"You want to take Xiao Zhan to the training? I am not sure.....I don't think its a good idea ..." Brother said.

"Why not? I mean, he doesn't need to meet them if he says he is not ready but he can sit and watch ... or not?"

"What when there are woman and Xiao Zhan gets a panic attack?" Brother followed up.

"The only woman who could be there are Xuan Lu and Ziyi. And I will make sure they will not come. Then it should be okay, or not?" I asked.

"Hmmm ... Xiao Zhan what do you think? Do you want to join him at tomorrows training?" Brother asked Zhan thoughtful.

Zhan, who only listened quietly to our conversation nodded violently and looked pleadingly at my brother. Brother sighed.

"Alright. We will try this. Xiao Zhan will join you tomorrow. I will accompany him and if I think Xiao Zhan is okay I will take my leave because I have an appointment. Make sure Xuan Lu and Meng Ziyi are not there. If I am not there anymore and Xiao Zhan gets a panic attack or shows any discomfort we will stop it and you bring him home right away. Understand?" Brother said sternly. I nodded happily. Zhan stood up went to my brother and hugged him.

"Your welcome, Xiao Zhan. But this is only a test for the time being. So please, if you feel uncomfortable tell me or Yibo. Don't try to pretend you are okay in front of us. Because this will not help either you nor me or Yibo. Understand?" Brother said and patted his back.

I saw Zhan nodding and agreement.

"Alright. Yibo, I want you to call your trainer and tell him what will happen tomorrow. And tomorrow in school I want you to tell the girls to not come over. Maybe it would be wise to tell Ji Yang as well to not go to close to Zhan without you being around.

I will go and tell my friend I may come later. The appointment I have tomorrow is with Dr. Lan, the old friend of mine I met today. I take place in a hypnosis he will be doing with a patient of his. After wards he will explain the details an everything I need to know.

Is everything clear for tomorrow?" he asked us and we nodded.

"You can let go of me already, Xiao Zhan." Brother chuckled as Zhan did not stop hugging my brother. I got slightly irritated but didn't say anything.

"If you don't, Yibo might get jealous. That means if he is not already. Spare your father." he followed up.

Zhan raised his head and look at me. I pretend that I was not jealous and smiled at him. Zhan stopped hugging my brother and looked at me apologetic while pouting. I started to laugh.

"Its okay. I am the stupid one to get jealous at my brother. You can hug him as much as you want. He is your father after all." I chuckled and brother rolled his eyes.

"If everything is clear go up and take a shower. I will do the same." Brother said and we all left the dining room after cleaning everything up.

Zhan and I went upstairs and took a shower, separately of course.

When I stepped out of my room in search for Zhan I saw him entering his hobby room so I followed him.

"Zhan? You want to draw?" I asked him and he turned around.

>I am not finished with Dr. Liu's painting ... I need to hurry up.<

"Let me guess I am not allowed to see it yet?" I asked him and he smiled while shaking his head. I sighed in defeat. "I will go and call my trainer." I said and left him on his own.

I don't know what is hidden underneath the cover except  it was a canvas. When I asked him what is drawn on it, he just wrote >Its Dr. Liu's and my secret.< and smiled.

I did not understood it. I only felt slightly jealous getting to know both of them has a secret. But afterwards I realized that it was just childish. Of course they have their own secret. They are father and son, doctor and patient.

'I just have to make my own secret with Zhan.'  I thought and left for my room to call my trainer.

After the call I went down to make some herbal tea for Zhan as I know how much he loves it. It was almost 9 pm when I brought the tea into my room and left it again to fetch Zhan. I knocked on his hobby room and after a while I heard him walking towards the door, opening it and greeting me with his adorable smile.

"Lets go to bed Zhan" I said to him. He nodded and followed me into my room.

"I made some herbal tea for you. Drink it while its hot and then lets sleep." I said, pointing to the tea on the bedside table. I then climbed onto the bed, sliding under the blanket and observed Zhan drinking his tea with enjoyment.

