There he was. The guy I thought of to be the one and only. He was amazing in my eyes. He was like a poison guarded a beautiful structure. He meant every thing to me at the time. But then things changed... I opened my eyes.

Realization hit me like a boulder. Everything turned horrible. I realized everything I did. I realized how much pain I caused. Just for.. a boy! He made me feel special and strong! He made me feel.. alive. He said he would never leave me. He said he always loved me. I believe I also said that to my loved ones. I believe that they always meant more to me than anything. But everything changed! And I wish I could undo every last minute every, last step, every last second. Nothing is the same now. Will it ever be? He took my soul with him. He took everything.

At first love was amazing. He loved me and took me every where. He then began tempting me and making me change. I was blinded, completely. He was perfect tho. 'Shouldn't I be happy?" I constantly asked myself. Or "Is this right?" But I did everything for him. He seemed perfect. He had cute eyes, hair, lips, body. But Thats all I based it on. All he wanted was a girl. I never looked for his personality.

He took me to places. Movies, dinner, to cabins and hotels, he took me swimming and shopping. But one place he wouldn't allow me to go to was my friends house. He made me leave my friends behind. He made me lose all contact with them, he made me switch schools and everything. I thought he was being protective. Once again he made me change. He made me run away! He made me leave my mom and dad! He said we can go to California. "Its warm there and we can start over." He would say. "But what about my family? And friends?" I would ask. "You have me. Isn't that enough?" He would question. "Well I suppose so." I would answer.

So we moved to California. And he made me change my name to Mae. He got me pregnant, he took my money, and he left. Why? But here's my long and struggling story of how I fell in love, bulldozed, and tryed to sprout like a flower but, once again I wilted in the sun. Will my life every be.. a life?