I hear a soft knocking on my door followed by jiggling of my door handle.

"L-leave me alone!" I hiccup as I cover my eyes.

I didn't mean to yell at him, I don't know where it came from, I just feel so fucking trapped and scared to death. I tried hiding it, and him not being here for those three days scared me so fucking bad. I was scared he'd leave and disappear forever. I hid it, and, I hid it well. Then all that anger I felt, at the possibility that he left, even though I knew he didn't, it all just came out at once. I'm a fucking asshole for it, and he probably hates me for being like this. I hate me for being like this.

"Lu, let me in. You need to eat." My mom says as he knocks more aggressively on my door.

"If you don't open this door right now, your dad's breaking it down-" he says as I open it before going back to my bed.

"Lu-"

"I don't want to talk about it." I say softly as I get back on my bed.

"It's okay, I heard everything." He says as I become embarrassed.

"Mom, I didn't mean to say that stuff, I didn't mean to yell at him. I don't know what to do." I say as I break down into tears again.

"Oh, come here, baby." He says as he sits next to me and holds his arms open.

"It's okay-"

"No, it's not! I was a dick to him and I don't know why! I just felt so angry, I couldn't control myself! I'm so sorry, I don't know what happened and I feel so bad, mom!" I say as tears stream down my cheeks and onto his shirt.

"It's because you're still getting used to having so many pheromones like this, baby. It wasn't your fault, believe me." He says as I shake my head.

"Mom, it was my fault-"

"No, it wasn't. Don't blame yourself. Sehun doesn't blame you, your father and I don't blame you, I told him it was just hormones getting to you, and you've been so good about mood swings, baby. Your body just couldn't hold it in anymore and Sehun just so happened to be on the receiving end of it." He says as I hiccup and try to calm myself down but I can't.

"See, baby, this was the cry I was talking about having when I first went to get an ultra sound. Imagine me, sitting in a room with that gel all over my stomach and like ten nurses surround me trying to calm me down." He says making it hard not to chuckle softly as I wipe my eyes.

For a moment I'm okay, but break down again into tears as I think about Sehun and how he probably must hate me.

"Baby, Sehun's fine, and I promise he'll never take another picture of you without your permission." He says with a chuckle.

"He told you?" I ask softly.

"Yeah, even if he didn't, we heard the whole fight. You really scared him, I mean, he's fine now, but he was shaking like a dog in a thunderstorm and your father and I actually witnessed him crying. I wasn't ever expecting to see that, but I forced it out of him to know more details, then your father drove him home. I told him what I'm telling you now, he knows it wasn't you talking, I mean, it was you but it wasn't your heart, it was the hormones. He's okay, baby, and so are you, but you didn't eat breakfast and you can't be skipping meals now." He says as he gives me a plate with a chicken sandwich on it that looks freshly cooked.

"Thanks." I say softly.

"Baby, everything will be okay. Okay? There will always be bumps in the road, and you can't always go around them, especially if the road is full of them. You have to go over them to continue your journey. This is just a bump in the road, you're over it, and Sehun's over it too. He's not mad at you, and he never was, he was mad at himself, thinking he was stupid for videotaping you-"

"Mom-" I whine, seeing this is going too deep in detail for me.

"Baby, you're father and I aren't stupid, why do you think we had our movie so loud??" He chuckles as my cheeks heat up.

"You two hadn't seen each other in a few days and you're hormonal and he's crazy for you, you had that thong-"

"Mom! Please!" I whine as he chuckles softly.

"Okay, well you need to eat right now. I'll be back up later to check on you." He says as I nod and pick up half the sandwich.

It's been a while since I had such a big sandwich. Yet I'm only able to eat half of it since I've been eating so much less lately making me pout since I used to be able to eat three of those at once.

I lay back on my bed before feeling a weird bubble in my stomach. I just ate so that's probably why.

My heart still thumps like a rock as I replay what I did over and over in my head and feel myself feeling just as shitty as I did a few minutes ago.

"Hey, sugar, how are you feeling?" My dad asks softly as he sits next to me.

I shrug as he gently rubs my arm before speaking up.

"You should invite Sehun over tomorrow. Explain to him what happened." He says as I nod slowly.

"I know." I sigh before he kisses my head.

"He understands, sweetie, don't worry. But it's nice knowing you can really scare the shit out of him if he messes up." Dad says as I roll my eyes and hit his leg making him chuckle.

