Warning: long chapter.

As Soonyoung ran all the way home, the tears wouldn't stop rushing down his cheeks. Whenever he tried to get his mind off of Jihoon, it would randomly wander back onto him with out himself realizing it.

As Soonyoung laid in his bed, his head hurt from how much crying he was doing. He was heavily breathing, trying to catch his breath when he remembered something.

He remembered how those men said he had an option to go live with his father.

"I-If I go with my dad, I'll be away from Jihoon..." Sooyoung thought to himself, tears still rushing down his cheeks.

After an hour or two, Soonyoung had finally stopped crying, but his aching heart wouldn't stop hurting.

The pain in his chest was turning, it was like a sharp knife was peircing him.

He got the strength to get up and head to the kitchen where he opened the fridge, trying to find something to eat.

As Soonyoung was looking around, he saw some Chinese food left over from another day and a turning pain was in his stomach.

He was reminded of all the times him and Jihoon had Chinese food together.

He quickly shut the fridge door and walked sluggishly to the couch where he laid on his back, staring at the ceiling.

Soonyoung felt that everything for him was done, his heart kept hurting and he felt like his world was coming crumbling down around him.

"I-I even called him a fag..." Soonyoung faintly says to himself, upset with what he had called Jihoon back at school.

With the next day arriving, Soonyoung didn't want to go to school. He wanted to stay home and lay down all day but he knew he had to face this problem one day.

Soonyoung slowly and sluggishly got ready, not wanting to deal with anything the day was going to bring for him.

As Soonyoung got to school, Chan had a worried expression on his face, asking "are you okay Soonyoung?"

Even though Soonyoung 'got ready' for school, his hair was still a mess, he had bags under his eyes and he looked sick.

Soonyoung noddes to Chan meaning he was okay but Chan didn't believe him.

"Well you don't look alright" Chan says, trying to keep the conversation up with Soonyoung, but Soonyoung ignored him.

As Soonyoung sat down at his desk, he held his head in his hand and looked down blankly, just staring at the desk.

"S-Soonyoung" Soonyoung heard a faint voice call, and as he looked up it was Jihoon.

With Jihoon standing before him, he didn't know how to feel. He felt anrgy, sad, betrayed, depressed. Emotions were fuming inside him.

"Get away from me..." Soonyoung faintly says in an angry tone. He didn't want to see or talk to Jihoon, that is until he cleared his head and got over him.

"Soonyoung...I know you think I'm disgusting but" Jihoon says.

Soonyoung cut him off, then saying "you are disgusting. Get away from me, don't talk to me again." Soonyoung says in a firm tone.

It wasn't like Soonyoung wanted Jihoon out of his life forever, Soonyoung himself didn't even know why he was saying all of this.

Jihoon didn't know what to say to Soonyoung. He had a depressed expression on his face before turning around and walking away.

Soonyoung watched Jihoon walk away from him and bit his bottom lip.

"What do you think happened with them?" A girl from behind Soonyoung asks her friend who was beside her.

"I don't know, they were like, the closest friends in our class" her friend replies, confused herself.

Chan was also looking back at Soonyoung confused, and then looked at Jihoon who had stormed out of the classroom.

As Jihoon was storming out of the classroom, Seokmin was passing by and says "hey Jihoon, where're you rushing off to? Our classroom is that way." Seokmin says, pointing in the opposite direction Jihoon was going in.

"I don't want to talk to you right now Seokmin." Jihoon says in an angry tone, still storming off.

"What, why not?" Seokmin asks, a bit confused on where Jihoon was going.

"Because you ruined everything!" Jihoon exclaims, yelling at Seokmin while looking at him seriously.

Seokmin was a bit startled by Jihoon's sudden yelling and looked around to see a couple of students who were in the hallway, looking at the two of them weirdly.

"Come on, let's go somewhere else to talk." Seokmin says in a aseroius tone, grabbing Jihoon and bringing him behind the school where they could talk things out.

"So how did I ruin everything?" Seokmin asks, standing in front of Jihoon.

Jihoon sighed while saying "I thought you told me you'd help me get together with Soonyoung, now he hates my guts!" Jihoon excliams, tears filling his eyes.

"Hey, I didnt know he'd walk in at that exact moment!" Seokmin says, trying to defend himself.

