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When I woke up the first thing I saw was Yibo looking down at me in worry. I looked around the room and before I could ask where I was, Yibo answered my unspoken question.

"You are in the university's infirmary. You blacked out after you saw Ziyi and that girl fighting. I will not ask you what exactly happened because your answer will probably be 'I dont know'... I called brother already. He is on his way together with Dr. Wang. Are you okay?"

I nodded and then looked again around the room and realized we both were alone.

"Where are the others?" I asked him.

"They are in their classes. They wanted to wait till you woke up but its enough if I am here. Until brother comes you will have to be content with being alone with me." Yibo answered while taking my hand in his gently stroking it.

'We are alone... and in the infirmary at that ...' I thought and had to grin remembering Ziyi's words from this morning.

"What are you grinning for? What is so funny?" Yibo wanted to know and I shook my head after a smile.

"Nothing... I just re-rem-remembered something."

Yibo, who thought for a moment, looked at me in shook and shook his head. "Don't tell me .... Ziyi?" He asked carefully and I giggled.

"Zhan! You are a pervert! You were once so innocent.... Where did it go?" He asked me in disbelieve but I could see the hint of a smile.

"I am still i-innocent for as long as you did not s-s-sleep with me." I explained and saw Yibo nodding his head.

"Well I guess I have to wait with that for a long time then, if that is the only way to keep the last bit of your innocence." He said and chuckled.

I widened my eyes. "Don't you dare!!" I shouted out before the door was slammed open and my Father came in followed by Dr. Wang.

"Xiao Zhan? Are you okay? Are you hurt? Yibo what exactly happened?" Father asked us I felt guilty making him so worried like this.

"He blacked out after seeing Ziyi and another girl fighting." Yibo answered.

"I am fine. I am not hurt." I followed up.

"Let YiZhou decide if you are fine or not, okay?" He said to me and I nodded in agreement. While Yibo told Father every detail about my blackout I was examined by Dr. Wang who told us afterwards I was fine but should take a rest for today.  

"Thank you, YiZhou. Thank you for clearing your schedule to come here with me." Father thanked Dr. Wang who smiled back at him.

"You can always count on me my friend. You know that. I will go now back to the hospital. Make sure Xiao Zhan take a rest for rest of the day. See you."He said and bid farewell after I had to promise him to take it easy.

"Let's go home Xiao Zhan. Yibo you go back to your classes."Father said while I climbed out of the bed. I was sad. Today should have been the day for me to stay with Yibo in university. It was my first time here and I totally loved. I sighed before wearing my shoes.

"Cant I come with you?" Yibo asked pleadingly but just one look from Father was enough for Yibo to pout and go back to his class, of course not before giving me a soft kiss on my lips and promising me to come home directly afterwards.

Father shook his head and smiled. "Lets go."  

Father always took Dr. Wang's words seriously so he ordered me to stay in bed for the rest of day. When I wanted to sneak into the library he caught me and hushed me back into my bedroom before bringing me some books I asked for.

It was really boring being in bed without any company. Father had some video sessions and could not accompany me while Yibo would be in school till 4pm today. Mr. Li did not come to work either because he was needed in his parents company.

Just when I was about to go crazy my soon to be mother came back after picking up FanXing from kindergarten. The little boy kept me company, telling me about his day, especially about him picking up a snail and running after some girls who were apparently scared of these tiny animals. Inwardly I laughed but on the outside I reprimanded him from scaring these little girls. He promised me right away he would apologize to them first thing in the next morning. 

Afterwards he cuddled up to me and fell asleep instantly. As I did not have anything to do, I have finished reading the books I got, I made myself comfortable and soon followed FanXing into a deep sleep.  

"Uncle Bo, I heard its not polite to stare at other people..." I heard FanXing whispering.

"You are right. It is not polite except you are doing it to someone you love. But you will learn that in future." Yibo whispered back.

"But... why are you starring at him?" The litte boy asked innocently.

"Hm... because he looks like an angel when sleeping?"

"What? An angel? Big brother is an angel? Wow, that is awesome! I will tell all my friends tomorrow. They will surely be jealous." FanXing said and I almost chuckled hearing that but I hold it in to listen some more to their conversation.

"You cant. Its a secret. What if someone gets to know this and wants to take him from us?" Yibo asked.

"No! This cant happen. Big brother belongs to us. We have to keep it a secret then!" FanXing answered and sounded so innocent that I could not keep my laughter in.

"You both are s-stupid!" I said and laughed before opening my eyes, looking directly into the faces of my boyfriend and little brother.

"Finally you are awake. I thought you would sleep till next morning." Yibo said and kissed my forehead.

"Big brother, don't worry. We will not tell anyone you are an angel. I promise. Can you show me your wings?" FanXing asked me and I glared at Yibo for telling him such nonsense. He just shrugged.

"No, I cant. You can s-see my wings only in your dreams because only then they will s-show thems-s-self." I explained and hoped he would stop asking.

"Okay, I got it. Then I will try my best to look for them when I sleep. But now I am hungry. I can already smell the food."

"How about you go down and see if the food is ready?" Yibo asked and the little boy complied.

When we both were alone Yibo laid himself on me while hugging me tightly. I did not say anything and just enjoyed his weight on me.

"I am glad you are okay. Stop scaring me like this." He said and I apologized to him by hugging him back and when he was about to roll off of me I stopped him by kissing him softly on his beautiful lips. He returned the kiss instantly and soon this soft kiss turned out in a very passionately one. While we were licking and sucking on each others lips I felt how my most private body part was slowly raising.

I guess Yibo felt it too because he stopped kissing me and looked at me in surprise. "Usually I would be the one getting aroused first. But look at that.... remember when you were sad about the fact that it took you so long to get that reaction? Well ... I guess now you are a lot faster than me. Let me help you before brother comes and disturbed us." He chuckled and while I was blushing at his words he let his hand slide into my underpants.

In the next minutes I got pleasured by my boyfriend and because of the fact that he wants to be finished before Father comes up he was a lot faster than usual which was why I came so quickly. But as my arousal was strangely stubborn today not wanting to relax Yibo laughed at me before going for another round.

As I was able to make sounds and could almost perfectly speak now I tried my best to keep quit what was not easy with Yibo trying to lure out as much moans as possible. After the second round, which finished with a loud moan by me, my little brother seemed to have enough.  

