I am Le Anh Tam, a second-year university student. I majored in geography. Simply studying, I don't really like this major.
“Hey, Tam is the first…”
“It's her again... Last time he also ranked first so he got a scholarship. He always seems annoyed, no wonder no one wants to play with him..."
"That's why she's isolated. She only has a pretty face but is always arrogant and doesn't bother talking to others..."
“Every time the whole class gets together to go out, they don't go…”
" ...."

Here we go again. I stopped writing. Turn down and look at them. Seeing me looking, they quickly bowed their heads and left. Some children still don't want to go and want to make a fuss.

Too noisy. I packed my things and walked out of the classroom. As soon as I left, the classroom became noisy again. I'm already used to it. Put on your headphones and get out of school. I arrived at the bus stop and sat down.

I plan to go home, change clothes and go to work. After changing shifts, there will be a tutoring schedule for your child. Looking at the phone, a text message had just been sent.

It belongs to my class teacher. She informed me that the scholarship money had been transferred to my account, she asked me to check. I clicked and saw that the money had been transferred, so I texted her again. When you're done, continue waiting for the bus.

Remember what some people in class said. Indeed I am very busy. Because I'm poor, I don't always have time to hang out with people. Because I'm poor, I always have to win scholarships.

I was originally an orphan. I don't know who my parents are because I was abandoned when I was only a few months old. It was the orphanage that adopted me. My name was also given by them.

But last year, this orphanage was discovered to be mistreating children and was destroyed. That's right, this orphanage is truly a place of child abuse. I was also beaten by people here from childhood until adulthood.

So why wasn't this orphanage discovered early? Probably due to good camouflage. This place will send a few children to school to hide from outsiders. How much more aid can be defrauded?

The children who go to school are all specially trained children. Don't let them say anything to everyone. Including me. I still feel quite lucky to be in this orphanage. Fortunately, there is only beatings here, no human trafficking or selling of corpses...

When the orphanage is destroyed, the underage children will be transferred elsewhere or adopted. As for eighteen year olds, they can't do it. We don't get welfare or anything, we have to work ourselves to make money.

I am luckier than many others. Because my mind is quite smart, I study quite well. Luckily, in high school, she signed me up to study geography well. If you receive the first prize, you should apply directly. Initially, I had no intention of going to college, but this school gave me a full scholarship. So I just entered college.

In my first year of college, I lived in the school dormitory. I can't get close to anyone because I'm busy working part-time. Tutoring, serving or writing stories online, I do it all. Luckily, I was able to contribute some money. With the money from the prizes I won, I moved somewhere else in my second year.

There are a lot of rumors about me in class. Saying that I was taken care of so I moved out, or saying that I stole someone else's husband... I ignored it all. Right now I just want to try for myself, not for anyone else. Why should I care about those baseless claims...

I turned on a familiar song so I continued waiting for the car. It's raining... drizzling. I sat in the waiting area so I didn't get much wet. Look at the clock. Forty minutes to go... Still on time.

Suddenly I heard the laughter of many children. I raised my head to look. There were a few children laughing happily in the rain. There were a few parents sitting on chairs watching the children laugh.

It's fun....

The children saw me and waved. I waved back at the children. Pretty cute. Not as obnoxious as some of the kids I'm teaching. The parents of several children also looked at me and smiled. I politely greeted back.

The car has arrived. I stood up and approached the bus stop. There was a little rain on my shirt but it was still pretty good. There were a few excited kids shouting, bus, bus. I also don't pay much attention.

The car approached. Suddenly a boy ran in front of the car and tried to stop. Mouth constantly smiling at the person sitting inside. The driver didn't seem to see. Because it was drizzling and the boy was quite short, the driver could not see clearly.

Without thinking, I quickly ran out. Parents were also startled and screamed. I ran back, startled the driver and stopped the car. But there was no time, I was able to push the boy away but was hit by a car.

I was shot a few meters away. People around shouted loudly and ran towards me. The whisper was very loud.Interspersed are the cries of children. Surely... that child is fine.
"Emergency... Quickly call an ambulance..."
"Girl... please bear with it a little..."
"Quickly stop her bleeding..."
"Have you called an ambulance...?"

Things are becoming more and more chaotic. Screams, screams and cries mixed together. It hurts so much….It's been a long time since I've had this feeling again. The fishy taste of blood gradually dissolves in the mouth.

Gradually I could no longer hear anything. The noise also gets smaller and disappears. My eyes also blurred. The pain also seems to have subsided.

I'm going to die. Unfortunately I don't have time to spend the money I saved. I still haven't done what I want.

But maybe death is also very good. No more suffering. In any case, suicide is a serious sin. Will go to hell. I don't want to live miserable and die miserable.

I don't think it can be called suicide. I'm saving people. But deep down I gave up and didn't want to live. So it was suicide. Damn it, I can't live and I can't die either.

Lord, please guide me. If you let me live, please let me live a little more gently. I'm also very tired. Dear God....

My consciousness is still a bit hazy. I took myself to the hospital. Many doctors and nurses were by my side.
"Losing too much blood..."
"Doctor, this girl just ran out of blood. I announced on the loudspeaker but I still haven't found someone with the same blood..."
“Heart rate is decreasing, doctor…”
"Electric shock. One...two...three..."
" Impossible... "
"One more time. One... two... three..."
"...."

They say whatever they say. I can't hear anymore. Am I... really about to die? My eyes are heavy. Some voices still ring in my ears:
"Open your eyes... Girl, you have to try harder..."
" ... "

Not here. I couldn't lift my eyes anymore. Well... just call it a nap. Hopefully tomorrow the world will be gentler to me.
"Wake up....wake up..."

Who called? Why bother others while they are sleeping? I waved my hand and went back to sleep. Laughter echoed in my ears.

Wait. Aren't I dead? I opened my eyes startled. What meets the eye is a white space. I quickly stood up and looked around.

There is a man. I can't see this person's face clearly. That's because this person always emits white light. Wear pure white clothes. I couldn't see the face clearly but I felt like this person was smiling.
"I'm sorry but you are..."
"My daughter, you don't need to know, remember, I came here to listen to your prayers..."

Maybe....
"Jesus..."

No response. I stepped closer. There was a sound in my ears.
"Thank you for always thinking about my rules. I hope you will live happily in another world. Remember... you must live happily..."
"Wait... wait, I..."

Before I could say anything, I felt myself falling. The whitespace has disappeared. I could be in free fall. What do you mean... Will I be revived?

My eyes gradually closed. I hope in the new world I will be happier. Consciousness gradually disappears.
"As a princess... as a princess, Your Majesty..."

Emperor. What an ancient way of addressing people.
"Good... very good. How is the Queen..."
“Yes, mother is round and child is square…”
“Bring the baby here, I want to hold it…”
" But... "
"It's okay. Please carry him here..."
" Correct... "

My eyes were glued together. There are only a few small slots. I vaguely saw a face but it wasn't very clear. I was a bit tired so I gradually fell asleep.
"Good girl, my good girl..."

Daughter. This person... is my father. I feel sleepy. Okay, when I wake up, I'll think about it again.