The dinner was awfully painful for Hyunjin to bear. Jisung just dropped a bombshell and he didn't know how to respond. He had been waiting for the day Jisung tell him that but this was different. It was too sudden and Jisung seemed fine after saying he wanted to try dating Hyunjin. His mother kicked his leg under the table, "Hyunjin stop glaring at Jisung. Just what have he done to you?", Jisung who was eating, stopped and bit his chopstick as he stared at Hyunjin.

Hyunjin froze, he just made eye contact with Jisung, how was he supposed to cut off the eye contact? Jisung blinked innocently and grinned widely at him. He started sweating again. He didn't know where his confidence had gone too and he didn't know how Jisung could act normal after what he had just said.He pulled his gazze away from Jisung and ate in silence again before standing up and washing his plate.

"are you going to your room?", Jisung asked as he hurriedly washed his plate and followed after him. "I want to go to", Jisung said, sending an easy going smile to Hyunjin who was stuck frozen, not knowing what to do again.

Mrs.Hwang and jisung's parents gave each other confused stares, there seemed to be something different about their sons but they couldn't put it into words. Of course, they had not noticed the dispute the both of them had for the past months, the sudden change in the atmosphere around them aroused curiosity in them. Mrs.Hwang was the quick-witted one and realized what It was, she placed a hand in front of her mouth and let out a small gasp, "oh my...", she said, looking at the other parents who still seemed not to realize what was going on as the two boys went to the room upstairs.

"Hey, why are you so quiet?", Jisung asked, plopping himself on Hyunjin's soft bed. It was as comfy as he remembered it to be. Hyunjin closed the door behind him and raised an eyebrow. "Do you not like it?", Jisung tilted his head and shifted on the bed, pulling his legs up to sit cross-legged. "not like what?", Hyunjin dragged, taking out his pajama from his wardrobe.

He peeled off his jacket and threw it into his laundry basket, Jisung rested his elbow on his knee and located his cheek on his palm, "us dating", Shocked by Jisung's straightforwardness, Hyunjin found himself strangled while taking off his own clothes.

--thud!

His back hit the end of his study desk and hissed in pain, his head still covered by his shirt. Jisung stared at Hyunjin and laughed. How can Hyunjin be this clumsy. He knew he was being straightforward and it was all because he hated being complicated. He wanted to be true to himself.

He hopped off the bed and walked towards Hyunjin who was struggling with his shirt and pulled the shirt off Hyunjin easily. "thanks-"

"so, do you not like it? Us dating", Hyunjin swallowed his saliva, how was he supposed to respond to that? And dating? He didn't reject Jisung, so, did it mean they were dating now? His cheeks turned red, the idea of them actually dating right now finally came around. They were dating. "no...I like it", Hyunjin coughed out, his head tilted away as he looked at nothing particularly. "I still don't know what I feel about you", he finally looked down to Jisung who was holding his shirt.

"I never even think of liking a guy, you see", Jisung told him honestly. "but I want to figure my feeling even if I'm being selfish right now", Hyunjin nodded, he understood very well. There was no other way to explore his feeling but to use Hyunjin as a medium to find out about it. "but I'm not doing this base on nothingness. I'm not that thoughtless"

"I like you", In fact, he had always liked Hyunjin. "but I don't know if this like is the same as yours but I'm willing to try, you see?" He said as he slowly advanced towards Hyunjin. The taller took a step behind after another, Jisung wouldn't stop moving forward and it left him no more space to step back to. "I'm saying is, I'm willing to like you. I'm not forcing myself or anything." then he added, "then, are you fine with this arrangement?"

Hyunjin nodded. How can he reject Jisung anyway? Whatever it was, Hyunjin was always ready to agree with any decision Jisung made but now, it was quite hard to talk about that. How could he when Jisung was cornering him while he was half-naked? He had changed in front of Jisung because he was used to doing it in front of Jisung but he didn't think it will be like this. Jisung musthad seen his red face and leaned even closer, "Ji...c-can you move away a bit? I want to..erm, change into my pajama"

Jisung retreated and nodded, throwing Hyunjin's shirt into his laundry basket. "I will...change in the bathroom", Hyunjin immediately grabbed his pajamas and ran into the bathroom before Jisung could say anything.

Once the boy was alone, he sat on the bed again and sighed. He wanted to do this but it seemed like it will be hard to adjust himself with it. Even Hyunjin seemed awkward but he had nothing to lose and he thought he could try it with Hyunjin. In some way, you could say he was exploiting Hyunjin's feelings for him but he was sure that he saw Hyunjin more than just a friend, more than just a best friend. It didn't seem abrupt at all. Maybe he had liked Na-Eun just a couple of weeks ago but he had been with Hyunjin's for years. Compared to Hyunjin, him liking Na-Eun seemed to be more forced.

Hyunjin was taking his sweet time in the shower, he knew the boy either ended up overthinking again or he just showered in there but the minutes waiting for Hyunjin to come out made him sleepy. He gave in to his heavy eyelids and slept. It had been a long day for him and Hyunjin. It was really exhausting and he still had to talk with his parents about his future, not to mention the talk he will have with his teammates and coach.

It seemed like he was going to take a long break even though he was healing fast. He had time to really get to know himself.

--click!

Hyunjin walked out of the bathroom, refreshed after a shower and saw Jisung sleeping soundly on his bed. His eyes gazed at Jisung gently again. He really could not hide his adoration for Jisung. What happened between them felt like a fever dream, it still felt like a dream to him. He couldn't say he was not worried when Jisung wanted to date him even though he was uncertain of his own feeling but he decided to believe Jisung again. Jisung was willing to like him...he wanted to hold into that small hope that Jisung will like him back.

Hyunjin lifted Jisung's body and placed him properly on the left side of the bed before drying his hair and slept next to Jisung. He was glad he met Jisung today. It felt nice to be with Jisung again, to hear his laughter and to see his smile again. He felt happy when Jisung talked to him, when Jisung didn't try to avoid him anymore. He missed this. He didn't know how it was possible to miss someone when that person was right next to him. All he knew was, the more he looked at Jisung, the more he loved the guy. It was hard not to fall for him especially when he was this lovely. 

He had been foolish for the past months, he should stop being a coward and face what will happen to them.

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Is it uwu time? I dunno-hunny