Yibo quickly cleaned me up  and brought be new pants while I was out of breath. He finished just in time before Father came in with a tray full of food. He shortly eyed my new pants but only chuckled. I hid my face while Yibo behaved like nothing happened.

"Look, Zhan. Today we have Orange-Ginger Roast Chicken with a Radicchio Salad. Looks yummy, thank you brother." Yibo said and took the tray out of Father's hands.

"Yibo, at least .... nothing. FanXing will eat with MianMian and me downstairs. Enjoy the meal you two." He said and smiled at us before leaving the room.

"That was em-embarrassing!" I said.

"No, it wasn't. It is natural" Yibo answered and carefully put the tray on the bed before joining me.

"Why is he not s-saying anything like in the past?" I wanted to know.

"He cant. Because he is just like me. And he knows it. Lets eat." He laughed and started to eat.  

The rest of the day we spoke with our friends on the phone and played with FanXing. I had to stay in bed of course and Father came  every now and then to check on that. Right before we went to sleep Yibo and I took a shower together with FanXing and brushed our teeth before FanXing's mother, no,  she was my mother now too, came in to bring the little boy in his own bedroom which was my old one next to us. I would sleep here with Yibo anyway so they gave my old room to FanXing after asking me if that was okay. The little boy of course resisted strongly wanting to sleep with me and my boyfriend but at the end he was carried out by Yibo who came me back shortly afterwards, climbing up in our bed and took me in his arms before we fell asleep.

In the middle of the night I woke up bathed in sweat but the reason for that I did not know. I guessed I had a nightmare but could not remember it the moment I woke up. Thankfully I would say because feeling all the sweat I was sure it was not a good dream.

I climbed out of the bed as carefully as possible to not wake up my boyfriend and took a quick shower. When I came back Yibo was still sleeping but not as peaceful as before probably due my absence. I walked up to him and covered him with the blanked which he tossed aside shortly afterwards. I understood it was too warm for him so I took out the fan and turned in on. I waited until Yibo looked comfortable before sneaking one floor down stopping in front of Father's room.

During the shower I tried my best to remember something of the dream as I was sure it had something to do with my past. I was fine the last months but blacking out after I saw the fight yesterday or having a nightmare out of the nowhere that was the only possibility. I wanted to ask my Father if we could do another hypnosis but when I stood just in front of his room I remembered he was not alone in there anymore. My mother was there too which means I could not go inside.

I stood there for about 10 minutes before I decided to go back but suddenly the door opened and my mother stood in front of me. We were both scared for a moment until she laughed silently.

"You sure know how to scare people. What is wrong, Xiao Zhan? Cant sleep?" She asked me but I did not know how to answer that. I looked pass her and saw my Father sleeping peacefully.

"I will go up and look after FanXing. You can go in." She chuckled before passing me, careful to not touch me, and walked up the stairs.

I was scared of them but I had to say she was an awesome women. She knew exactly what to say, how to react and how to behave so I would not feel uncomfortable. I was amazed by my thoughts but I really liked her. Truly.

When she was gone I stepped into the bedroom and closed the door before sneaking up to the bed and climbing up to it. I really wanted to ask him but .... I also did not want to wake him up. I was more or less caught up between these two wishes, not realizing that I slowly fell asleep only to be woken up by a silent laughter.

"Just when I wanted to cuddle MianMian I realized it was you. Where is MianMian? How come you are here? Didn't I told you to stay in bed?" Father asked and I opened my eyes right away.

"Upstairs with FanXing. I want to ask you s-s-something. And you only s-said to s-stay in bed, but not in which bed." I answered.

"Well... to be honest I don't mind you being here. Its been a long time since we were like this. So? What is your question?"

"Can we continue with the hy-hypnosis?" I asked carefully.

"I somehow knew you would soon ask me that but I did not expect it to be this soon. Are you sure? Don't you want to finished you speech therapy first?" He wanted to know.

"I can do both. Please?" I said and he chuckled.

"How about tomorrow? I have no sessions and Yibo has no university. Okay?"

I was happy getting the approval and after hugging my father I wanted to leave but he did not let me go.

"Where do you want to go? Sleep next to me. We did not do this since over a year. MianMian already guessed you would sleep here and will be sleeping with FanXing. I am now used to someone next to me. Now that my future wife is not here you will have to take her place. Lets sleep." He said and caged me in his arms. I smiled before closing my eyes.  

The next morning after everyone woke up we sat down on the dining table and ate Mother's delicious breakfast. Before that a few things happened. When Yibo woke up and did not found me next to him he searched for me before getting told by mother that I was sleeping with father. He woke us up and I explained him about last night and the plan for today. Usually he would be unhappy about the fact that I slept with father but strangely this time he was not. He looked more or less satisfied, who knows why.

The only unhappy person inside the house was FanXing. After he woke up and saw his mother sleeping next to him he sure was happy for a short moment but when he got to know that father and I slept together he stopped speaking with father and ignored him. When I asked him why he did that, he said, for him it was unfair because when he wanted to sleep with Yibo and me he was not allowed to but Father could.

Father tried his best to apologize and even I explained it was me who went to him but FanXing did not listen and continued to ignore him. At some point Father took FanXing with him upstairs and both did not come out for a while. As curious as I was, and Yibo too, we followed them and tried to listen to their conversation through the closed door.

We could not hear any sound until FanXing suddenly started laughing and my boyfriend and me slowly and silently opened the door and saw Father tickling and kissing my little brother here and there. After watching them for a while we quickly retreated and helped mother to clean the table.

20 Minutes later Mr. Li arrived. Usually Yibo would glare at him and was feeling annoyed the moment he stepped into the house but for quite some time that was not the case anymore. I got the feeling Yibo finally accepted that he liked the gardener but was too stubborn to admit it and I found that too funny.

The thing was that Mr. Li seemed to be annoyed, or was it sad? When Yibo was busy helping Father to prepare the upcoming hypnosis I walked up to the gardener and asked him what was wrong with him. He sighed.

"I feel bored." He answered.

"Bored? Why?" I asked him.

"Yibo used to give me so much attention. Sure he was most of the time annoyed with me but that was what I liked as he looked too cute despite being 21... now it feels like he is ignoring me. I am bored. Should I provoke him?" He asked and I laughed.

