"Cause I can't keep sleeping in your bed

If you keep messing with my head

Before I slip under your sheets

Can you give me something, please?

I can't keeping touching you like this

If its just temporary bliss

Just temporary bliss"

--

They were back together... like nothing happened. They would go out by day and fuck by night. Sen can't call it making love 'cause it seems like there's no love involved... from her side, at least.

Mahal na mahal nya naman ito kaya kahit anong gusto nito ay sinusunod nya.

There are times that he wanted to see her but he can't. And he has no choice but to accept the fact that her world does not revolve around him.

Masakit mang isipin pero yun ang totoo. Yung hindi sya ganoon kaimportante para dito.

It's been two days since they last saw each other. Miss na miss nya na ito but she's too far away. She's in Boracay with some friends habang sya, naiwan sa Manila, nagtatrabaho.

One night, he checked out her Facebook. Stalker kase sya. Slightly on the verge of obsession na nga. Gusto nya kanya lang si Charlie... hindi nya alam kung bakit. Mapagbigay syang tao... but with her, ayaw nya ng may kahati.

And it so happened na ang bumungad sa kanyang litrato ay ang ang kuha kay Charlie at sa isang lalaki na magkahalikan. His heartbeat raced in anger.

Kakukuha lang ng litrato 5 hours ago. Sunset. People were dancing around them as they were kissing torridly. Nakakawit ang braso ng dalaga sa lalaki habang ito naman ay nakakapit sa bewang ng dalaga.

He can't take it. He just couldn't take it. He picked up his laptop and hauled it to the wall. It crashed and was immediately destroyed. Hindi pa nakuntento, Sen went to the wall and punched it until the bones on his hand were equally crushed.

Nang hindi na nya kaya, he resigned on the floor and let his tears fall. Among all the relationships he's had, ito yung pinakamasakit.

Kung kelan sya pinakang-nagmamahal, saka naman sya pinagmumukhang gago.

Gusto na nyang tumigil pero hindi nya kaya. Hindi nya kayang lumayo...

--

Charlie went back a day after that. Upon her return, he immediately got a text message from her saying that she wants to see him. He stopped himself from replying.

Mag-gagabi na ng makarinig siya ng katok sa pinto.

"Earl?"

Napapikit na lamang siya ng marinig ang pamilyar na boses ng kasintahan. He missed her, terribly. Pero ayaw nya munang makita ito.

Baka kase masaktan nya ito ng wala sa oras kagaya ng paulit-ulit nitong pananakit sa kanya.

"Hey, I know you're in there. Come one, let me in. I missed you!" Bakas sa boses nito ang tuwa. But he's not really sure if she's happy because of him.

Baka nagsawa lang ito dun sa lalaking nakahalikan nito sa Boracay. And knowing that she have someone like him na alam nitong tangang maghihintay para dito, masaya ito.

Palagi kase itong may option. Sya lang ang walang choice kundi ang maghintay. Maghintay na babalikan ng dalaga....

"Babe? Didn't you miss me?"

Napahugot ng malalim na buntong-hininga ang lalaki bago sya tumayo para pagbuksan ng pinto si Charlie.

"Ohmy--what happened to your hand?" bulalas nito nang makita ang kamay niya.

He didn't answer. Bagkus ay niyakap na lamang niya ito. "Namiss din kita... sobra," mahina nyang sabi.

Kumawala ito sa kanya. She held his face with her hands and kissed him full on the mouth. Remembering the kiss that he saw on the picture, naitulak nya ito ng mahina.

"Don't kiss me with the same lips that you used to kiss other men."

Nanlaki ang mata ng dalaga sa narinig. "How did you--" Hindi nito naituloy ang sasabihin nang makita ang laptop niyang sira na nakakalat sa sahig. "About that..."

He sighed. "Don't lie to me Charlie. I've had enough."

Hindi ito nakasagot.

"Alam mo bang sawang-sawa na 'ko sa mga pinaggagagawa mo? And yet, here I am... still at your mercy. Mahal kase kita eh. It's too bad you can't say the same."

Hinawakan nito ang kamay nya. "Come on. I'll take you to the hospital. Mukhang malala na yang kamay mo."

He shrugged her hand off. "No, I'll live. Mas masakit pa nga dito yung mga pinaggagagawa mo eh. Ikinamatay ko ba?"

"Earl please... let's not fight. I'm tired and--"

"Yeah. It's all about you, isn't it? Lahat dapat ayon sa gusto mo. Pano naman ako Charlie? Hindi ba mahalaga yung nararamdaman ko?"

"I'm sorry, okay? Let's not fight," pakiusap nito sa kanya.

"We're not fighting," mahinahon niyang sagot. "I'm voicing out my feelings. Pakinggan mo naman ako."

Kumawit ito sa balikat niya. "Can we communicate in other ways?" she asked in a seductive manner.

Earl grimaced, Here we go again. Naaasiwa na sya minsan. Was sex all there is to them? Kapag nag-away, mag-sex na lang para tapos na. Kapag may hindi masabi, idaan sa sex.

Para silang tanga.

Tinanggal niya ang braso ng dalaga sa balikat niya. "Go home Charlie."

"Earl..."

"We'll talk tomorrow. I'm tired."

"Babe..."

Naupo sya sa couch at binuksan ang TV thru a remote. Naiwang nakatayo ang dalaga sa may pintuan... watching him... waiting for him to do something.

But he ignored her completely.

Sighing, Charlie walked out the door and left.