When he finished he climbed on my bed as well and snuggled into my arms. I wanted to give him a kiss on his cheeks but just in that moment he turned his head to me so I accidentally kissed his lips. Not that I mind. I bit him slightly and when he parted his lips I entered my tongue inside his mouth studying what was hidden.

When I had enough of his swollen lips I trailed down to his neck sucking his skin lightly. When I felt him enjoying it I went downwards to his shoulder blades repeating my actions from earlier only this time I sucked harder. I bit him and instantly soothed the bitten part with my tongue and many little kisses. Zhan put his hands on my back pulling me closer to him.

I stopped kissing his shoulder blades and went back to his lips kissing and biting them slightly. When I wanted to insert my tongue again I felt someone woke up down there so I forced myself to stop.

When I wanted to back away Zhan hold my neck and kissed me again. He copied my actions and bit me ... hard. I moaned loudly and Zhan used this chance slip his tongue inside. I moaned again and felt pain. 'I need to stop right now.' I thought and freed my self from his grip.

"Why so greedy today? I cant control myself if you behave like that, Zhan." I whispered in his ear out of breath. I saw him looking away probably so I could no see him turning red but his ears are betraying him. I laughed at that, gave him a kiss and stood up to ... leave for the bathroom.

Zhan observed my every move. The moment I left the bed I turned around instantly so Zhan could not see ... that.

When I came back 10 minutes later Zhan sat on the bed and I knew he was waiting for me. I saw him pouting and he showed me his notebook.

>Why do you always leave for the bathroom after kissing me?<

"That .... hmm ... its just ... I really need to go urgently. No need to worry" I explained nervously. 'Please don't ask more. Please don't ask more. Please don't ask more'  I pleaded inwardly.

>You are wearing different pants than before. Why?<

Damn it! 'I hoped he would not realize it but I forgot his perfect observation skills. I cant possibly say that I got too aroused and I leaked ... right?? That is nothing for my Zhan's innocent ears.'

"When I washed my hands I .... accidentally splashed water on my pants ... so I had to change them. Nothing serious." I lied and went back to bed. He wanted to write more but I took his notebook and pen from his hands and put them on the bedside table.

"Lets go sleep now. I am tired." I said and cuddled him. I closed my eyes and felt him observing me some time more before he snuggled deeper into my arms. 'I am saved for the time being'  I thought relieved and soon fell asleep.

I woke up when I felt emptiness beside me. I opened my eyes saw that Zhan was not sleeping next to me. With one look at the clock I saw it was 7 am. I stood up and searched for him in his bedroom, his hobby room and on the rooftop. Nothing.

I left for the second floor and saw light inside the library. 'Its just 7am and Zhan wants to read?' I thought and shook my head in amusement.

I entered the library and saw Zhan sitting on one of the tables reading a book. I walked up to him quietly but he seemed to have felt my presence. He looked up, widened his eyes when he saw me and ... hid the book he was reading. I was confused.

"Zhan? Why are you reading this early and more importantly ...why are you hiding the book?" I asked him curious. Zhan shook his head and stood up, still hiding the book behind his back.

"Zhan, how about you show me that book you are reading?" I asked him smilingly.

Again he shook his head and retreated to the back of the library. 'He is just too adorable being shy like this. What is he reading for me to not find out?'  I thought and walked slowly closer to him.

Just when I wanted to ask him again he run off. I laughed loudly and followed him. It was a back and forth between us till I cornered him in one corner of the library.

"I almost got you, Zhan." I said and grinned. He looked to the door. "You can try, but I don't think you will succeed. You know, usually I am not really interested what kind of books your read but this time you openly hid it from me, so of course I am curious." I explained and walked closer. I was about to reach him when he tried to run past me. I grabbed him and hugged him from behind, the book he pressed tightly to his chest so I could not read the title.