"Better not. You wanted him to like you. He did not ad-admit it yet but you can s-see it clearly that he likes you. Didn't he def-f-end you in front of Dr. Huang?"

"I know. You are right but ... still I am bored. Never mind that, want to help me in the garden?" He asked and I agreed.

While I was helping him and Yibo and Father were in Father's office, MianMian went out grocery shopping together with FanXing. When both of them came back one hour later I asked why it took so long as the shops were not that far away when using the car. She looked rather uncomfortable and when Father and Yibo joined us she explained that FanXing saw two cute white bunnies in an animal shop and wanted to have them. She bought it and brought it to the vet first before coming back.

"Is it okay with you to have two more bunnies? I know we already have a lot but ... FanXing really wanted these two..." She asked us and no one was against it, least of all me. I loved bunnies too much. The more the merrier, right?

"But I guess we need a bigger home for the bunnies now..." Father mumbled.

"Can we buy it now? Please? Can we?" FanXing asked and jumped up and down. He was just so cute. 5 minutes later mother and son made their way to buy a bigger bunny house while Father, Yibo and I went to his office.  

I was standing back in that corridor. It looked really creepy at the beginning but not anymore. Sure I still got goosebumps and I still was scared but ... somehow it was much less than at the beginning. After I stand there for a few minutes to prepare myself, while I felt Yibo's hand in mine, his thumb gently stroking over it, I walked to the next door and could see there were only three doors left. With one curious look at the last door I stepped into the third last and was back in that tiny child room. It was in the middle of the night and ZhanZhan was busy watching a salamander walking on the walls.

On the bedside table I saw something what wasn't there before. A picture of that woman and man, dressed in a white dress and black suit and understood they seemed to have married. As I have no memories of this, ZhanZhan was probably inside this room the whole time.

Then we heard something. Back then ZhanZhan did not know anything but I did now. I was familiar with these sounds, just not as intense as I heard them right now. Unfortunately for ZhanZhan the walls in that house were not that thick so he could hear them loving each other almost every night and sometimes during the day too. The little boy was only four. He didn't know what those noises were for and he never asked. He just stayed in his room.

I cant believe ZhanZhan had to listen to that.

Suddenly, a few hours later, it became quite in the house and I saw ZhanZhan's door opening slowly. The female kidnapper came in and laid next to the boy. She wrapped her arms around him and pressed him to her sweaty body, only covered with a sheet.

In the past ZhanZhan would fight against her and of course tried to escape several times but that woman would get mad and pinch him very hard. So he stopped and let it happen. He would just close his eyes and try to sleep.

The next day the man took ZhanZhan out of the room into the living room. "Why are you always staying in your room, Pei Xin? These months I was here I never saw you going out of it. I don't even see you playing." He said and tried to play with him. But ZhanZhan went to the window and looked out of it.

"Sweetheart" He called out for his wife. "When I remember it right Pei Xin didn't go out of this house in all those 7 months I stayed here and he didn't talk either. I never heard his voice. How about we will let him go outside."

"NO!" she screamed, run to ZhanZhan and hugged him tightly. The little boy was scared but kept still. He didn't want to give her a reason to get mad despite feeling very uncomfortable.

"He will stay inside. Outside are many dangerous animals. What if something happens to him or he get lost in the forest? No. He needs to be safe and the safest place is this house, even better his room. He is not allowed outside! You like your room, don't you, Pei Xin? Mommy will keep you save. And, Honey, my little boy is shy. He doesn't talk much." She said.

The man saw that she was really scared to lose her son so he agreed. "Alright. He will stay in the house. But still ... he seems to be lonely." He said and looked at the little boy.

'Why not letting him go!? What is her goal? Its not like she cares for ZhanZhan, always being mad and hurt him. Cant she see that his behavior is not normal? He is not speaking for god's sake....' I thought while observing ZhanZhan who looked absent-minded.

The woman stood up and walked up to that man while opening her blouse. "Then how about we give Pei Xin a little sibling?" She asked seductively and let her blouse fall on the ground. The man looked at her and smirked. "Are you using him as an excuse to get some pleasure, sweetheart?" He asked and pulled her to himself.

'What the hell is going on? There is a child in the room, god damn it!!'  I got really mad. ZhanZhan saw all this in the past?

"I want to give him a sibling and get some pleasure as well. Two birds with one stone. Is that wrong?" She winked at him. The man slid his hand under the woman's rock and she gasps.

I quickly looked away and stood in front of ZhanZhan so he would not see this, forgetting for a moment that these were just memories and I cant change anything.

"Hmm. I guess I need some pleasure as well. Lets try out your idea with a little sibling. I think Pei Xin would be very happy." He said and kissed her deeply.

"Pei... Pei Xin. Go to your room now!" She ordered while trying to suppress her moaning. ZhanZhan learned in the past that he shouldn't object her so thankfully he run upstairs into his room and closed the door. He sat at the window and observed two squirrels fighting over a nut.

'Why did all that happened to ZhanZhan? Out of all kids on the playground, why him? Not that I wished this for anyone else but... why him?' I asked myself while watching little ZhanZhan

In the background we still heard them making weird noises but ZhanZhan ignored it. He tried to remember his past before he came here. He felt sad. He knows this is not his home and those two are not his parents. Where were his real parents? He cant remember their faces nor their personality but why did they never came for him? Are they even looking for him? Did they abandon him? Is he useless? He keeps thinking about if he did something wrong and what. He was a good boy, right?

All his thoughts he had in mind back then were flowing my head and it hurt so much that I felt tears on my cheeks.

ZhanZhan got mad at them. He was too innocent to understand the situation but their loud noises were the cause of the disappearance of the two squirrel who got scared. Now the squirrel were nowhere to be seen and ZhanZhan was upset and went to bed, which means for me everything went black.  

The next time the blackness vanished I saw all three of them sitting at the dining table eating their breakfast.

"Pei Xin, my son. We couldn't talk more about the topic yesterday as we ..." He winked at his wife "....were too busy. What do you think about a sibling?" He asked ZhanZhan

What did he think? ZhanZhan didn't know... What was a sibling? Was this something good or something bad?

