i called felix on saturday and asked if he wanted to meet up.

it wasn't for what you thought though, but rather for the fact that i could barely get enough sleep because of you.

you would only leave me alone once i got you new teeth.

and because i didn't feel like giving chan up just yet, i decided to bring out the next best thing.

but felix told me that someone close to him had died and that he would be going to their memorial service today. he wouldn't be able to make it.

i told him it was fine, and then peered down at my sketch book.

it was open to a single page dedicated to felix and the best parts of his teeth.

i'd tried to envision what he'd look like without them, and i'd spent hours sketching his canines and molars without his gums, as they looked the most like what you'd want.

but somewhere in the furthest corner of my mind, i could hear you whispering another name that wasn't lee felix.

i tried to ignore it though.

- lee minho, 17