"Now I got you, Zhan." I whispered in his ear and bit him there slightly. When he tried to flee I laughed out louder. "Now pretty please show me the book, Zhan" I pleaded but he shook his head, pressing the book even more tightly to his chest.

So I tried to grab the book but Zhan pushed away my hand and threw the book close to the door. I let go of Zhan to take the book but Zhan grabbed my waist and hold me tight not letting me move forward. I looked at him in amusement.

"The more you behave like that the more I want to find out, Zhan" I chuckled and he hold me even tighter. I laughed despite the little pain I felt on my waist.

"You guys seem to have a lot of stamina this early in the morning. What is so funny?" We heard brothers voice. We both looked at him standing in front of the door. He saw the book, grabbed it and after looking at it with raised brows he but it back into a shelf. Unfortunately I didn't saw which one it was.

"If you finished with the early training come down for breakfast" He said and left. I turned to Zhan who set me free.

"You sure are a lucky one." I said in defeat and I saw him sighing in relieve. I pulled him towards me and kissed him deeply. "You have so many secrets in front of me, Zhan. Still don't want to show me the book?" I asked him gently. He shook his face and looked away.

"Alright. I will not ask you anymore. Lets go down for breakfast. I am pretty sure my brother saw the book so I could ask him." I said and laughed after I saw Zhan looking at me in shock.

We sat at the table and quietly enjoyed our breakfast. I saw my brother looking at Zhan from time to time while Zhan pretend to not realize it. When he finished the breakfast and brought everything to the kitchen Zhan washed the dishes while Brother dried them off and I put everything we used back to the refrigerator.

After some minutes I could not hold it in anymore and had to ask my brother.

"Brother, did you saw the book earlier? What kind of book was it? Zhan did not want to show it to me." I asked him.

"Yes I saw it" Brother answered calmly.

Suddenly we heard a loud clatter from the kitchen sink as Zhan was so shocked he let the dishes fall back into it. I saw him holding his breath and biting his bottom lip while looking nervously at my brother.

"I saw it but I will not tell you anything" Brother said and Zhan exhaled relieved.

"What? Why?" I complained and pouted.

"Because if Xiao Zhan does not want to tell you there has to be a reason for it, don't you think. Moreover its your fault that Xiao Zhan is even reading something like this! Just what did you do?!" He asked strictly.

'Why should it be my fault?'  I asked myself confused.

"Lets forget this for now. Hurry up and prepare yourself for school. Don't forget to speak with your friends, especially with the girls. I hope you told Trainer Lu already." Brother changed the topic.

"Yes I did. I will speak with my friend in school." I said excitingly and went upstairs to get my stuff.

When I came back down to the kitchen I saw brother and Zhan having a conversation. I could not read Zhan's words in his notebook but I heard what my brother said as his answer.

"You don't have to be, Xiao Zhan. It is normal that things like this happen, especially to Yibo"

....

"You just can control yourself better than him I assume. I wish Yibo could do too but not everyone is as innocent as you." Brother explained. 

....

I heard him laughing. "No, he is definitely not. To be honest I am happy he is doing it like this."

....

"Because that just means he keeps his promises. But I am not sure for how long ....."

After that Brother took Zhan into his arms and I heard nothing anymore. So I stomped with my feet to let them know I was there and they broke the hug. Zhan seemed to have seen me looking at his notebook because he ripped out one site and hold it under water. Afterwards he threw it into the bin.

"For real now? You are reading way too many books, Zhan." I said to him and laughed. 

"Stop making fun of him and go to school." Brother sighed.

"Alright I will go now." I said and looked at Zhan. "No goodbye hug for me?" I asked. Brother shook his head while Zhan came up to me and gave me a hug. "Zhan, is it okay if I tell my friend about ... your situation? Like being scared of woman and your past?" I asked him gently.