'He forgot that he had an older brother ... How long was ZhanZhan here now? Almost two years? That was enough time for a little kid to forget something this important. I somehow felt sad about that....' I thought.

"When you get one there will be another child in this house, what do you think?" The man asked further.

With the mentioning of another child ZhanZhan looked at the man who called himself his father.

"Then... if there is another child ... I am not needed. Can I go home?" ZhanZhan asked the man who frowned. But before the man could say anything it was the woman who got really mad.

"Pei Xin!!! How can you say something like that? Of course you will stay here! You are my son and you will go nowhere!" She yelled at him. The man was confused. What were they talking about? But before he could asked her his phone rang and he went to take the call.

'Why are you going away? Shouldn't you ask if you did not understand something? Maybe that way you would have found out the truth and ZhanZhan could have gone home!' I thought disappointed.

The woman was furious and slapped Xiao Zhan. His lip hurt and he tasted something metallic in his mouth. He teared up but before the tears could fall the woman pulled him in his room. "Don't you dare to cry! Mommy doesn't want so see you cry!" She angrily said.

In the background the voice of that man could be heard. "Sweetheart? I have to go to the company. They need me there." He shouted and the woman left the child's room.

I felt it. I got mad. Really mad. I hated this woman. Why taking a random child home pretending to be his mother only to hit him, to hurt him? I could understand the reason of my anxiety but ... I somehow felt there is more, a lot more to find out. But I was scared to do so.

Every time I was so sure about wanting to do this hypnosis but once I am here in inside my head I wanted to leave again to never find out what really happened. For me it felt much safer being uninformed. But then .... if I will not find out I may regret it later....

I sighed before concentrating at ZhanZhan in front of me.

He sat on the ground in the middle of his room and cried. His face hurts. He was scared. When that man is home, that woman rarely slap or hurt him. Now he is alone with her again. She was so scary.

His thoughts were very sad. I wanted to ruffled through his hair telling him everything would be alright but ... not even that I could do. I was useless and could only watch what was happening and listen to ZhanZhan's inner thoughts.  

The little boy and I heard the front door closing and one moment later that woman was back in the room. When she saw ZhanZhan sitting there she went to him and hugged him tightly. "Mommy is sorry. Did I scare you? I am sorry. But you don't listen to me. I thought we talked about that topic last year already. This is your home, Pei Xin. So don't ever say something else again. I will only get mad." She said and broke the hug. When she tried to caress his cheeks ZhanZhan slapped her hand away.

That woman got really mad and slapped him again. She then forced him to look at her and hissed "Bad boy! When Pei Xin hurts mommy, mommy will hurt Pei Xin! If you don't want to get hurt, then stop hurting others! Do you understand?!"

ZhanZhan nodded his head violently. Bad boy? Was he always a bad boy? Is that why  they  never came for him?... I was a bad boy.... That were his thoughts.

The woman then stroke his hair and gave him a hug again. "There you go." She said. She left the room and came back with a first aid kit. She treated ZhanZhan's lips and left the room when she finished.

ZhanZhan then went to the window and looked outside. He started smiling. The squirrels were back and ZhanZhan happily watched them.

Hours later that man came back and joined ZhanZhan. "Pei Xin, your mother told me you bit your lip? Are you okay? Do you need a cold pack or something? Dont worry. I know something like this can hurt, I used to bite my tounge very often as a kid, but the pain will go away soon. I promise. Be careful next time." He said and stroke the boy's hair gently. ZhanZhan looked up to that man and I could hear his thoughts full of hope. 'He will not hurt me....right?'

"Pei Xin, honey, the dinner is ready" That woman shouted form downstairs.

"Lets go, my son" The man said and went ahead. With one last look at the squirrels ZhanZhan followed.

"Xiao Zhan, if it is too much, come back. I know you want to know everything but we have time. So calm down." I heard Father's voice and Yibo gripped my hand more tightly.

'Calm down? How did they know I was not calm? Did I do something?' I thought confused and took some deep breaths before realizing I stood back in the corridor. Now there are only two doors left.

'I am close. So close to the whole truth....' I thought and entered the second last door.

A lot of time seemed to have passed. ZhanZhan looked slightly older and probably was 5 now. He still hid in his room most of the time but played often with that man. He was nice and friendly. He never raised his voice nor hand at ZhanZhan. The nights are the same too. At some point the weird noises started and went on for a some time and after it went quite, that woman sometimes joined ZhanZhan in bed. She will hug him tightly and whispered, that she didn't forget him and that she loved him. When that happened ZhanZhan mostly pretended to sleep.

One day, when they were sitting at the table and ate breakfast the woman started talking. "I have to leave for a few days. I have to join my colleagues on a business trip. I don't know how long it will take but definitely not less than a week. Honey, can you work from home? I don't want my Pei Xin to be all alone here. He will get scared." She said and looked at her husband.

'It will be like heaven on earth if you are gone... maybe ZhanZhan can escape?' I thought.

"Of course, I am my own boss. No problem. But if I cant leave I have to tell my secretary to bring me important documents and take them back when I am finished. Is that okay with you?" He asked her and she nodded.

"Its okay and when I am back I will give you a big present. Pei Xin, be good boy and listen to your daddy, alright?" She said and hugged the little boy.

"Sweetheart. Can we talk for a moment?" The man asked.

"What is it, honey?"

"You know I am here for one and a half years, right?"

"Yes, and?" The woman asked confused.

"Don't you think we should ... bring Pei Xin to a doctor?"

"My baby boy is not sick!"She answered quite annoyed and hugged ZhanZhan who kept still. "Why should he go to a doctor?"

"I rarely hear him talk." The man answered.

"He talks! You heard him already. Pei Xin is shy so of course he is not talking a lot. And he is lonely."

"Yes I heard him, but only one time and that was months ago"

"Honey, he is lonely. When he gets a sibling he will talk more." She said.  

"If you think so. But we have to try to get him to speak more often, okay? And if it will not get better in three months I will personally take him to a doctor! Understand?" He asked her gently. The woman let go of ZhanZhan, who then started to eat again, and walked over to her husband.

"I promise. Don't worry, Pei Xin will get better very soon. Honey, I have to leave in a few hours ...." She started.

"Already?" That man asked sadly.

