Dear Freddie,

 I don't mean any offense to you or any other guys I've been with when I say this, but the greatest love of my life will always be Stefan Salvatore.

 When he first came back to Mystic Falls and we met, and I asked him out and he turned me down. He was way to interested in Elena at the time to be romantically interested in me. It's pretty ironic that we wound up together later on.

 That's not to say we didn't have relationship problems, because we did. We had a lot of them, but we loved each other, and we wanted to be together. I think that counted for a lot.

 I was ecstatic when Stefan proposed to me. I thought we were going to live forever together as husband and wife. But then he was turned human again, and that changed everything. I thought we were pretty much broken up, but Stefan proposed to me again, and I accepted it. Even if he wasn't going to live forever, at least we would have some years together, and that meant a lot to me.

 When Stefan sacrificed himself to save the town, I didn't know he was going to get himself killed. He gave up his own life without telling me first, but if he had told me everything, I probably couldn't have stopped him. He lost his life on what was supposed to be our wedding night.

 Losing a love like that takes its toll, and I'm scared to lose someone like that again, that they'll go off and get themselves without me ever knowing. It scares me, and it always will.

                                                                                                          Love,
                                                                                                          Caroline