As I walked down to the elevator I made sure my hoodie covered my wrists, the indentation from the silk rope was still very visible and I didn't want to mentally scar one of our friends with mental images of how I got them.  I got into the elevator and leant against the back wall, my thoughts wandered to everything that happened in the last couple of hours and I felt a little annoyed at how things happened, if I hadn't of had a problem with my breathing I'd probably still be wrapped in my boyfriend right now.  I barely noticed the door slide open and was only vaguely aware of someone else being in the carriage with me.

"Delirious" Mini sounded tired as he tried to get my attention.  I only looked up because I heard someone use my tag.

"oh Hey Min...sorry I was miles away" I licked my lips and smirked as I saw the realisation on his face.

"I haven't pulled you away from Ev' have I?" he sounded like he was feeling a little guilty.  I smiled at him and took hold of his shoulder as the door opened on the main reception.

"Nah man...I couldn't' sleep and didn't want to keep waking him up" 

Mini nodded then stared at the floor as we walked out of the front door and down the street towards the nearest all night coffee shop.  After spending the last few hours with Evan it felt a little weird standing next to Mini, he was about five inches taller than me, well he was when I wasn't standing up straight, It always took me a little while to adjust to looking up at the guys when I was around them.  Mini seemed to be deep in thought, so much so that he almost walked into a lamp post, he swore and looked over at me as he moved around the obstacle.  There was something that wasn't right I've never known him to be this quiet.

"you ok Mini?  you don't seem to be very happy right now" I took hold of his arm and pulled him out of a collision course with a mail box.

"uh...I dunno..."  He pushed the coffee shop door open and headed straight for the counter, both of us ordering something  to drink, I got some food and then we found the most secluded table we could.  neither of us saying another word until we had both taken our jackets off and sat down.

"so spill it Mini...what's got you all confused?" I asked even though I had a good idea why he was acting the way he was.

"uh...I'm not sure" he mumbled and took a gulp of his coffee which must of been extremely hot still.

"Uhuh...Mini...what happened?"

He sighed heavily, running his tongue around the inside of his mouth, I assumed because he burnt his mouth on his coffee.

"Tyler kissed me" he mumbled as his face slowly turned pink, even though he seemed to be embarrassed there was also something else shining in the back of his eyes.

"and that's a problem?" I asked as I moved my coffee to one side and pulled my sandwich towards me.

"I'm not sure" he mumbled and sighed, I waited for a moment to see if he'd fill the silence "He told me to stop him and I didn't do it...he's going to hate me when he's sober"

"why would he hate you?... he wouldn't of kissed you if he didn't want to" I will admit I was a little confused about what Mini was trying to tell me.

"He told me three times to stop him...and I couldn't do it" he seemed to be trying pretty hard not to fall to pieces on me, and I think I knew what he was scared about, it wasn't just the risk of losing a friend it was the whole crew, if Tyler couldn't stand to be around Mini it would make things awkward for the rest of the gang, we'd all feel guilty if one asked to record when we had arranged something with the other. 

"Mini did it occur to you that he said that to give you a way to stop him if you didn't want him to kiss you" he looked at me for a moment with a confused expression.

"Uh...no" He mumbled and fiddled with his cup

"Did you enjoy it?" I made a start opening my sandwich box and watched as he fidgeted did an impression of a gold fish as he tried to answer me but couldn't seem to find the right words.  His face told me everything I needed to know, he looked a little excited at the thought of kissing Tyler and his face turned bright red. after a minute or two of acting like a school girl after her first hiss he decided on just nodding once.

"but...He had a lot to drink earlier" He whined,  for a guy that was six feet tall he looked remarkably small right now, he had his hands in his lap and was picking at his nails I presumed because he was feeling anxious. "if he remembers some of the stuff he did...if he regrets doing it..."

"He wasn't that drunk...and...have you ever known Tyler to do anything he didn't want to?" I took a large bite of my sandwich and felt my stomach growl with thanks at finally eating something since lunch time...yesterday.  He sat quiet for a moment thinking about everything, after I'd taken a second bite he started fidgeting which told me he was about to say something.

"I freaked out on him" he mumbled barely loud enough for me to hear

"over what?" I spoke around a mouthful of food, putting down what was left of the sandwich and reached for my coffee.

"His..." He sighed heavily and leant forward putting his elbows on the table "His...hands on my ass"

I was a little surprised "He went straight for your ass?"

"wut no" He fidgeted again, his face still a vibrant red "When he...was...kissing...me...his hands w-wandered"

I smirked at him as he stuttered "Your adorable" He scowled at me and stuck his finger up as he sat back and folded his arms. "I did too Min so your not on your own"

"what do you mean you did too?"