The woman sat down on his lap and kissed him on the lips. "Unfortunately yes. But we have still some time till I have to go .... " She whispered seductively and the man chuckled.

'No!! Please not again! And not in front of ZhanZhan and me!!' I thought desperately and looked at the little boy quietly continuing eating his breakfast.

"You never get enough, do you? But as you wish." He said and carried her to the bedroom.

ZhanZhan stopped eating and looked at the closed door before quickly finish eating and going upstairs to his room where it was almost quiet.

Inside his room ZhanZhan sat down at the window and thought about what they talked about earlier. If she leaves, then she will not hit him. She will not get mad at him. He will be safe for as long as she is gone, right? He does not have to be scared then... right?

In the evening that woman left after giving ZhanZhan a tight hug and a kiss on his forehead. "Be a good boy, Pei Xin. If not .... you and I will get hurt, so please behave, alright?" She whispered and closed the door.

'I cant believe she is gone now.' I thought and watched the little boy doing nothing than looking out of the window. Not once ZhanZhan thought about escaping... The reason for that was not because he thought he would get caught, no... he just did not see a reason in escaping. For the little boy, for the past me, it was not necessary because he forgot. He simply forgot who he was. He only knew his name was Xiao Zhan, 5 years old and that this was not his home. But he forgot who these people were, why he was here and who his original family was and looked like.

ZhanZhan felt lonely and so did I. I wanted to hug this little boy so badly but I could not. So I decided to hug myself as I was that kid back then. If I hug myself, I hug him too, right?

Suddenly the man came in and carried little ZhanZhan down into the living room.

"We are the only ones left, my son. Is there something you want to do?" He asked ZhanZhan but before the boy could answer that man's phone rang and he accepted the call.

"Hello? .... What happened? ..... I have to bring the documents first. Wait a moment" With that he stood up, went to his office and came back with a lot of papers and his macbook.

"Okay I am back. Explain ...."

That man talked with the caller for a long time. ZhanZhan got bored and when that man didn't look he took one document and a pencil, he walked up into his room and draw a baby deer which rested near his window.

Hours later that man came into the room to look after ZhanZhan. When he saw a piece of paper in the little boys hand he carefully walked up to him and found out, that the missing document he was searching for earlier was in ZhanZhan's hands.

"Pei Xin? I was looking for that document for a long time. Why did you take it without telling me? Hmm?" He gently asked the boy and stood next to him. ZhanZhan jumped up in shock and let the paper and the pencil fall on the ground. He backed away and went to a corner.

"What are you doing, my son? I am not mad with you. You should have just told me." He laughed and took the document in his hands. When he saw ZhanZhan's drawing he was amazed.

"Pei Xin, did you draw that? That is awesome! I didn't know you are this skilled." He said and walked up to the little boy. "Why are you so scared? I told you I am not mad at you." He said and hugged him.

ZhanZhan was confused about the fact that his hug did not hurt but felt comfortable. When she was the one hugging him it was the opposite.

"You are very skilled. Do you like drawing?" That man asked and ZhanZhan nodded carefully.

"I see. But you cant keep on drawing on my documents. You know what? My secretary comes tomorrow and I will tell her to bring a drawing pad for you. Would you like that?" He asked him and ZhanZhan once again nodded carefully. The man smiled before standing up.

"Alright then. I will call her now and afterwards I will make you something to eat. I am not that good of a cook so I hope spaghetti is alright with you." He said before taking out his phone to call his secretary.

If this wasn't such a serious situation I would have laughed at ZhanZhan's confused look. He was not used that someone would be so gentle with him. Be he did not hate it, he was only confused.

4 hours later that man came to ZhanZhan, picked him up carefully and carried him down to the dining room where the dinner was done. First the little boy observed the other eating and after a few minutes and a questioningly look ZhanZhan started as well. He showed no reaction but for him it was delicious.

After Dinner the man carried him into the bathroom to give him a bath but ZhanZhan did not move, only stood in the corner until that man left. Only then he climbed into the bathtub and one our later he laid fully dried and dressed in his bed while that men started reading a book for him until ZhanZhan fell asleep and I fell into the blackness. 

'He is so gentle... like ZhanZhan was really his son... He cares for him. That man is so much different ... How come he fell in love with someone like her? Cant he see the way she treats ZhanZhan?' I thought before the blackness disappeared and I saw ZhanZhan sitting at the Dining table eating his breakfast together with the man.

While the man washed dishes after breakfast ZhanZhan sit on the ground observing him. He was confused. He liked the way that man treated him but he would never admit to that. The woman would probably get mad. Suddenly it knocked loudly on the door and the man turned around.

"That must be my secretary. You dont have to be scared of her. She is a very friendly woman. Do you want me to introduce her to you?" The man asked but ZhanZhan shook his head violently after the mentioning of the gender of the secretary and run upstairs. I had no other option than to follow him.

ZhanZhan sat down on one of the steps above and listened to the conversation.

"Good morning, Sir. I did not know you live that deep in a forest but it is very beautiful here." The secretary said and ZhanZhan heard that man chuckle.

"It is. And peaceful too. Come in. Did you bring what I asked you for?"

"Sir, I work for you since how long? 6 years? Did I ever forgot something?" She asked him amused and the man laughed.

"No, you did not. You are the best secretary and frien I can wish for."

"Now you make me shy. Here are the documents you need for the research. These documents are proposals and need to be signed today if you approve and here .... is he drawing pad you wanted. For your son, I guess?"

"Thanks. Yes, for my son. He is a rather shy boy and run upstairs the moment he heard you were coming. I will introduce him to you some other time if possible."

"Why are there only photos of you and you wife? No pictures of Pei Xin?"

"I wanted to but my wife reminded me he did not likes to be photographed."

"I see. Well then, can I stay here and look around while you work or shall I come back later?"

"Always as curious. You can stay of course but please keep away from the stairs. They led to my son in his child room but I do not want him to be scared seeing a stranger in front of him."

"Yes, Sir."

Then nothing could be heard for a while as the man seemed to work. Strangely ZhanZhan felt familiar with that female voice and I thought so too. Where did I hear it before?

Suddenly we heard a loud noise and as the coffee machine was turned on.

"Sir, I made coffee." The secretary said.