"I told you it was a stupid thing for you helping me 'practice' kissing for Soonyoung!"

"I didn't know he would walk in, jeez! How many times do I have to say it!? I'm sorry Jihoon, what can I do to make it up to you?" Seokmin asks.

"I don't know...Soonyoung keeps calling me disgusting...he even called me a fag. I can't just say I'm not a homosexual because be saw me kissing you. So what should I say?"

"I don't know..."

"You don't know? You're one of the pieces to the puzzle on why Soonyoung hates me! You have to help me out!" Jihoon says in a serious, angry tone.

Seokmin sighed, turning around as he says "Jihoon, I already apologized to you. I don't know what else to do, especially with the Soonyoung problem. And in my opinion, if he was really your friend, he'd except you and your sexual orientation no matter what." Seokmin says before walking away.

Jihoon stood behind the school and was thinking about what Seokmin had said. He was right that if Soonyoung was his true friend, he would except him. So he was confused on what to do.

As lunch time came, Soonyoung glanced at the table he always sat at with Jihoon, and Jihoon was sitting alone waiting for him.

As both of them made eye contact, Soonyoung's heart hurt and he turned his head away, going to the table Chan was eating at.

"Hey Soonyoung... Are you alright?" Chan asks, once again. Anyone could clearly see that Soonyoung was depressed about something. He just wouldn't tell anyone what that 'something' was.

Soonyoung nodded his head meaning someone was wrong and Chan looked at Soonyoung with a serious expression. "What is it?" Chan asks.

Since Seungcheol, Hansol and Seungkwan were also at the table, he leaned over and whispered into Chan's ear "I saw Jihoon and Seokmin kissing in the music room after school yesterday."

"You what!?" Chan exclaims, looking at Soonyoung shocked and the three other boys sitting across from them were looking at them both weird.

"We'll be right back" Chan says, grabbing Soonyoung's wrist and bringing him out of the cafeteria.

"So what's up with Jihoon and Seokmin kissing!?" Chan asks, still shocked himself from hearing it.

"I don't know...I was waiting outside to apologize to Jihoon yesterday for the stupid fight we had. I didn't want to be mad at him anymore so I waited, and waited, and waited."

"Slowly all the other music club members were coming out but Jihoon and Seokmin never did. So I went there to get Jihoon myself when I walked in on them basically eating each other's faces!" Soonyoung explains.

Just explaining the situation made his heart hurt and Chan could tell he was hurting.

"Well Soonyoung, it's not called 'eating each others face's' it's called 'making out.'" Chan explains in a chuckle, trying to make Soonyoung laugh but he didn't even giggle.

Chan bit his bottom lip, he didn't like seeing Soonyoung so depressed and hugged him tightly.

"Its okay Soonyoung, its alright" Chan faintly says, rubbing Soonyoung back and Soonyoung hugged Chan tighter.

He was sliently crying into Chan's shoulder as he says in the watery, sad tone "I-I didn't know a broken heart could hurt so bad."

Chan sighed as he just kept hugging Soonyoung. He didn't know what to say. He wanted to cheer Soonyoung up, but he thought it was best if he just cried it out for now.

After the good six minutes of them hugging and student passing by them were looking at the weirdly, and they separated. "You know, my first love didn't like me back either."

Soonyoung now looked up at Chan while wiping tears away from his eyes. Curious on Chan's story. "What happened?"

"Well obviously I got rejected, the guy was straight so what would you expect. It was actually last year this happened."

"Last year...but didn't you and Seungcheol start dating last year?"

"We did, that was a month after I got rejected. I met Seungcheol on some online dating thing. You should try widening your horizons. Try different things, the best thing to do is get Jihoon out of your head." Chan says, still looking at Soonyoung seriously.

Soonyoung nodded meaning Chan was right and says a faint "alright...I'll try."

The end of the day came, but as Soonyoung got home, the same car was in his driveway from last time and he hurried inside to see if if was those two men again.

As Soonyoung ran into the dining room, he saw his father and was a bit taken aback.

"D-Dad, what're you doing here?" Soonyoung asks, a bit shocked to see his father.

"I just wanted to know your answer. Soonyoung I know it'll be a lot to take in because you'll have to adapt to the new environment, not to mention try making new friends. I know how close you and Jihoon are too."