"when Ev' and I first got together...He was the first guy I ever did anything with" I watched his reaction as I considered how much I would tell him, I knew that I'd keep any information about Evan's past to myself because it wasn't my place to say anything.  "The first time I was in a position where I was going to be bottom I was scared"

He bite his bottom lip and  watched as I put down my coffee to one side, He sat forward again, looking like he wanted to say something but couldn't find the right words.  I picked up my sandwich again and  noticed his eyes lock onto my hands, his eyes narrowed for a moment before he looked back up at me with an inquisitive expression.

"What did you do to your wrists?"

I put down my sandwich and tugged my sleeves down over my wrists, I hadn't realised the marks on my wrists where visible. "if I told you it would scar you for life" I fidgeted and tried to stop myself getting embarrassed enough that it was start to make my face turn red. there was another silence as he seemed to have a million questions run through his mind all at once but was having problems picking one to ask. "Quick fire round Mini...ask the first question that enters your head...Go"

"what's it like?...being with a guy"

"not that different to being with a girl...there is a lack of pink and sparkly stuff though"

"no I mean...With...a guy" He cleared his throat and reaching for his coffee, making it obvious that he was uncomfortable asking that kind of question

"oh... uh ...it stings like hell to start with but it doesn't last very long" there was far too much tension in this conversation for my liking so something had to give "the trick is loads of foreplay and lube"

He choked on his coffee and I was laughing so hard at his reaction that I choked on my sandwich, which made Mini laugh while he was coughing making his eyes water.  We sat in silence for a while coughing, gasping for air and laughing our asses off. Once we had managed to catch our breath and stop laughing we looked at each other and tried to get back into the conversation.

"Jesus Delirious" Mini giggled as he wiped his eyes

"Wut it's true" I chuckled and got myself comfortable again "I have a question for you Mini"

"should I be scared?"

"How long have you had a thing for Tyler?" I smiled as he looked over at me in shock.

"W-what" he stammered  looking at everything other than me.

"I'll rephrase the question...how long have you had a crush on Tyler?"  I knew that for the last few weeks he'd been reacting to Tyler a little different to how he usually did.  Going quiet for a few minutes when Tyler would join us in a call or for a recording session, always staying within a few meters of him when in a game or making sure he was found by Tyler when playing a hide and seek style game.  What I wasn't sure about was if Mini was aware of how he'd been acting.

"uh...I..."

"Don't think about lying to me...I'll know"

He looked horrified as if I had just asked him to commit murder "I-I..." he swallowed hard, sighed then closed his eyes "a-about s-six months" He seemed to be bracing himself for me to tell him off or say something to make him feel like an idiot.

"So if he feels the same way...you'd get jiggy with it?" I smiled trying not to sound like I was being an ass about his feelings towards a friend.

"I'm not sure" He sighed "I get kind of freaked out when I-I think about...having sex with a guy" he mumbled as if he thought someone could over hear even though we were the only ones in the store other than the staff.  I finished the last bite of my sandwich and looked at him with my head tilted as I took my time chewing, leaving a long weird silence between us.

"The nerves are a lot worse than actually doing it" I remembered my first time and how I'd worked myself up into a terrified, anxious mess. Evan had spent nearly three hours calming me down and then working me up in a completely different way until he thought I was ready.  I looked at Mini and remembered how aggressive Tyler had to have been when giving Mini the hickey.  "Mini...no matter how...enthusiastic things get between you and Tyler...Do you trust him to stop if you told him to?"

Mini frowned slightly as if he was thinking about it, then slowly smirk "Yeah...he already proved that he would" his cheeks turning a pale pink again. I will admit I was surprised that they had already gone far enough that Mini had felt the need to stop him but I was mostly relieved that Tyler was taking care of Mini as well. "So are you going to tell me what those marks are?" he smiled at me with one of those smiles that make you very aware that they know the answer they just want to hear you say it.  He chose the wrong person to test.

"I like to be tied up and fucked sometimes" I smiled at him as he looked a little embarrassed and fidgeted in his seat "I mean you can empathise can't you Min...being completely vulnerable and dominated by someone you trust...being teased and played with so much you can't think straight anymore...and then when your about to scream with frustration they take you and drive you to the most intense orgasm ever"  I busied my self with finishing off my coffee as he squirmed and bite his bottom lip.

"uh...I-I...u-uh" he was obviously having issues processing the images in his mind and trying to hold a conversation at the same time.

"another coffee Mini?" I got up and picked up our cup, he nodded but didn't say anything so I went and ordered more coffee.  I felt a little guilty for putting those images in his head but he had asked for it.