Warnings: Slut shaming, mentions of abortion, self harm and bullying

Ever since I told Gerard, Mikey, Ray, and Frank about what happened two years ago and Gerard seeing the faint scars and healing cuts on my arms they have been even more protective.

I'm sitting with Gerard in Art and we have to draw what our emotions are. My emotions, well, they are all over the place thanks to a certain hazel-eyed punk boy. I try to pick one but I can't so I groan and lay my head on my arms.

"What's wrong sugar?" Gerard whispers looking over at me.

"This fucking subject since drawing emotions is impossible. They are stupid to have." I whisper back and turn my head so I am looking at him.

"I know it's hard but what is your strongest emotion. Whatever that is draw that." He says then shows me a really cool drawing of a woman in a tattered dress with a gas mask on.

"Wow, she's beautiful. What emotion does she portray?" I ask.

"This is mother war. She portrays hatred and feeling alone." Gerard says. Wait is that how he feels?

"Gee is that how you feel?" I ask. He looks at me shocked and shakes his head.

"No not how I feel. How I used to feel until I met Ray and Frank. Then when I met you it made all the loneliness disappear." He says smiling at me. I hug him making him chuckle then know exactly what I can draw.

As the bell rings I look down at my half finished drawing and smile because I have been drawing the four boys. I have only really done the outlines and a couple of features on them.

"What's that sugar?" Gerard asks as we pack up the supplies.

"Wait and see Geebear." I say making him chuckle and shake his head. I smile at him then put the picture into my binder and put it into my backpack.

As I walk down the corridor with Gerard we hear a commotion and I throw Gerard 'that look' then we walk towards the commotion. When we get closer I feel anger boil and storm over to the fuckers who have Mikey pinned to the locker.

"Put him the fuck down before I break every fucking bone in your pathetic bodies." I growl. One of the guys turns around and I roll my eyes. I should have fucking known.

"Well, if it isn't the girl who sluts herself between four guys? Coming to rescue one of your fuck buddies?" Ashley asks with a sickening smirk on his face.

"You're just jealous because you won't ever get the chance to have this ass." I sass as I cross my arms over my chest and glare at him. I hear people whispering but I don't give a fuck.

"Oh sweet cheeks you know you want this." Ashley says as he runs his hand down his body. Ha he fucking wishes.

"I would rather fuck a corpse than you Purdy. As for you Biersack I notice you haven't said anything yet. Where are your balls? Have they been chopped off?" I ask sarcastically making Andy glare at me.

"You better watch your mouth you little whore. Your father was fucking crazy to accept you as his perfect daughter." Andy growls. I feel tears sting my eyes but there is no way in fucking hell I am letting this asshole see me cry.

"You better take that fucking back Biersack or you will get your fucking ass beat along with Purdy." I look behind me to see Frank and Gerard both glaring at Ashley and Andy.

"Whatever Way. Enjoy the little whore while you can. I know you Iero will get bored of her like you did with Jennifer. It's no wonder she came to me." Andy says with a smirk on his face. Oh hell fucking no. I go to fly for Andy until Gerard and Frank grab me then Frank holds me close to his chest. I feel my breathing get heavier as I hold back tears. No one and I mean fucking no one gets away with insulting two of my friends like that. Especially when one of them is my crush.

"Calm down Angel. He isn't worth getting yourself suspended for." Frank whispers but it just infuriates me even more.

"Frank let me go." I growl as I push against his chest trying to get him to let me go but he holds me even tighter.

"Not until you calm down so I know you won't kill someone." He says calmly. Fucking hell what an asshole. I take a deep breath and huff as Frank slightly loosens his arms around me. I look up at him to see he is staring straight at Andy with a fire in his eyes I have never seen before. He told me to calm down. Fucking hypocrite. He looks down at me and I see that one look I know all too well.

He leans down and presses his lips roughly against mine taking me by surprise but I melt into the kiss anyway. He slides his hands down to my waist as I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him closer while deepening the kiss and making him moan. He pulls my waist closer and I feel his semi hard cock against his school trousers. I suck on his lip piercing making him tremor slightly then he slides his tongue into my mouth completely dominating the kiss.

As we part I look up into his eyes to see they are blown with lust then look around the corridor to see people with either a look of shock or one of jealousy. I look over at Andy and Ashley to see they both have a look of a mixture between anger, shock and jealousy. I smirk at them before looking back at Frank to see he is also looking at them with a smirk on his cherry red lips.

