(DON'T PLAY SONG YET)

(Heh I totally didn't wake up in a walrus onesie this morning... 😅)

Star's POV

Woke up with a slight ache on my shin. There was a curtain blocking the window and going down the middle of the room. I groggily opened my eyes and rubbed the sleep away. I press the button to call the nurse. Shortly after she opened the door with a clipboard tightly tucked under her armpit.

"How feeling sweetheart? We didn't know your favourite colour so we just picked one that we thought suited you," The nurse said. I looked at the cast that was place in my aching shin. There was a lime green casing over the bright white inside of the cast. Took my fist and knocked on it gently, it was rock solid.

"Thanks for the help ma'am. It was a giant mistake and I should of found a better way to deal with it compared to the way I did," I laughed sadly gliding my finger over the cast on my left leg (If I got that wrong I apologize).

"It's not a problem we do this kind of thing all the time you're not the first kid that broke their leg," she said and I nodded. "There's a group of five people in the waiting room that would like to see you after the surgery. I was wondering if you want me to send them up?" she asked kindly as I nodded. She turned on her heels and walked out of the door.

The sound of clicks on the ground was turned faint as I heard many hospital noises fill my ears. Lots of rushing and stomping feet. Beeps of heart monitors and other machines.

The suddenly... silence... all I could hear were drops of water hitting the ground. I wasn't raining but... it sounded like tears hitting the ground. Baby's crying out at the sudden change thinking they are alone.

I closed my eyes and laid back down. I was spread out on the bed as I was getting lost in thought.

I still don't understand...

I was blessed with an amazing life but little to dead family...

Sure some good things come to an end but... when was mine?

Did it end when I was born practically killing my mother?

Will it end when I just can't take it any more?

I have limits, I'm sure of that...

But how far are they?

Are they right there? Right next to me?

Or are they so far away I can't see them?

Or are they always moving? Moving forward and back? Round and round?

Heh I wish I knew...

But I don't...

I sighed deeply keeping my eyes closed.

All I can do is hope...

Wish...

Try...

Try as hard as I can...

I'm going to test my limits.

See how far they're going to take me.

Straight to the top?

Right next to it?

Flying over it, getting completely lost?

I paused slightly inhaling shakily, exhaling sharply.

I'm probably over thinking this...

Yup that's it!

I won't be alone...

At least not forever...

I sighed again.

I'm starting to hate my thoughts...

To entertain myself I started to sing one of my favourite songs that means a lot to me...

(Scars to your beautiful by Alessia Cara)

She just wants to be beautiful
She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits,
She craves attention, she praises an image,
She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor
Oh she don't see the light that's shining
Deeper than the eyes can find it
Maybe we have made her blind
So she tries to cover up her pain, and cut her woes away
'Cause covergirls don't cry after their face is made

But there's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark

You should know you're beautiful just the way you are

And you don't have to change a thing

The world could change its heart

No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh

And you don't have to change a thing

The world could change its heart

No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

She has dreams to be an envy, so she's starving
You know, "Covergirls eat nothing."
She says, "Beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything."
"What's a little bit of hunger?"
"I could go a little while longer, " she fades away
She don't see her perfect, she don't understand she's worth it

Or that beauty goes deeper than the surface

Ah oh, ah ah oh,

So to all the girls that's hurting

Let me be your mirror, help you see a little bit clearer

The light that shines within

There's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark

You should know you're beautiful just the way you are

And you don't have to change a thing

The world could change its heart

No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

Oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

And you don't have to change a thing

The world could change its heart

No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

No better you than the you that you are (no better you than the you that you are)

No better life than the life we're living(no better life than the life we're living)

No better time for your shine, you're a star(no better time for your shine, you're a star)

Oh, you're beautiful, oh, you're beautiful

There's a hope that's waiting for you in the dark

You should know you're beautiful just the way you are

And you don't have to change a thing

The world could change its heart

No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

Whoa-oh-oh-oh, whoa-oh-oh-oh, whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh

And you don't have to change a thing

The world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we're stars and we're beautiful

I stopped singing and opened eyes, sitting up straight. I saw the door wide opened with Mason running over to me. Adam, Shelby and Max at the door. I blushed embarrassed that they heard me as Mason jumped up into the bed crawling over to my right side hugging me.

"Hi bud!" I greeted playfully putting Mason in a headlock lightly nugging him. He squealed when I got him in my grasp and I smiled. When I stopped Mason looked me in the eyes and side hugged me.

"You are good at singing Star," he said quietly with his small arms wrapped around me.

"Awe thank you Mason," I said in a baby voice and he laughed.

"I'm not a baby no more!" He protested giggling.

"Whatever dood," I smiled at him as he rested his head against my arm that I wrapped around him to keep him from falling off the bed. He laughed as I looked up at Adam with his phone out pointing the back camera at us. I could see Max out of the corner of my eye looking at me. "Where did Alesa go?" I asked Adam and he put his phone away.

"She went to sign you out," he replied looking at me and I nodded then laughed slightly. Mason lightly snored in my arms. He fell asleep and he looks adorable. Adam saw and I could hear the snap of a camera.

"Sup Shub?" I said.

"Nothin' much," she paused walking over to me taking a seat on the end of the hospital bed. "What were you going to say earlier?" She asked as my smile wavered but was still there.

"Oh I was going to tell you guys about something that was happening to me and will keep happening for a year or so," I laughed nervously using my left hand to push my scarlet/ginger hair away from my face as I changed my eyes to an emerald green slightly darker than my cast.

"And that was..." I heard Max say while I was facing Shelby. I didn't say anything but my eyes trailed down to Mason as I repositioned my grip on him pulling him farther away from the side.

"You don't have to tell us if you don't want to," Adam said as Alesa walked in.

"No you guys should know... since you can help make it easier on me," I said as a nurse walked in with  a pair of crutches.

"Okay we just need to do one last thing before you go," the nurse said then looked at everyone else. "Could you please step out for a moment?" She asked as they all nodded and walked out. Alesa came over to me and took Mason from my arms. He stirred slightly and opened his eyes as he was carried out. He looked very confused and worried. I gave him a small smile as they walked into the hallway.

"Okay so... do you know how to use a pair of crutches?" she asked and I nodded. She handed them to me when HE came into my mind.

"Can I go visit someone really quickly?" I asked and she nodded.

"Do you know the room?" She asked and I nodded. "Very well I'll tell them after we do a few more things."

(AFTER SHIZ THAT I DONT KNOW)

I was at his door. Hospital beds getting pushed by doctors made me hug the walls on the way up. I was nervous. I haven't seen him in a long time.

I stood in front of his door like an idiot. I don't know what he'll think.

Ever since his mom and dad died...

I'm not sure I can do this anymore. I need to see him but I don't want him to see me like this...

Now or never...

And I think I'll go with-

"Where do you think your going?"

Too late...