Worry, it was a feeling Jisung could not get rid of no matter what he do. He might hid it well with his bright smile and cheerful laughter but he couldn't lie to himself that even he try to compose himself, when faced something out of the usual, he will be very nervous.

He knew Felix might be somewhere doing just fine but his constant negative thoughts wouldn't stop him from being concerned. Felix was a free spirit, he goes everywhere his feet drag him to and that was why Jisung was worried Felix might drag himself into danger.

He called Felix over a dozen times but when none of the calls came through, he called his other two friends who also did not answer him.

Jisung bit his lips, people walking around him and the noisiness of the festival made him angry.

As a person, he worry more than he should and couldn't control his emotion. He was a person who couldn't convey his emotion well and when his concern overloaded, it usually turned aggressive.

However, more than wanting punch a random thing, he felt like he would punch the hell out of Felix if he find the boy right now and there was he, sitting and laughing just fine in a dating booth with Changbin.

Jisung stopped running, his chest raised up and down unevenly. He...

"Ya! Lee Felix!", Jisung angrily yelled as he trotted towards the red haired boy. "Oh, Jisung-ah!", Felix happily said, failing to see the irritated expression on Jisung's face. "What is happening here?"

"Oh...I met changbin on the way to Hyunjin's stall. Why?", Changbin observed Jisung's face and noticed the bead of sweats rolling from his forehead. "You...why did you call me?"

Felix tilted his head. "I didn't call you though... I must have pressed it by mistake. Sorry but why are you like that? Did you run all the way here?"

Jisung threw his head back and yelled to the sky, students giving him side glanced as Felix covered his mouth. "Are you crazy?! Why are you yelling here out of all place?"

"Then...why didn't you answer my phone call?", Felix took out his phone and showed it to Jisung. "It died...I was taking too much selfie that I didn't realize it was dying"  why was I even worried?

"But why are you yelling at me like that?", Jisung shook his head. He really didn't want to get angry with Felix. "So, what are you guys going to do now?" Jisung asked them.

"You were with Seungmin and Jeongin weren't you? Can you hangout with them. I haven't seen Changbin for a week...I want to be alone with him", Jisung licked his upper lips and smiled. "Okay". He turned around and walked away.

Do you know other than his bad traits of not being able to control his emotion? On top of that, he had another bad habit...not being able to say no.

Why is this happening to me? I was worried like an idiot turns out it's nothing. He was frustrated. Infrutated beyond any words. Had it not been for his friends, he wouldn't have gone here. Had it not been for the sake of seeing Na-Eun he also wouldn't be here but nothing seemed to go his way. "I thought I could spend some times with them at least".

—pop!

Jisung looked up, firecrackers going off. It was such a beautiful scene but it seemed melancholic to Jisung. "It should be empty right now, right?"

He walked aimlessly by himself until he reached the student lounge. Just like how he had expected it to be, it was empty. "Everyone is excited about the festival...but I'm not" Jisung sighed, sitting on the sofa before he started drowning himself with thoughts again. He suddenly missed the cozy room of his back at home where his mother would constantly nagged him for not coming out of the room, the soft hugs he received from Hyunjin and the usual jokes he made with Na-Eun. He started to remeninse all the good memories which he experienced so far.

The he started to think about all the negative thoughts.

Today, he had to attend something he didn't want to attend, do the things he didn't want to do, see just how wishful he was about Na-Eun. The more he spent his time with her, the more he realized that she wasn't meant for him. Was Felix the last blow?  It just...he knew the boy didn't mean it but he still felt insignificant. It wasn't a big deal and Jisung didn't think Felix did anything wrong.

—click!

He snapped his eyes open and turned around. "Ah...I thought nobody would be here", it was Kevin.

Jisung closed his eyes back, he didn't want to interact with this person now. Just ignore me "Han Jisung?"

Kevin laughed, clapping his hands. "Waah, I thought you would be somewhere really loud. I wouldn't think I would find you here", Jisung frowned but he didn't open his eyes. He just let Kevin rambled on his own. "Does Hyunjin know you're here?"