"Well, now that show is over maybe we should get to our next class." Ray says from behind Frank. I giggle then peck Frank's swollen lips before taking his hand and heading to Advanced Biology.

For the rest of the day I hear people whispering about what happened in the corridor making me roll my eyes. Jeez I swear it's like being on some reality show. I go to walk out of the school with Mikey, Frank, Gerard, and Ray then spot Chelsea, Jennifer, Andy, and Ashley standing by my locker. What the fuck do these fuckers want this time?

"Well, well, well, would you look at that? The whore and her fuck buddies return. Didn't you have enough earlier sweet cheeks?" Andy asks as he puts his arm around Jennifer's waist.

"Not really. You didn't put up much of a fight Biersack. Purdy is the one who was giving it the big man only to be shut up with a few actions. What have you got this time?" I ask then feel Frank kiss my temple as he tightens his arm around my waist.

"Frank isn't even that good in bed. Andy is so much better." Jennifer says with a smirk and I try not to laugh at her.

"Wow, that hurt." Frank sasses making Gerard, Mikey, Ray, and I snicker as the smirk on her face falls into a scowl.

"You know that's why every girlfriend you get cheats on you." Ashley says. I feel Frank tense up so I turn to look at him and stroke his cheek.

"I would rather have someone who isn't a selfish lover than someone who needs his ego to get laid." I say as I turn to look at mainly Andy with a smirk on my face. Jennifer goes to lunge for me until Frank pushes me behind him and Gerard catches me.

"You will not fucking touch her." Frank growls as he glares at Jennifer making her step back.

The group eventually walks away and Frank turns around and looks at me then he lets me go. I wrap my arms around his neck then tiptoe and press my lips to his. He carefully walks me backwards and I hit my locker making me groan and he pulls away to check to see if I'm okay. I giggle at him and shake my head at how cute and attentive he is which I find it really fucking attractive and sweet.

As we get close to Donna's I see my mother is once again standing on the doorstep looking over at the house. Fucking hell she has a screw loose I swear.

"Is that your mother?" Mikey asks. I nod then sigh.

"Unfortunately yes. I don't understand why she won't give up. I have told her I'm never going back to live with her." I say as the four boys make the wall around me so my mother doesn't see me.

"Gerard, Mikey, Frank, Ray. Have you seen Becky?!" My mother calls over and I freeze.

"No ma'am. We haven't seen her since she left. Maybe she went back to Vegas to see her father!" Frank calls over to my mother. Frank Iero you smart motherfucker.

I peer over Gerard's shoulder to see my mother not really looking that worried or sad which makes my blood boil. Well, I guess she doesn't care about me as much as she claims she does. I poke Gerard's shoulder and the four of them start walking again until we reach Donna's front door. As Gerard opens the door I walk in and go straight to Gerard's bedroom. She is putting on some fucking act around others but in reality I bet she is fucking glad I'm not there anymore. I lay on the bed and sigh as I look up at the black painted ceiling and silently let the tears fall down my cheeks.

"Sugar are you okay?" Gerard asks as the four of them enter the bedroom. I look over at them not caring that I am crying because of a woman who is supposed to be my mother doesn't care about me.

"She didn't even look that worried or upset at all. She didn't even question Frank as to why I would have gone to see my father. She doesn't fucking care Gee." I say as a sob leaves my lips. Both Frank and Gerard sit either side of me.

"I guess she is just dealing with it in her ow..." Gerard says before Frank shakes his head.

"I know that look all too well Gerard because of my mother. Becky's mother doesn't really care but is acting like she does. Basically Becky is not worth her time." Frank says. He isn't wrong. I've never been my mother's number one priority. It was always either going out or spending my father's money. I look at Frank and he strokes my cheek making my eyes flutter closed. He isn't wrong about my mother and he understands which is why I feel something more than just a silly little crush. This feels like love.

I was in love once when I was fourteen with a guy in my History class at Nevada Academy. His name; Ronnie Radke. He was this punk boy who didn't give a fuck. He had deep brown eyes, long black hair, a few tattoos and had his own band; Escape The Fate. He broke my heart when I told him how I felt. Since then I have been too proud to tell anyone how I feel.

"So what are we going to do now?" Mikey asks and my eyes flutter open.

"I don't know. I guess I will have to face her at some point." I say closely followed by a sigh.

"When you do would you like us there with you Angel?" Frank asks. I look into his hazel-green eyes then shake my head.

