Trigger warning: attempted suicide contained here please if that may bother you skip ahead

He runs across the weirdly dead grass the will soon be like the dusty ground by the noose.He hears sirens of Kathy's police cruiser and his heart drops. He knows he can't out run the cruiser so when through the speakers he hears the blonde bombshell of a cop "stop running put ur hands above your heads you can't out run me." He believes her because it's true. He drops to his knees his face falling his hands above his head. He feel like this is the end he is caught he has escaped so much this is it.He thought to himself maybe I can get sentenced to death. As his rights are read to him he doesn't here anything he begins to go through a memory.

He is 16 the narration present more than ever he feels crazy and he craves something he shouldn't death.The sweet release of it he wants ever so much because why be in a world knowing your not real?why be in a world where it's not real?He can't be ignorant so he wants to die. It might be the only way or it to stop. There was a day he just thought it was normal by 13 he knew it wasn't it took him three years to be driven to this point of wanting to simply be killed. Here he was pretending to be a killer this hurt him. He was a good man but he knew what he was suppose to be a monster. He didn't want to be a monster. He was afraid of what he was becoming. He was afraid of the voice. He just needed for it end take off the mask end the voice and die so he tried to he held a gun to his head almost shot. Why didn't he? Well as he did the whole world froze then he realized if he dies before the story end then all these fake people's lives cease to exist. He suddenly didn't care it was fake he wanted the happy people in the world to stay happy. To live till they die even if there not main characters so he didn't kill himself.

So now In this present moment 2 years later he wonders is this the end...chapter 9. He had dreamed of how it would happen but would it be capture,interrogate,trial, and death penalty?At this point he was in the back seat on his way to the station. "Wait...books don't end at chapter 9...or 10 usually why am I giving up.karley help me out."he whispers."who you talking to?"Kathy asks. As his mind works scanning the car he ignores her although he heard her."come on I don't care but your caught okay stop looking for a way out and answer me."she says."if I told you y'all would lock me up I'd sound deliousional and insane."he answers while he mind metaphorically balters with the idea of a way out. "Well I already think your a damn psychopath so tell me."she says not taking her eyes off the road."you know what!fuck it I'll freaking tell you!"Marcus says at last giving up."we are in a book a fucking book I'm a character your character we are made up.I am self aware I am the only one besides one side character dude.I'm not bad. I'm playing a part I was assigned by karley the writer.I legit constantly hear narration everyone thinks I'm crazy. Yet they can't remember much past a few weeks ago cause they aren't the main character. I can't to a thing about it. Happy sweetheart now you really think I'm bloody crazy!" She pulls the car over."say it's a book again but look me in the eye."she demands turning around looking at him."Were in a book your character I'm a character everything you know isn't real." Marcus states looking into her sea blue eyes. "I believe you."she says grabbing her radio."he escaped Macy he fucking escaped he is heading for cape Town." She looks at him studying him."wow."was all he said."one question why did you kill her for real then don't act?" She asks awkwardly."plot."he says simply then adds."I visit her grave you know."he says."you care even though this isn't real?"she genuinely believed him and he wondered why."absolutely...they still have lives and stuff they believe in... happiness...even if it's manufactured they should enjoy it. I live for others ."he says.She gets out of the car and opens the door."go!Run for the mountains!"Kathy says.He does as she says."she believed me."he says with a smile playing on his lips."like you readers do."he pauses."that reminds me I need to call you guys other stuff like real people, observers,mortals, those people reading words.I'm gonna start doing that."he tells you...observers.Just then he stumbles into a small City at the base of the collie mountain.