Lower Manhattan, May 1st 2016

Roderick's POV

I'm wrecked.

I travelled all the way from California to New York to see if I could get Jordan back.

You know those things people tell you about love.

Go on, go after him if you really love him go after him whatever happens is worth it because at least you tried.

Yes but trying is not enough. I almost got him but almost is never enough.

Soulmates and what is meant to be will come eventually is just crap.

I never believed it anyway but I gave it a shot. When you're desperate you do everything you can.

Our passion towards each other was out of sync and that's what killed any chance of becoming more than friends.

I never met someone like him.

I lived in California for a long time ago and the people I met seemed the same.

But Jordan was different. He wasn't from originally California.

He moved when he was about to start high school. As he entered in my life it was never the same.

He is one of a kind. And I'm so sad to not have him. I did everything I could.

You know people like him you only meet a few in a lifetime. They're rare.

He was a troubled guy, very cocky, self indulgent and with passion to destroy things and people.

He seemed like he didn't care about anyone and he used that to get to the top.

It wasn't easy cope with him but I looked above his flaws.

Because I know we all have them.

He is a work in progress and so am I.

He teached me a lot, like setting goals and be ambitious.

He talked with such enthusiasm, with such longing for the future.

Jordan told me that setting goals helps us develop a good future.

And about the ambition part, when he wanted something he never let go of it until he got it.

And he wanted everything so much.

I loved to pick on him because I liked to get him angry, it's not that hard to do.

He's quite sensitive and is always ready to fight.

Jordan is shorter than me and looks so young, so innoccent. I

t was fun to see that kind of guy opening his mouth to destroy me with a lot of great points.

He always had this great arguments.

You can't contradict him, he'll always have something to say and will always win.

He has this magnetism that brings everyone towards him.

He stared at everyone like directly. It was kind of intimidating but when it came to me he couldn't do it.

I still don't know why he couldn't.

Well it was a long shot, a great risk, but life's like that.

You have to take chances and I won't regret any of it. I won't regret what I did for love.

The city of New York is really loud and cold.

I see the buzz that Jordan always described this city has. The art, the culture, the constant movement.

I don't see myself here. But I see this as Jordan's home. This city is so him.

He is a part of this city, he belongs here.