⌈ IN TOO DEEP ⌋

i can feel my heartbeat
erratically drop speed,
and i'm clearly breaking but
you just dont see me.

i dunno if i'm just too good at
hiding my disdain,
or you're just too unbothered to
bother about my pain.

i'm falling deeper in the dimple of
my black hole.
the worst part is there's
no one to catch me or bring me out
as whole.

with my splintered wings i once
used to soar.
now they keep splintering 'till it's
just no more.

i'm in too deep.
now i'm in too deep.

too deep to reach back out of
a void of nothingness,
or pull my pieces back together
from its quite obvious mess,
or soothe my mind of it's own
poison brought by my distress.

can't tell if this is all a game.
thought we were just the same.
the name to my dame.
but now i wanna run away from
what once had kept me sane.

and i want to fight back,
back for my title.
if only i had strength to
muster up for the battle.

with an invincible armour
i used to fight,
when i had you up right by my side.
now it's chipped away from when
you left me forever on that
one dreadful night.

and everything crashed onto me
as history repeated itself again.
it drew me back in too deep;
too deep to make it out
its end.

well, alive at least.