( OH MY GOD I LOVE DEVILINNIT BUT LIKE ANGELINNIT?- HELL YEAH)

( weewooo weeeo you hear that? That's The Trigger Warning :) ⚠️⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️⚠️ Voices + Mentions of Previous Abuse/Haressment , Mental/Physical Abuse and some Fluff ⚠️⚠️)

(Tommy's POV)

Deo Tells me to Take Deep breathes and I try to it works a little bit,he tells me to clean off the blood dripping from my forehead.

I tell him ok, I put my phone on my bed, I go to the bathroom and I turn on the sinks water and take a hand full of water and wash the blood off my face.

I turn off the water and go back to my phone,"now tell me what happened" he said in a tone that made me feel scared but strangely Comfortable.

"My Pa- Dad Called me down stairs he insulted me and threw me against the wall. It was awfully painful"

"Listen it's gonna be ok alright? If they do anything else tell me and I promise they won't do it again" deo's tone was extremely Creepy but I choose to ignore it and nod.

We eventually end Call, And I put my phone on the charger to charge and opened my bedside table, and I grab my vent Journal.( People think I forgot about the journal I didn't :) )

I grab a Pen from my Desk and I open the last page I wrote in, Damn it's been a long time since I've written here.

I flip the page and start writing(thank you Pinterest for helping me- istg my storage would be dead-)

"it's been getting harder to open up lately I always just change the subject when deo asks to talk about it."

"I am starting to get so angry at myself
Just because I am me? It's hard to explain how it feels to anyone hell
I can barely explain it to myself"

"I just feel so Needy I need someone, Anyone, to need me.

I just want to feel wanted instead of feeling Broken, and isolated."

"Sometime I feel like no matter how hard I try, no matter how much I give, I will never be good enough for anyone or anything"

"My grades are slowly going from 75 minimum to a 55 Minimum I need to work on that or else my parents insults get worse I am super stressed and I have zero motivation, I am pretty sure I might have a breakdown but it's fine I am fine I always am."

"Why does my heart hurt whenever I am enjoying my life for once it's like it's trying to remind me that I might do something stupid and fuck everything up like I always do"

"It sucks knowing it doesn't matter how much I try I'll never make anyone proud, and I always try my best to."

"It's hard opening up to anyone after what happened with them I don't like remembering what they did because why should I be stuck Remembering what they did to me when they probably don't even remember or fucking care they made it clear that they no longer  find me valuable or interesting"

I put my pen back in my desk and I put the Journal back, it's funny how if anyone read this journal, They'd Immediately Know 80% of my Secrets.

( That's now foreshadowing I swear atleast I think so?)

I look at my phone and I see that it's Now 7:45AM shit last time I checked it was still 3.

I set up an alarm for 1pm and try to sleep.

It was hard cause I knew damn well why I hated sleeping, every time I try to sleep I just hear screams and extremely loud voices.

I usually would take sleeping pills to help but I ran out, I don't know what or who's voices they are but they won't let me sleep,please just let me sleep.

(Timeskip brought to you by this picture

I adore this picture and you should too)

I awaken and feel useless, I mean that's pretty normal by now though.

I take a shower and brush my teeth, I was gonna sit and edit some videos but I got a message from Eryn.

OH shit, I completely forgot about that, he replies so I quickly type my response.

I immediately let go of my phone and start the assignment.

(Timeskip brought to you by this
picture

I love it it's beautiful)

I had finished and was getting spaces on discord, I open discord and of course it's dream.

Oh that's right I am supposed to be streaming with Drista Today, I reply with "shut up I just finished my assignment I am gonna get on in a sec" I send and I go Downstairs grab my water bottle.

I sit down get comfy and start stream, I tweet out the link, and wait for the viewers to flood in.

They did and Drista and Dream unmute.

( Another timeskip brought to you by Tommy giving you an air kiss

Did you catch it? Good)

Drista is currently causing CHOAS by accidentally giving away End Items, I struggle trying to make her go back to logstedshire.

And after my continuous begging she finally did, She met quackity tubbo and techno today.

I do eventually get around to ending the stream, Dream leaves the VC and I call Deo on discord to give me company while I am editing.

It had been awhile and I completely forgot about the that I am on with Deo, I was just working on some subtitles.

I Feel some warm breath on my neck that I ignore,"BOO" Was said in a deeper voice so I immediately Scream and turn around, I see nothing.

I look back at computer and Finally hear Deo's Intense Laughing, I roll my eyes "that was really needed wasn't it?" I said in a sarcastic tone, He Finally calmed Down.

"I literally just played around with my mic setting" I sigh knowing that he's probably going to remind me of this every day.

"I am gonna call you boo from now on as a continuous reminder" I face palm, which makes him laugh, I Feel a smile starting to form on my face and I also start laughing.

(Timeskip 😃 here's a picture of schlatt

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I Finished Editing and I try to listen to Music, But I keep getting Anxious that I might Not hear something I need to hear.

I get called down By my parents, oh god this can't be good.

I go down stairs taking extremely deep breaths, I go to the living room and sit down.

"May I ask why I was Called here?" I said in the most respectful tone I have.

My father speaks "so are you aware that your grades are going down right?" I nod trying not to seem disrespectful.

My mother speaks next "and you mind explaining that?" Oh god, "well I have been really stressed lately and-" "THAT'S NOT POSSIBLE YOU'RE STILL YOUNG AND WE PROVIDE YOU WITH EVERYTHING YOU NEED NOW GIVE US AN ACTUAL REASON AND STOP USING THESE EXCUSES" my father yelled.

(That made me really mad☝️☝️☝️ and was hard to write Also yes they're under the effect of alcohol just barley though)

"JUST SAY THAT YOU'RE LAZY AND CAN'T TAKE ANY RESPONSIBILITY"he added standing up and going near me.

He slaps me so hard, I feel my cheek turn red and tears forming.

I just run up the stairs and lock myself in my bathroom, I curl up into a ball sobbing and thinking about what they call me.

I choke out the words "I am sorry I am not the type of child you guys wanted"

A/N

AHHHHH THIS IS HARD WRITING-

ANYWAYS HOPE YOU ENJOYED :D

Here's another picture of schlatt

THE CONTEST IS IN THE MAKING :D

I also haven't read heatwaves should I?- my fate is in your hands-

ANYWAYS

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