"No. She hates all of you so I will go alone." I say. Frank nods then presses his lips to my forehead leaving a warm tingle in its wake. I lean my head on his shoulder while Gerard and Mikey bicker over which game to play making me giggle slightly.

"Why not play Mario Kart?" I suggest and they look at me.

"Ugh fine. Only if I get to play against you." Gerard says and I nod.

I move away from Frank making him whine. I roll my eyes at him then quickly peck his lips but he pulls me closer and deepening the kiss. I moan against his lips and straddle his lap then grind down against his growing erection pulling a moan from the boy below me.

"Fucking hell. Don't go having sex on my bed!" Gerard screeches. I giggle while Frank groans then sits up and shoots Gerard a glare.

"Fuck you Gerard. We won't go that fucking far because I made her a promise." Frank playfully growls then Gerard raises an eyebrow with a smirk on his lips.

"Damn Frankie. Chill dude." Gerard mockingly says as they stare at each other then burst out laughing causing me to shake my head at the two of them.

Mikey and Ray have the first tournament on Mario Kart and Mikey loses. Then Frank plays against Gerard. Now it's my turn. I sit next to Gerard taking the control from Frank and he pecks my cheek and whispers "good luck Angel." making me roll my eyes and giggle.

"Are you ready to lose sugar?" Gerard cockily asks with a smirk on his lips.

"You are the one who will be kissing my ass once I beat you Geebear." I sass as I turn to look at the screen with determination in my eyes. I hear Gerard chuckle and whisper "you wish sugar." before we start the race.

"Ha. Kiss my ass Gee!" I scream as I cross the finish line in first place on the last race and see my character in first place on the board.

"Damn I got beat." Gerard says with disbelief. I giggle and peck his cheek making him look at me with a shy smile on his lips.

"If you want me to kiss your ass you better bend over." Gerard says. I playfully slap him making him laugh then I hear Frank grumble "only I'm allowed to kiss her perfect ass." and I shake my head.

"What if I want Gerard to kiss my ass Frankie?" I ask looking at the hazel-green eyed boy. Frank moves from his spot then kneels in front of me and lifts my chin so I am looking into his eyes and he leans forward.

"No one else is allowed to kiss your ass or any part of you except for me." He says before pressing his lips to mine making me squeak as he takes me off guard. I moan as he thrusts his tongue into my mouth and my eyes flutter closed then he lays me back on the floor and climbs on top of me while deepening the kiss. He roughly grinds his clothed erection over my clothed core pulling another moan from my throat. Before things get too heated the basement door opens and Donna walks in with one person I do not want to see; my mother. She looks at me with disgust and anger in her eyes before going to walk over until Donna shakes her head.

"Becky dear. Your mother would like to talk to you." Donna says. I sigh so Frank gets up then helps me to stand and quickly presses his lips to mine again before I follow my mother and Donna out of the basement and up the stairs.

As we walk into the kitchen my mother keeps giving a disgusted look until we sit at the breakfast bar.

"You disgusting child. How dare you let that boy do that to you? Have you got no self respect?" She growls and I glare at her.

"Fuck you. Why don't you tell me the real reason you and my father go a divorce? Don't fucking say it's because you fell out of love with him because I know that's a load of bullshit." I say as anger starts to consume me.

"I suppose I have to. Me and your father were going through a rough patch because I fell pregnant. I didn't want another child but your father did. I went and had an abortion and it broke him. We got into an argument and he asked for a divorce." She says then looks down at her hands.

"Wait. I would have had a sibling but you being a selfish bitch decided that you didn't want another baby? Wow, you're even more selfish than I first thought. Now I want to know why you don't like Frank, Gerard, Mikey, and Ray? What have the done that's so fucking bad?" I ask as I clench my hands into a fist to control my anger.

"They are little punks and that Frank boy is no good for you. You should get with a nice young man who will be successful." She says looking up at me. What the actual fuck?

"They are punks yes but they are fucking amazing people. Frank is good for me because he takes care of me and actually takes my feelings into consideration. You know what? Get the fuck out of my sight because I don't want to fucking see you until I come back over to collect more of my things." I growl while glaring at her. How fucking dare she talk shit about Gerard, Mikey, Frank, and Ray when they have been there for me? My mother goes to hit me again until Donna stands up and holds my mother's wrist while shaking her head with a scowl on her face.