"Ah, just what I need. Thank you, you are the best. You can always be relied on." The man said and ZhanZhan heard the woman giggle.

"Sir, I already told you to stop making me shy." She answered before it went quit again.  

Hours later the man seemed to have finished his work. During that time ZhanZhan kept sitting on the stairs.

"What is this smell? Did you cook?" The man asked surprised.

"Yes, Sir. You did not eat anything and your son upstairs either. If you are done and the papers are signed I will go now. Enjoy you meal. I will come back tomorrow."

"No, wait. You did not eat either. Stay. I will bring PeiXin his food and then lets eat together." He answered and minutes later there where steps on the stairs and ZhanZhan sneaked into his room. The man brought him his meal.

"PeiXin, I still have my secretary downstairs and as I know you would not want to eat together with us, I brought you your meal. If there is anything you need, call for me, alright?" He said and went down again after the boy nodded. ZhanZhan took his plate to the stairs and listened to them while eating.

They mostly talked about work related things during their dinner and after a while she left. He came upstairs and took the empty plate from ZhanZhan who went back into his room the moment the secretary left.

"Pei Xin. Look, here is your drawing pad. I hope you like it." He said but ZhanZhan was almost sleeping so he chuckled, left the drawing pad, gave ZhanZhan a kiss and left. Soon after that the blackness welcomed me again.

'He was a nice man...' I admitted and smiled. 'At least not everything was like hell back then .... But the voice of that secretary ... I have the feeling I know her....'

The next two days were the same. Only the third day was different. ZhanZhan like usually sat on the stairs listening to them. The man seemed to be happy about a recently concluded contract and wanted to celebrate.

"I cant believe at the end he decided for our company. I thought we would lose the deal to the other. That needs to be celebrated. Lets have some wine." He said happily and ZhanZhan heard a clanking noise.

"Sir, you know I cant tolerate much alcohol..." The secretary reminded him.

"Oh.. I forgot.... My wife loves to drink ..." The man sounded embarrassed.

"Well, unfortunately I am not your wife. But I will drink one glass, that much I can handle. But only one." She answered.

For some time it was quiet until the secretary started to speak and she sounded weird... was she drunk?

"Sir, can you be honest with me?" She asked that man.

"I am always honest and I think you are not even able to drink one glass. After a half you are already drunk. Stop drinking." He said.

"You are right, Sir. Apparently I cant. But I have a question for you and you need to answer honestly. If you lie I will know it anyway. You are not a good liar." She said and ZhanZhan heard the man sighting.

"I will be honest. Ask your question and afterwards I will bring you home."

"You are a bad father if you leave your child here all alone! No one should do that if one love they kids."

"You are right... Pei Xin will hate it..." He answered.

"Back to my question.... How long did you know?" She asked.

"Know what?" He asked back.

"You know what I am talking about! How long did you know about my feelings for you? Don't you dare to lie!" She asked.

'She fell in love with him?' I asked myself surprised. But only ZhanZhan was clueless about the topic the adults were talking about. 'Of course he was. He was just 5 back then...'

"Fine. I knew it a few weeks after you started working for me. You suddenly behave different. Brought me dinner even if I did not ask or you would want to accompany to meetings when that was unnecessary and you chose to stay longer at the evening when I was working overtime. That was when I found out." The man answered truthfully.

"Then why did you never talked about it with me? Why did you had no feelings for me? Was I not good enough?" She asked and she clearly was drunk.

I felt how ZhanZhan was bored about the topic the adults spoke about but as he did not really want to draw nor had anything else to do he kept sitting at the same spot and continued listening.

"Who said I did not had feelings for you? I was young back then too and also shy." The man answered.

"Then why did you marry your wife? Why?" The secretary asked and I could hear she was really desperate.

"I had feelings for you but the moment I met my wife ... it was love at first sight. She was slightly different than others and that was why I fell for her. The feelings I have for my wife are stronger than those I have for you. I am sorry but that is the truth." He said.

'He is really honest.... But what he liked about than woman who kidnapped ZhanZhan was mysterious....' I thought.

"What did you say?" ZhanZhan and I heard the secretary asking surprised.

"The feelings I have for my wife are stronger than those I have for you." The man repeated what he said. "I am so-"

He stopped talking and there was no sound.  

'Is she crying? I am still not fond of woman except my friends and mother but ... I somehow felt sorry for her.'  I thought but I got confused not hearing any sounds for more than two minutes but soon the woman spoke again.

"Thank you. For returning my feelings even when not as strong as the ones for your wife. I am sorry for kissing you. I was just overwhelmed. It will not happen again. See this kiss as a goodbye kiss, a goodbye to my feelings." She said.

Then there was once again quietness. No one spoke a word. But not only I was curious about what was happening down there, ZhanZhan was as well. The little boy carefully sneaked down to the kitchen followed by me. When we both peeked through the door we  them saw both kissing hungrily.

'I guess I judged him too soon. He is cheating on his wife. I hate that woman who kidnapped ZhanZhan but ... I was sure she loved that man. How can he abuse her trust in him? Are everyone like that? Are only my family and friends different?' I kept asking myself while watching the two adults.

Unfortunately we could only see the back of the secretary but even that looked familiar... Did I know her? Both of them slowly walked towards the door, not noticing us... well ... not noticing ZhanZhan. The little boy quickly hid under the stairs and watched the two adults going inside the bedroom. Now ZhanZhan had a problem.

They let the door open after entering the bedroom which means not only that ZhanZhan could not go out of his hiding place without being noticed but he could look directly into the room. To be more specific he could see everything that happened on that bed inside.

"Close you eyes, ZhanZhan. Shut your ears, quickly. That is nothing for you to be seen or heard. Be quick!" I told him but of course he did not listened.

I saw what he saw, I heard what he heard and I felt what he felt. At the moment there was something inside of ZhanZhan, something that wanted to keep watching. First I did not now what it was but then I understood. ZhanZhan was watching the secretary or more like watching her back because that was everything we both could see of her while .... 

I will not tell you more details about what was happening inside that bedroom. It should be clear. And everything was seen and heard by ZhanZhan.... and me. Even if I closed my eyes, these memories were there because ZhanZhan saw it back then.

'Yesterday at university Yibo called me a pervert. Is that the reason? Because ZhanZhan saw and heard so many pervert things back then? Is this curable?' I asked myself before suddenly everything went black and I understood that ZhanZhan fell asleep.