"Yeah, I won't have to interfere or anything, just throw you in a cage with him and let you cut loose." He jokes as I hit him again and chuckle while he laughs.

"I'm just messing with you, we can tag team because I wanna be apart of that." He says as I sit up and hit his shoulder over and over.

"Dad! Knock it off!" I whine as he laughs and pulls me into a hug.

"I'm just messing with you, Lu. Just leave him to me." He says before I let go and begin trying to push him off my bed.

"Dad, just get out!" I whine as he chuckles and apologizes, saying he'll stop.

"I don't like seeing you like this." He says as he brushes my hair from my face. "You two need to make up, he's really sad, he actually was crying on my shoulder, and it was really awkward." He says making it hard not to laugh.

"Really?!?" I can't help but asks as he chuckles.

"No, like, he wasn't like holding onto me and bawling, we were leaving to the car and I grab the back of his neck to give him a little hug because he felt and looked like shit and it was just awkward." He says as I chuckle softly.

"Okay, should I just invite him over tonight?" I ask as he shakes his head.

"No, today Seungcheol and his parents are coming to visit. So go get showered and ready, they'll be here around five-thirty so go get yourself together and clean up in here." He says as I nod and do as he says.

I take a shower before getting out and drying my hair. It obeys my wish at being styled without a straightener before I hurry to my room to get some clothes on. I pull my wrap on before grabbing one of my shirts that aren't too loose but makes it seem like I'm still skinny along with a zip up jacket to go over it. I begin picking up my room and make my bed before taking my plates downstairs and to the kitchen.

"Hey! Mom." I say as he cleans the counters with 409.

"Yeah?" He asks as he looks over at me.

"I don't want really want to tell them that you know... That I'm pregnant." I say softly as he nods.

"Of course, baby. Whatever you want to do is fine with me." He says making me smile and thank him before hurrying upstairs.

It takes me about an hour to finish getting ready and to clean my room, then about five more minutes to send Sehun an apology text before getting up and going to see if I can help my mom. He has me vacuum and sweep along with cleaning the glass windows before I take myself back upstairs to find I have three missed calls and four texts from Sehun.

SH: Luhan, it's okay, really, I don't want you feeling bad about it. I know I was out of bounds by doing that and I'm sorry. I deleted it, I promise.
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SH: You can check my phone too if you want?
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SH: Are you okay? You didn't answer my calls:(
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SH: you're probably busy doing something, sorry.
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I didn't mean to not answer his calls.

LH: Ah, sorry, I wasn't trying to ignore you or anything, I just didn't have my phone! I trust you too, and thanks for deleting it
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SH: it's okay, Shawty;)
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LH: ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
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SH: aw! Don't be like that, Shawty!! ㅠ.ㅠ
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LH: No pet names!!!-.-
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SH: Fine:( *pouts*
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LH: Awwww, gwiyomi~!!!!
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SH: Shawty
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LH:😡😡😡
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SH: Awww gwiyomi!!💘😍
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LH: NOOOOO!!☹️😭😡
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SH: Aw! Shawty, don't cry!😫
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LH: Too late! I'm already crying
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SH: NOOOOO STOP CRYING, SHAWTY!
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LH: ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
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SH: ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ to you too!
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LH: 😡
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SH:😡😡
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LH: 😡😡😡
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LH: 😡😡😡😡😡
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SH:😘
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LH: 😡😡😡😡😡😡
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SH:😘💘💝💞💖
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LH: 😠😒
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SH:😘😘😘😘
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LH: 😐
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SH: LULU!!😘💋
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LH: 🙂
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SH: Yay! Happy Lulu!😄😄
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LH: You're cute, Hun
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SH:Why thank you 🤗
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LH: Hey, I gotta go, I'll text you later.
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I smile softly as I put down my phone before hearing the sound of my old best friends voice coming from downstairs.

I jump up and hurry down before pulling Mingyu and Wonwoo into a tight hug first.

"Luhan, you've gotten so big!" Wonwoo says as I chuckle awkwardly wondering if he can tell I'm pregnant.

"Mom! You're gonna embarrassed him!" Seungcheol says as I chuckle before they let us go upstairs.

"Nice room." Scoups says as he sits in my desk chair.

"Thanks, so how have you been?" Thus starting the conversation of a life time.

We easily make conversation like nothing has changed making this seem so relaxed and natural.

"So, do you have a boyfriend?" He asks as I groan and flop back on my bed.

"It's complicated..." I sigh as he chuckles before coming and laying next to me.

