Loneliness...

It's an ever present companion of mine...

It weighs me down so much sometimes that my heart literally aches...

Depression...

The cloud that has drifted over me my entire life...

finding me even in my happiest moments...

I can't escape it...

Anxiety....

The feeling that always keeps me from trying new things..

Fear...

The feeling i get when someone says my name and sounds upset, or when a teacher walks up to me and warns me..

Judgement....

The feeling i always get as i walk through the halls of this school... I feel everyone behind me or along the walls watching me...so... i stare straight ahead as if no one else exists even though i can hear they're voices around me....

PTSD...

The memories that flood back to me every time i hear my stepmothers voice and hear the disappointment in my dad's voice....

Crying...

What i feel like doing when my mom shakes her head in disappointment with me yet as much as i will myself to please her i just cant find it in myself to do it....

Counseling...

What has always been present in my life but never seems to help anything....

Silent...

The way i live my life...the way i suffer...the way i slowly kill myself from the inside out....the way i ignore my past and think that Iv'e healed even though i haven't....

Joy...

The feeling I wish I had....but cant seem to find....

Love...

What i have abundantly for others but none for myself....

Forgiveness...

What i have for most people but none for myself....

Prayer...

What I can't bring myself to do because i'm too ashamed of everything I've done...

Rejection...

What I'm afraid will happen when i try to talk to someone new...What I'm afraid will happen if i try to pray.....

Forgotten....

What i'm afraid will happen to me by people who i had to leave behind the day i was moved here...

Empty...

What i'm afraid my funeral will be...

Ignored...

What i'm afraid will happen if i die...

Abandoned....

What i'm afraid will happen to me if i anger a friend...

Heartache....

All of these doubts combined.... 

There is an antidote for the pain and suffering when there is love ,love can make or break any type of relationship therefore i am the light of love that lights the dark allies of your heart i will bring the blue skies to your rainy days i will heal you my love will heal your open wounds