"Brother, shouldn't we bring him back? He is in hypnosis for over two hours already..." I heard Yibo's worried voice.

'No! I need to find out what happened. Please no!' I thought.

"I don't think he would want that. Let him be for now. He seems to be okay. The moment he behaves unnaturally we will bring him back." Father said and I heard Yibo sighing before I felt his lips on my cheeks and second later I heard his voice close to my ear.

"Come back to me soon, Zhan." He whispered and I smiled.

'I will.' 

The next time ZhanZhan woke up he was still hiding under the stairs but during the night one of the adults closed the bedroom door. Before he would find out, ZhanZhan quickly returned to his room but he could not sleep anymore once awake. So he drew while I just watched him.

When he heard voices downstairs he stopped, sneaked back to the stairs without going down and listened.

"Listen, about last night...." That man started but was interrupted by his secretary.

"I know. We both were drunk. I also should have stopped but ... I couldn't, no, I didn't want to. I am sorry. I know I am selfish but ... you cant expect me to ignore what you said, ignore my feelings. I will go now and bring you the new documents. See you then." She said and left. We heard that man talking to himself.

"Yes, it was a mistake. I could have stopped ... but I did not want to either."

The next few hours proceeded like usual. He would take ZhanZhan downstairs for breakfast, bring him in for a bath and play with him until the secretary came back and ZhanZhan run back upstairs.

"Here are the new documents, Sir."

"Thank you. Sit down and wait here while I read them." He answered.

"Yes, Sir."

Then it was quiet. Only now and then ZhanZhan heard how that man turned a page. Soon ZhanZhan got bored. When he was about to go back he heard that familiar female voice again.

"I cant do this!" She said.

"What is wrong?"

"I cant pretend nothing happened yesterday. I know you are married. I know you love your wife very much. More than me. But let me ask you. Did I ever asked you for something since the moment I worked for you?" She asked.

"No, you did not."

"Well, can you fulfill one wish of mine? Only one? I will never ask you for anything else." She asked desperately.

"I am not sure if that is a good idea...." He answered.

"Only this one wish. Please?" She asked and we heard that man sighting.

"Alright. I will grant you this one wish. Not because you are my hard working secretary but because in these years we turned to be very good friends. Tell me your wish and I will grant it. Only this one time." He gave in and I shook my head in disappointment. ZhanZhan did not understand one thing but I did. Soon we heard the woman telling him his wish.

"Be mine. For the time your wife is gone, be mine. Only mine. The moment she comes back we will forget this and move on. I will use the time we have together until your wife returns to bid farewell to my feelings. I will not force you. You can still change you mind. Will you grant me this one wish?"

It was quiet again for some time until we heard his answer.

"Use these remaining 5 days to lose your feelings for me and I will do so too. The moment my wife returns I will never think of these days again. I will forever erase them out of my mind."

That was his answer and it happened just like that. Except for the exchange of documents that secretary practically lived here. They worked together, they ate together and they slept together. At the beginning ZhanZhan still listened to their conversations but soon he lost interest. Of course he did. They did nothing else then the things above, the last part loud enough for ZhanZhan to hear.

But no matter how   busy   that man was with his secretary, he would always made breakfast for ZhanZhan, bring him for a bath and play with him during the time that secretary was gone.

On the last day before the female kidnapper would be back, the two adults stay in bed almost the whole time. 

At some point ZhanZhan heard that man leaving the bedroom. He once again sneaked to the stairs.

'He is really curious... Am I like that too?' I asked myself before concentrating at the scenes in front of me.

"I will go and buy some things I need. Especially for my wife. I don't want to leave Pei Xin behind Please watch after my son, I will be back soon. And then ....". He stopped and the secretary finished his sentence.

"... then we will bid our final goodbyes. I know. Go and come back soon. The sooner you are back the more time we have for the farewell." She said and soon we heard the front door closing and a car driving off.

'He is letting ZhanZhan alone with a stranger? Is he crazy?' I was speechless but it seems ZhanZhan was not scared at all.

Soon we heard footsteps on the stairs and ZhanZhan run back into his room and closed the door behind himself. Then there was a knock.

"Pei Xin? May I come in? I want to meet you. Your father told be you are scared of strangers so I want to ask for permission first before entering. If you don't want to I will go back downstairs." The secretary asked.

I was surprised seeing ZhanZhan slowly walking towards the door, opening it a little bit before backing away again. Well I understood he was slightly scared but the strongest feeling he had was curiosity. He wanted to finally see the face which belongs to that familiar voice. And I wanted that too.

"Okay, I guess this is a yes. I will come in now." She said, opened the door and stepped into the room.

But before I could see her face I was back in that corridor. It was not dark anymore. One last door left. I walked up to it and opened it.

That means I tried to open it but I couldn't. It seemed to be locked. 'What is going on?' I asked myself confused and while I was trying my best to open the door. In the meantime I heard Yibo's voice.

"Brother! That I unnatural. Bring him back!" He said loudly.  

"I know. Xiao Zhan, come back now. We will continue the next time." I heard my father saying. When I did not react he continued. "I understand. You want to know the truth but trust me with this. Lets continue later. Come back now." He said and I stepped away from that locked door and only a few seconds later I opened my eyes and saw both of them watching me worriedly. Not only them. Mr. Li was there too standing some meters away looking at me the same way Yibo and father did. He was worried as well.

"Welcome back. How do you feel? Are you okay?" Father asked me smilingly.

"Can I have a cocoa?" I asked him and he laughed.

"How about we all drink one and while doing that you explain what you remember?" Father said and I agreed.  

10 minutes later the four of us, Father, Yibo, Mr. Li and I, sat in the living room, each a cup of ice cold cocoa in our hands. I put my cup on the coffee table and stared to search.

"Zhan? What are you looking for?" Yibo asked me.

"My notebook. Where is it?" I answered him absentmindedly and heard him laughing and Father and Mr. Li chuckling. I looked at them confused.

"How about you use your own beautiful husky voice? Just an idea of mine...." Yibo said and I blushed. He was right. I was able to talk now...

After I told them everything Father nodded. We discussed for a while and I too asked abut the last door. 

