that would only listen to what I had to say.

"Hey Park." A smile creeping into my face from the sound of his voice.

Parker was my older brother, the person I told everything to. I relied on him for almost about everything, his opinions, thoughts of situations, anything that I was struggling with really. Parker always knew what to say and how to say it.

"How's my little sister?" He asked me while I held the phone close to my ear.

"She could be better. Do you have time to talk?" My elbows propping themselves up on the kitchen counter top while my eyes scanned around the room.

"You know I always have time for my little sister! I'll be over in five." Parker immediately responded to my call for help. Saying our goodbyes I looked down at myself and ran to my closet where I needed to find something to wear and quick.

Parker would be here in five minutes and I still needed to gather up Rory's things as well. Picking through some options I found a pair of black workout leggings and a white t- shirt that would have to do for now. Combing my hair through with my fingers I thought I looked decent enough for anyone else to see me.

Going into Rory nursery I found him just waking up from his morning nap. I found a diaper bag draped over the rocking chair and filled it with the essentials I was bound to need. Slinging that over my shoulder I picked up Rory who had begun to make fussing sounds from my lack of attention to him. Changing him quickly he began to fuss from his warm temperature change to a more chilled one.

"It's okay..." I cooed to him kissing his forehead once I was all finished. Wrapping him back up into the warmth of his blanket I was on to find a car seat I could use for Parker's car.

Looking around the room I opened up the doors to the closet to finally see what I was looking for. Switching Rory to my other arm I used my free one to pull the car seat out and set it on top of the rocking chair. Laying Rory down into the car seat his face contorted into that of dislike while I continued to buckle him inside the seat. Doing my best to comfort him I sat for a moment giving him my hand which he grabbed hold of my finger squeezing it. Seeing his angers and frustrations let up after a few minutes I proceeded to take away my hand and prop the car seat at the joint of my arm where I found it most comfortable.

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"How do you fix a mistake?" I came out asking him after sometime of catching up. I wanted to know what his method was of trying to fix something you have broken.

"It depends on the mistake." Parker drive through to busy streets of Manhattan. Keeping his eyes on the road he looked over to me while stopping at a red light. "What kind of mistake are we talking about?"

"A big one." I was vague with my answering and saw the look that Parker gave me.

"You're not talking about Niall are you? Are you two okay?" Parker pressed on the gas of the car,
rolling forward to no place in particular.

"I just made a huge mistake and wish I could take it all back." I dismissed the questioning Parker was placing on me by dodging his questions.

"No matter how bad we want to take it all back we can't. You have already made the mistake so all there is left to do is live with it. Accept it and learn from it so that it doesn't happen again." I kept my eyes on him taking in the advice he spoke. I knew he was right but I didn't want to believe that, that was what I had to do.

I sighed lightly and looked away, with wondering eyes I watched the busy streets bustle with people going all directions. Cars making turns and going alternate routes within the overly crowded roads.

"What's going on with you Em? You can tell me. Is Niall treating you okay?" Parker took a glance at me with genuine concern over what my question was implying.

"He's treating me fine, it's nothing like that. None of this is even his fault in the first place. I was the one that screwed up and now I have to live with what I have done." I heaved in a sigh letting it go after a few seconds of needing more oxygen.

"You're not having an affair are you Aims?" Parker jumped to conclusions with my vagueness in answers I was giving him.

"No! No! Nothing like that..." I trailed off not knowing what else to say. I could tell him what I had done because I already looked like I was insane to Niall. I didn't need another thinking I wasn't mental stable.

"Then what? You can tell me Aims, you know that you can tell me anything." Parker pressed the issues while I tilted my head against the window. Folding my arms across my chest I saw another red light approaching us.

"You wouldn't believe me if I told you anyway." I shook my head feeling completely alone in all of this. There was no one that knew what this felt like because it wasn't something that was possible.

"Try me." Parker slowed down coming to a complete stop at the red light. I wanted so badly to tell Parker this story of what had happened to me but I knew I shouldn't. Like I had told myself before, I couldn't afford another thinking I'm completely insane.

"Maybe another day." I shrugged keeping my position with my head leaning against the window and my arms folded lowly.

"As stubborn as always I see." Parker poked at me with his words.

"As annoying as always I see." I rolled my eyes on edge from this entire situation. I didn't mean to be snappy with Parker but I was just frustrated I had put myself into this situation.

Why did I have to make everything a million times harder then they had to be?

A/ Hey guys! I'm sorry for the late update but if you don't check my conversations then you wouldn't know. I was tested positive for Influenza B and have been very ill, today is the first day I'm feeling somewhat decent so I thought I would update. Anyways what are your thoughts on what's happening so far?