"You do not hit your own child because it's against the law." Donna says eerily calmly even sending a shiver down my spine. My mother looks at me then at Donna before yanking her wrist away from Donna and storming out of the house. I sigh and put my head in my hands as tears start to fall down my cheeks. I can't fucking believe her and what she has done.

"Come on dear. I will take you to the bathroom so you can wash your face then you can go back down to Gerard's bedroom." Donna says softly as she pulls me into a warm motherly hug making more tears fall because my mother never hugged me growing up.

Donna leads me up the stairs and to the bathroom then goes back downstairs. I walk into the bathroom not bothering to lock the door then sit on the edge of the bathtub letting more tears fall down my already tear stained cheeks.

"Do it. No one cares about you. Gerard, Frank, Mikey, and Ray are only pretending to care about you because they feel sorry for you."

I shake my head then walk the cabinet and rummage through everything until I find a loose metal blade sitting on the shelf. Maybe I should just end it all. I pick up the blade and the cold metal feeling familiar between my finger and thumb then sit on the cold tile floor.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry you never cared. I'm sorry I'm such a burden. Goodbye." I whisper. I pull up the sleeve of my blouse and look down with tears stinging my eyes then press the cold metal to my warm skin.

'Useless'
'Disgusting'
'Whore'
'Worthless'

Word after word runs through my brain motivating me to keep cutting my skin and letting tears fall.

"What the fuck?" I look up to see Frank with the look of shock on his face. He walks in, closes the door then locks it before walking over to me.

"Why? Why have you done this Angel?" Frank asks as he kneels in front of me and takes the blade from me then holds my wrist in his hand.

"I'm worth nothing Frank. I'm a burden to everyone I meet. No one cares. I know you, Gerard, Mikey, and Ray only care because I'm just a sob story." I say not even bothering to keep the hurt, anger and hopelessness from my voice.

"You're none of those things at all Becky and we do care about you. Hell I fucking love you." Frank says. I look up at him to see his cheeks turn a deep shade of red.

"Y-You love me?" I ask just in case I didn't hear him correctly. He looks into my eyes then nods.

"Come on, let's get you cleaned up then we can join the others. Gerard is throwing a right bitch fit because Ray stole his favourite feather boa." Frank says with a chuckle then picks me up and carries me to the toilet.

He sits me on the toilet seat then goes into the cabinet to get the first aid kit. I still can't believe he just told me he loves me. Once Frank gets the first aid kit he walks over to me then kneels in front of me and looks up into my eyes. The whole time he is cleaning my arm and wrapping it up there isn't a single word said between us. He stands back up and walks to the cabinet to put the first aid kit back then turns to look at me.

"Becky, please don't hurt yourself again. You are far too beautiful, caring, sweet and one of the most amazing people I have ever met to hurt yourself. I erm... I have always had feelings for you but I thought once we became friends they would go. Boy how wrong was I because they only got stronger. It's only today that I realize I love you." Frank says as he walks back over then kneels in front of me again.

I look into his eyes trying to find some sort of dishonesty and some kind of lie but I don't see any of them. I smile at him and I can tell he is nervous and anxious about how I will react.

"Frankie, I'm not good with telling people how I feel but I know I feel something for you. I don't know if it's a crush or love so I'm going to say love. I love you too, Frank Iero." I whisper.

Frank stands up and brings me up with him. He gently wraps his arms around my waist and looks down at me, his hazel-green eyes sparkling with care and love making my heart nearly stop beating. He slowly leans down but we get interrupted by knocking on the bathroom door. Frank groans and I giggle then Frank lets go of me to unlock the bathroom door.

"Fr... oh." I look past Frank to see Gerard. I try not to laugh at the surprised look on his face.

"I'm not going to ask. Mum asked me to come and check on Becky but it looks like I don't need to. Anyway, mum has also made cookies and coffee." Gerard says as he looks at me.

"Tell Donna we will be down in a minute Gee." I say as a blush spreads across my cheeks. Gerard gives me a knowing smirk before walking away from the bathroom. The moment Gerard is out of sight Frank chuckles then turns to look at me with a smirk on his lips.

"Gerard is the biggest cockblock I have ever met. Come on, we better go downstairs before Donna sends either Mikey or Ray up next." Frank says holding out his hand. I giggle then take his hand while lacing our fingers then we walk out of the bathroom. Who would have thought that Frank Iero the punk boy of Pencey Prep high school would ever have feelings for let alone love a girl like me. A girl from Las Vegas with a fucked up past.