>Not about my past please. I don't even know what happened back then and I don't want others except us to assuming what might happened.<  he wrote nervously. 

"Okay. I will not tell them that. I promise." Satisfied I gave him a peck on his lips and left for school.

Just when I parked my bike and entered the school I felt two strong arms on my both sides holding me in place. Before I could say anything Paul and Ji Yang dragged me away from the gate into the school. Ziyi already waited in front of the woman's toilet. She gave the boys next to me a sign and they forced me inside.

"Guy's are you crazy? Why are we in the woman's toilette for god's sake?" I yelled at them confused.

"That is the safest place for us to speak with you without anyone disturbing us. Most of the girls are using the toilets near the cafeteria. So no one will come in here and just in case Xuan Lu stands outside to keep watch." Ziyi explained.

"And what exactly are we doing here??" I asked angrily.

"Did you forget the time limit I gave you yesterday?" She said and smirked.

"No I didn't. It was said "tomorrow". That means today and today is still early!" I said.

"That is true but you also know that I am an impatient human being. We want to know the secret you and Xuan Lu have. I tried to get her to tell me but she is just so stubborn. But I am too so it is okay." she said and laughed. 

When I tried to shake of Paul and Ji Yang they tightened the grip on me.

"Don't even try to escape. You know I am as strong as you, Yibo. The safest way out of your dilemma will be to tell us the secret." Ji Yang said grinning and Paul nodded.

"Paul, you are hurting me" I said and suppressed a smile. He looked at me apologetic and let go of me. I used this change to set myself free from Ji Yang as well and wanted to leave but Ji Yang grabbed me instantly while Ziyi stood in front of the door.

"Paul! I told you you are too soft. He just said it so you would let go and he can escape." Ziyi said and rolled her eyes.

"Stop joking with me Yibo..." Paul said, grabbed my other arm again and pouted while I chuckled in amusement.

"Enough with the jokes. Yibo tell us pleaseee!" Ziyi said and looked at me.

"Or what?" I asked her.

"Or I will cancel my friendship with you and tell Lu Fei you are secretly in love with her!" she said and smirked evily.

"You don't dare...!" I said and saw her raising her brows as if to ask me if I am sure. 

She is lying. I know she can be evil but only to protect something dear to her. I also know if I decided to not tell her the secret she may be sad but would accept my decision. 

"Fine. I was going to tell you today anyway but can I ask for a favor?" I asked her pretending to be defeated. She chuckled at that.

"Tell us." Ji Yang said.

"Can we speak somewhere else? At our usual place? I don't want to talk about something this important in a woman's toilet." I explained.

"At least give us a hint before we decide that a different place would be suitable." Ziyi said and waited.

"I want to tell you with whom I am in love and that that person will join today's training" I said and Paul and Ji Yang let go of me instantly.

"I would say... lets change the place. And talk in our break. We do not have time for that now as the lessons will start soon" Paul said and Ji Yang nodded in agreement.

"But then you have to tell us everything!" Ziyi said and I agreed. We left the woman's toilet and walked into the class. Xuan Lu looked at me apologetic and I winked at her to show I understood. Ziyi can sometimes be like this but we love her.

After 4 long hours of lessons it was breaktime. We bought our food at the cafeteria and sat down at our usual place behind the school.

"Alright then. Tell us !" Ziyi demanded impatient and looked at me excitingly.

to be continued......

Here it ends for now :)

Anyone can guess what kind of book Xiao Zhan was reading? 
Let me give you a tiny "hint" ... sometimes I can be a pervert (I think anyone of us can be when it comes to our boys) but it is definitely not an erotic novel ^^

Let me know your guesses ;D

The next chapter comes out on Saturday (the answer to my question above will be "revealed" in chapter 38 which will be again a little bit longer ^^

Please be safe everyone and see you on saturday <3 <3 <3

1. I am sorry if there are any errors as english is not my native language. Do point it out.

2. I would be very happy about comments and votes :D