Jisung finally opened his eyes, glaring at Kevin. "Get out before I punch you in the face. I'm not in the mood", Kevin held his hands on the air. "Ah...are you guys on bad terms now?"

"I mean. Of course, he is going after the same girl as you. It would be weird to stay friendly after that", Jisung threw a pillow at him and Kevin easily avoided it. " I really didn't know that we would be on the same side today", Jisung scoffed. This psycho must be tired of life. How dare he says bullshits like this?

"What? Same side? How are you and me on the same side?", Kevin shrugged. "Well, why do you think? He's always beating me at everything...now he beats you at getting that girl. What do you think? It's annoying isn't it?"

Jisung laughed out loud. Kevin was one funny guy. He pointed at the other's face. "Annoying? You're more annoying, you piece of shit"

"Just what do you want?" Kevin sneered, he folded his hand and tilted his head. "Well, I'm just saying I would be a substitute best friend for you"

"Huh?",

Kevin waved his hand around. It was easy, how could Jisung not see it. " Isn't it nice to be best friends with with your comrade? We're the same now. We both hate Hwang Hyunjin"

"I don't hate him", sure he didn't but he still didn't quite like Hyunjin right now. "Keep lying to yourself"

"Do you still want to be friend with someone who would throw you away for a girl?", Jisung swallowed his saliva. Hyunjin would never do that to him. Kevin was just playing with him. He was trying to mess his mind up. "So, if that time come around...I would be your substitute best friend. What do you think...deal?"

Jisung glared at Kevin. "I would take that as a yes. I will go now. I should find an empty place to rest"

After Kevin left, Jisung was stuck in another dilemma. He felt childish for believing in Kevin for a millisecond but he felt more childish for treating Hyunjin like he wasn't his friend for 8 years just because he also liked Na-Eun.

He fished out his phone and texted Hyunjin in their kakaotalk chat.

—hyunjin, let's meet up tommorow and talk.

Then he dropped his phone, waiting for a reply but it never come. Would he really leave me for Na-Eun. Jisung was foolish. The moment he knew Hyunjin liked Na-Eun too, he had actually give up but he lied to himself because of his ego.

How could he just throw away his 8 years pain and joy with Hyunjin just like that— just like a box of old broken stuff that nobody wanted to have.

Jisung shook his head, picking himself up. He had gathered his thought and if Hyunjin wouldn't answer his text, then he would just go to Hyunjin as always.

He walked out of the student lounge, looking around with narrowed eyes to make sure Kevin wasn't around before he exit the building.

He winced at the noisiness of the festival but he beared in mind, Hyunjin wasn't going to answer him and went to search for the taller guy.

He looked up, the fireworks still going off. "Na-Eun", Jisung snapped his head towards the voice. It was a familiar voice calling a familiar name.

Jisung's heart was suddenly filled with uneasiness, his stomach felt like it was tied in a knot as he walked closer to the source of voice.

Right behind of an empty stall, he saw Hyunjin and Na-Eun standing front to front. Na-Eun's cheeks were dusted with rosy blush which made her flusher than usual. "Let's date"

Jisung lowered his head. He should have seen this coming. He was broken hearted but if Na-Eun agreed and they became a couple, who was he to tell them off? He would be the insane one among them.

Deciding that it wasn't his business to mind with, he turned around wanting to leave but not when Hyunjin continued. "You don't like Jisung, do you?" He asked when Na-Eun wasn't replying.

"I don't know what you feel about Jisung but I'm telling you, I'm willing to sacrifice anything to be with you. If you like him, I could even leave him to fight you back", Then it came and Jisung regretted trying to search for Hyunjin.

Was this how it felt? Being thrown away like a box of old broken stuff nobody wanted? Those old memories, didn't sound like Hyunjin wanted them, did he?

Jisung left, he didn't want to hear Na-Eun's response. Not when he knew he would crumble down and broken into pieces when he verbally hear her rejection.

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Are we going angsty y'all? Yesh -hunny