Midtown Manhattan, February 20th 2016

Sam's Point Of View

I'm shocked, I ruined a big friendship.

I didn't want for Jordan to move out I was just thinking in his sanity.

He's the big deal. I told him.

Even if no one else believes in it, I do. And I know he believes in that too.

I don't know if that's why he wants to do everything that comes in his way.

He has achieved a lot for a freshman.

When I was a freshman I only studied. I wasn't invited to show any of my creations.

My scripts, my ideas for videos of even films.

I was only a student. I'm not saying Jordan is more than a student but I can't compare with him.

In his first year he got the lead role in the christmas play.

He was invited to the annual Winter Showcase that only invites twelve students and he came in second place.

He just wants to do more and more.

I should have stopped him. But he has this force in him.

A strong force that can either lead you to him or push you from him.

And in the moment he left I couldn't even talk.

Well he didn't let me.

I should have gone after him like they do in the movies.

But in what would that help?

When makes up his mind he doesn't change it. You can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped.

Tomorrow maybe we will meet in NYU and if he doesn't come to talk to me, I will.

I won't give up on our friendship. I won't give up on us.

He's in my thoughts everyday.

I got attached to him very quickly and it's hard to see someone who means so much to me go away.

This can't be the end. This can't be the end of us.

I will go after him, if I don't do it I will never be the same.

He entered in my life not for much time. But it seems like we already knew each other for years.

Maybe he's my soulmate or whatever they call it.

I think I was a bit harsh to him by taking him out of my short film.

But he just didn't get that I was helping him, not being mean.

Jordan is a star on the rise. And the worst you can do that to that type of person is cutting their wings off.

He's also so lovely, fun and a kind soul. So precious.

I can't describe him because he can be so good and endearing but also so powerful and evil.

Jordan is one of those persons you don't meet quite often in your life.

He is a limited edition as we sometimes say when we're having fun.

Gosh, how I miss him.

I have to be honest, I do love him. I know he's still hurt from a previous heartbreak.

But I could unbreak it if he let me so. He's a guy who likes to be independent but also wants company.

He's quite bipolar, I don't know if that's the right word to describe him.

I have to get him back. I haven't fought so hard for someone since God knows when.

But I can't lose him. I need him. He's my beacon.

Because when I'm with him or near him I know where to go and what to do. 

He guides me wisely in this journey that is life.