Feeling the mercy of her Rabb she planted her forehead firmly on the ground letting loose all the strength she used on herself, letting her burden on the earth , submitting herself completely to her creator, belittling herself in front of The Most High, reminding herself of the favours of her Lord on her. The favours ... uncountable, the flavours without which she could not even be in the prostrating position she was in at the moment.
"Ya Rabb! I am nothing without You, In Your hands lay my soul and my life. Every second of my life is governed by You... every movement by your help. What am I without You,Ya Ilaah?" Forcing her tears out in the first place , now they flowed in their own will.
"Subhaana rabbiyal A'alaa... Subhaana rabbiyal A'alaa..
Subhaana rabbiyal A'alaa!"

Trying to absorb the words she uttered, she began her conversation once again. "Ya Rabb! You are free of any errors, we are the one's who err.. O my Rabb, All the glory is into you, The One who never errs.. The One who never wrongs. Ya Rabb! The One who has all the power over me... I seek Your forgiveness... I beseech you to forgive  me. I am in debt of your forgiveness, without which I will be doomed."
"Allaahummaghfirli zanbi kullah, dikkahu wa jillaah, awwalahu wa aakhirah, we alaaniyatahu wa sirrah."
She remained in the same position for a while as she tried to control her sobs. 
"Ya Allah.. help me out of this crisis, Ya Rahmaan help me out of this crisis, the crisis of my uncertain Imaan. I say I love You  Ya Rabb, but I dont feel the love in my heart. I say I love You... yet I don't fulfil the conditions of love. I say myself a Muslimah, but am unable to submit myself completely to you, Ya Rahman !Have mercy on me... grant me the peace which a true Muslim is at . Ya Allah ! Help me obey You out of love. Ya Allah ! Help me submit to You out of love , hope and fear.
Ya Rahman.. guide me to be among Your chosen slaves, those who love You the most, those who love You sincerely. "
Pausing a while, to calm her tired self she contemplated on her state for some time. She didnot feel like coming out of this state, cos finally did she find the peace... the peace she yearned for but never felt.
Finally did she succeed in tasting the sweetness of sujood,  of being close to her Rabb!