I dont know how to let out my grief.. and my SidNaaz family is the only ones who would understand what I am going through right now

My heart is still not accepting that he left us.. just like that..

Till the time the PR team did not speak up I still had hopes that it is all a rumor and he is fine..

But no.. nothing like this happened and now my heart does not know how to accept that he is no more.

It is physically hurting me to accept that my hero left us.

Now I don't know what to do.. how do I accept this please someone let me know because mujhe nahi samajh aa raha kuch.. mu mind is numb.

I have been crying since the news broke out.. but I still had hope that he will come back.. but what now?

Everytime I go to lokhandwala my eyes search for a Black BMW with 1212 number plate.. in the hope to get a glimpse of my hero.. ab i dont know what will i search for when I go there next.
Whenever I open my insta I always hope for a new picture or a video.. ab I dont know what to expect when I come online..

You know I always thought that whenever I find my partner I will show him his videos and tell him that I want someone like him..
The way he treated his baby and his mother is all i want from my partner..
Maine toh itna tak soch lia tha ke mai jab Siddharth se milungi I will tell him this..
But my wish remained unfulfilled.

As he left he took a piece of my heart with him..
I still cannot believe this.. no amount of acceptance will ever make me believe that my Hero my Siddharth is not between us..

Kitna bhi him bole lay that he has not left us.. he is still with us..
Kuch nahi hota.. the gap.. the hollow space in my heart will always be there..

Right now also when I am writing this note.. tears are still falling from my eyes..
I cannot believe God will be so cruel to us that he took someone who made me believe that love exists..
He took my only hope to hang on to the meaning of love..

But

Keeping all our griefs apart we have to stay strong for the love of his life.. his Shehnaaz
The entire fandom have to take care of her now.. because that is what Siddharth believed and now we have to stand together and make sure that his love is safeguarded.

Please whether you are a #Sidheart #Shehnazian or #SidNaazian please please let's keep him happy in his afterlife and look after whom he loved the most.
As a family which he always believed we are it is our responsibility to stand strong for his people.