As his father mentioned Jihoon, Soonyoung flinched and looked down at his feet.

His father then continues to say "but I think it's better you have an adult figure in your life while your mother is in the hospital. You can't always be left alone. I need an answer."

Just thinking about his father's offer got him stumped. He then thought about Jihoon and how he kissed Seokmin and his chest started to hurt.

"Its better if I leave...I have to try and clear my mind from Jihoon..." Soonyung thought to himself, looking up at his father and nodding his head meaning he'd leave with him.

"That's great, go up stairs and start packing your things. You'll leave tonight with me." Soonyoung's father says in a smile before his cell phone started to ring and he quickly answered it.

As Soonyoung went into his bedroom, just thinking about being separated from Jihoon hurt his heart even more, but he wanted to get over him. "This is for the best..." Soonyoung thought to himself.

Once Soonyoung was done packing all his things, he knew he couldn't leave without saying anything to Jihoon. As much as it hurt him, he wanted to give something to Jihoon to remember him by.

Not as the person who called him a disgusting fag, but as his friend.

He made a note, writing down all his feelings excluding his loving feelings towards him. He just wrote down about their friendship and how Jihoon was always a good friend to him.

With the note, Soonyoung wanted to give Jihoon something and was searching for something to give him, when a certain object caught his eye.

It was a rabbit plushie from when the two of them went to the carnival together when they were younger.

Jihoon's mother brought the two of them because they kept begging and Soonyoung saw that rabbit which caught his eye.

He wanted the rabbit so bad, he started crying because whenever he tried playing the game to win the rabbit, he would always lose.

Jihoon then tried winning the rabbit for him and hs was persistent.

Jihoon waisted all his carnival tickets trying to get Soonyoung that rabbit. At the memory of it, Soonyoung started to tear up and put it with the letter.

He then walked over to Jihoon's house, knocking on the front door when Jihoon's mother opened it.

"Oh hello Soonyoung, you haven't been over in a while." Jihoon's mother says in a smile.

"Um yeah, is Jihoon home?" Soonyoung asks, looking past Jihoon's mother's shoulder to see if he could see him.

"Oh not yet, I think he's still in that music club he just joined. Why?"

"It's just that I'm moving in with my dad so I won't be living here anymore, or going to the same school as Jihoon anymore. I wanted to say bye and I have something to give him." Soonyoung explains.

"You're moving in with your dad!? Jihoon's going to be so upset...well you can put what you brought for him in his bedroom." Jihoon's mother says, moving to a side to let Soonyoung inside.

Soonyoung bowed to Jihoon's mother thanking her and walking up to Jihoon's bedroom.

As Soonyoung got into Jihoon's room, the room was filled with Jihoon's scent.

"I'm going to miss him..." Soonyoung thought to himslef, putting his note and rabbit on Jihoon's bed before going back to his house where his father was waiting for him in the car.

"Bring your things down and we'll go" Soonyoung's father says to him and Soonyoung nodded meaning okay.

Once Soonyoung brought everything down, he got into the front seat of the car and Soonyoung's father drove to his house.

On the way there, Soonyoung saw Jihoon walking home with Seokmin beside him but kept staring at him.

Jihoon noticed Soonyoung and looked back at him. Soonyoung waved bye to him through the window and Jihoon was confused.

He didn't get the chance to wave goodbye back because they car went by too fast for him to get the chance.

As Jihoon got home, his mother told him everything and Jihoon was in total disbelief.

His heart dropped, he didn't want to except the fact that Soonyoung just left and he ran to Soonyoung's house, pounding on the front door in tears.

He knew no one would answer, he even saw Soonyoung driving away in his car but he didn't want Soonyoung to leave.

Soonyoung was his only, true friend and it broke his heart even more that he left.

As Jihoon was done bawling in front of Soonyoung's house, he went back to his house and went into his bedroom to see the note and rabbit and quickly read it.

Tears started to rush down his cheeks again while reading the letter. "S-Soonyoung...why!?" Jihoon asks himself in sadness.

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THIS IS NOT THE LAST CHAPTER! This fan fiction is not done, there is still a lot of drama that happens. I wouldn't end this with 9 chapters. Anyway, thank you for reading ~