"I think your mind wants to tell you that you are not ready yet to find out what happened. That is why the door was locked." He explained.

"How to open it?" I asked him.

"Even if you disagree but deep inside you are scared to open the last door. Your mind knows that, this is keeping the door locked. You are scared to find out what happened behind the last door." He said.

"I am not s-s-scared!" I said, earned a doubtful look from my father and pouted. "I am..." I mumbled. He chuckled.

"No worries. You came really far. This is the last door and I amsure  it will open soon. Yibo, why are you frowning?" Father asked and we all looked at him.

"Isn't it obviously? I mean Zhan was ... no, ZhanZhan was 5 years old and they kept on doing these intimate things in front of him? How is that possible? That is disgusting! He was almost a baby! I thought at least that man was different but it seemed like he wasn't.... He even cheated on his wife! What an asshole!" Yibo said angrily.

"Yibo! Watch your language! You are right people like them are not suited to be parents. That means they weren't back then. At least Xiao Zhan did not suffer from it." Father said and Yibo laughed out loud and we all once again looked at him.

"Why are you laughing?" Mr. Li asked curiously.

"Zhan did suffer!" He answered seriously before smirking at me. I understood.

"I am not a per-pervert!" I shouted out and gave him a light slap but he just laughed.

"Yes, you are. But you are my little pervert." He said and winked at me. I pouted and heard even Father and Mr. Li laughing. That made me want to punish my boyfriend.

"This night I will s-sleep with FanXing and FanXing alone!" I announced and walked upstairs.

"Zhan, you don't meant it, right? I am sorry. Zhan!" Yibo said and followed me.

I kept my words and slept with FanXing. 

For about two hours.

After that I had enough and quickly run back to Yibo who was already waiting for me with open arms.

"Welcome back." He whispered before I snuggled up to him.

I am hopeless. Hopeless in love with my boyfriend.  

The next morning Yibo and I were the first to wake up and after we took our morning shower together I went back to FanXing so he would not get mad and Yibo prepared breakfast. When he was done he woke up everyone and we ate all together.

After we finished, Yibo and I wanted to clean the table but were told by Father and Mother to sit down for a while as they wanted to make an announcement.

"Did you finally chose a date for the wedding?" Yibo asked curiously but they shook their heads before Father signaled Mother to speak.

"About the wedding... Haikuan and I decided to postpone it...." She said and smiled. I was disappointed and Yibo who felt that took my hand under the table and asked the for the reason.

"Well..... Haikuan and I ... we.... we are pregnant." She announced and blushed. So did Father.

We all were speechless. They were getting a child. I looked at them. "How far are you?" I asked.

"Three months. It will take you some more time to fully speak and I still want to hear a speech from you. But I also don't want to marry with a big womb. I will not fit in my wedding dress. So we decided to postpone it and I hope you are happy...." She said and both of them looked at us three nervously.

"You both will get a ch-child. That are very good news. I am happy."I said and smiled.

"I am happy as well. Do you know the gender already?" Yibo asked.

"No. We want to wait until the child is born. It should be a surprise. FanXing? Are you not happy?" Father asked the frowning little boy.

"No!" He said firmly and Father and Mother looked quite sad.

"Why is that?" Father then asked carefully.

"Uncle Bo is enough. I don't want to share big brother with anyone else!" He said and looked like he was about to cry.

I laughed and stood up, taking my little brother in my arms. The boy hugged me tight.

"Don't be so s-s-elfish. Just because there will be another little s-sibling does not mean I will care for you less than now. Okay?" I said and he hugged me tighter.

"Promise me you will not ignore me!" He demanded and I chuckled.

"I promise. But only when t-reat your little s-sibling with as much love as you t-reat me. Alright?" I asked and waited. He agreed and I put him back on the ground. He walked to his mother and stroke her stomach.

"You heard it. I will accept you. But don't you dare to keep Big brother for yourself!" He said and we all laughed.

"I never thought my son would love someone else as much as me. Whatever you did, you did it right, Xiao Zhan." Mother said and winked at me while I blushed.

"Alright now. FanXing will have to get ready to go to the kindergarten and Xiao Zhan, for you its time for the speech therapy." Father said with a smile. Yibo had no university and decided to build up the new bunny house.  

Father brought me to Dr. Huang and left for a meeting with his patient.

"When you are done, wait for me here. Don't go out alone. Okay? I will come back as soon as possible." He said and left with his car after I agreed.

The speech therapy passed like usually and at 2 pm I was done. As I was bored I called Yibo and spoke with him for at least an hour.

"Wait for me, I will pick you up." Yibo said but I declined.

"No need. Father will come s-soon. Moreover you dis-slike Dr. Huang. Just wait for me to come home." I answered with a smile.

"Are you sure?" He asked and I told him I was.

"Xiao Zhan? Your car is here." The receptionist said and I nodded at her.

"Did you hear? Father is here a-already. I will be home withing an hour." I said.

"Then come home soon. I miss you and I am bored as hell. Play with me." Yibo answered and I giggled.

"Who is the per-pervert again?" I teased him and heard a chuckled from him.

"We will find out when you come home. Hurry up." He said and cut the call.

I giggled for while before going out to meet Father, of course not before bidding farewell to the receptionist.

I left the building and searched for Father's car but could not see it anywhere. The only car I saw was a black limousine. I turned around and wanted to walk back into the doctor's office and asked the receptionist where my Father was but I did not come to that.

Suddenly someone was behind me and I felt how that person holding something in front of my face. I struggled but strangely felt tired very quickly before losing conscious. The last thing I heard was the person behind calling someone. He said "I have him, Sir".

Then there was only blackness I was used to during my hypnosis.

To be continue.....  

It took me a while to finish writing. I hope it is okay that i updated an hour later than promised (Its 1 am on tuesday...) ^^

As you can see the storm began. 

There are not that many chapters left. How many exactly I cant say because I never know who long one chapter will turn out. This one was supposed to be arounf 7000 words but look at that... I could not find a good cut so it has over 11200 words xD xD 

So what do you think about this update? 

Why do you think ZhanZhan and Zhan found the secretary's voice familar?

The bad news are that I have a lot to do this week which means I have not much time to write. Therefore the new chapter will come out on next monday.
Hope to see you then <3 <3 <3

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