"So you aren't dating?"

"No... It's.. It's complicated." I say as I look over at him.

"Well if you say it's complicated, it means your single." He chuckles as I roll my eyes and hit his chest.

"What about you then?" I ask as he chuckles.

"It's.... complicated." He says as I roll my eyes.

"See!" I say making us laugh.

"How's it complicated?" I ask as sit back up and lean against my head board.

"Well.. There was this guy I really liked, and we dated for a while, but he's just a natural flirt and it made me really uncomfortable. Long story short, I talked to him about it, he got mad at me saying I didn't trust him and stuff, and right now we're in that stage where we aren't dating but we still are. It's so confusing!" He groans as he rubs his face.

"What about you?" He asks as I sigh.

"Promise you won't tell anybody, not even your parents." I say as I point my finger at him.

"I swear." I says as he crosses his heart.

"Okay.. So sophomore year, there was this guy that I really liked who was an incoming freshman. Long story short, I was positive he knew I liked him like I made him posters for school because he was in basketball and would buy him water bottles and food and all that kind of stuff. Then junior year, my best friend calls me, tells me he asked him out." I say as he eyes widen.

"Did your best friend know?"

"Yes, he did care which made me that much more mad. Then my best friend stop hanging out with us after they started dating and all this stuff happened and my best friend invited me and my two other friends to a party at his boyfriends house. My best friend, Baek, ended up getting way too drunk and his boyfriend, I'm just gonna call S, and I had to carry him upstairs to S's room and then he asked by I was mad at him and I blew up on him and we ended up..."

"Fucking?" He says softly incase our parents are anywhere near by.

"Yeah.." I say softly as he hits my leg.

"Damn, Lu, that is complicated." He chuckles as I nod and scratch the back of my neck.

"Yeah.. Then... Never mind actually-"

"Hey, you can't do that! I didn't know there's more, so continue."

"No, it's over-"

"No it's not! Tell me!" He whines as I roll my eyes.

"We continued doing it all summer and in the beginning of this year, and now.. Um, gosh, I don't know how to say this." I sigh, finding myself feeling extremely embarrassed by this.

"Wait... Are you..?" He begins as I nod.

"I'm four months pregnant." I say softly, not able to look at him as I say it.

"Aw, Lu." He says softly as he comes to sit next to me. "Don't cry." He says as he puts his arm over my shoulder and pulls me to his chest.

"I'm just embarrassed." I say as I quickly wipe my eyes.

"It's okay, seriously, you don't need to feel embarrassed around me, I don't want you to feel like that." He says as I nod slowly.

"Well you defiantly don't look pregnant." He chuckles.

"Yeah, let me go put one of my old shirts on, take off this damn wrap I'm wearing, then tell me that." I say with a small laugh making him laugh.

"Why are you wearing a wrap-"

"Not going there.." I say as he begins whining as I chuckle and just roll my eyes.

"How big is it?" He asks.

"It right now is about the side of a lemon, but it's the end of this week for me, so it's almost like an apple or something like that." I say.

"Isn't an apple smaller than a lemon?" He asks making me chuckle.

"It's just what the Internet says! Leave me alone!" I fake pout as he chuckles.

"Do you know if it's a boy or girl yet?" He asks.

"No, not yet, my next ultra sound is in a few weeks and I'll probably find out then, but I don't know if I'm ready to know yet or not. You have no idea how scary it can be sometimes, and in the beginning it was so stressful." I sigh.

"What's scaring you?" He asks curiously.

"Have a child, knowing that its inside me growing, knowing it has to come out and how it's going to come out. How I'm going to take care of it, if S will always be there for me.. He is now, like don't get me wrong, but there's always this feeling that everyone's just going to give up on me, and it freaks me out."

"You'll always have me, seriously, if S for some reason isn't there when you need him, call me and I'll be here in a matter of minutes. I promise you that, like if you feel sick or need to go to the hospital for any reason, call me and I'll be here so fast. Or even if you just are craving something, or your back is hurting and need a back rub." He says as I chuckle, seeing that when we were little I was obsessed with having him rub my back because he was really go at it.

"I'm might just have to take you up on that offer." I chuckle as he does too.

"Were you planning on telling me today?" He asks as I shake my head no.

"I wasn't planning on us immediately getting back to the way we were." I chuckle. "I don't mean that in any bad way either, I happy it went like this." I say with a small smile.

"Boys, dinner!" I hear my mom call before we hurry downstairs to get food.